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Steal something from my apartment:
Notepad size TotK Zelda stationary
FF14 splash art coaster collection
Small, misshapen serving plate with hand-dyed rabbit print
Keychain sized whale shark plushie
Origami foldable box organizer made by my old student
Tal'Dorei map blanket
Poltchageist hair pin
Travel-sized empty alcohol bottle collection
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Voting ended onApr 18
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Thanks! Wow it's been a while since I've done something like this lol I feel like I'm in middle school again.
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This got. Uh. Long. So. Under a cut it goes.
NOTP
Zelos and Genis. Not only does their extremely disparate maturity levels make this feel kind of Bad, personally, I just. Do not see a world in which they ever have more in common than liking Lloyd and Colette. While Zelos is probably self-destructive enough to enter a relationship that's not good for him (see below) even if he knows it's bad, I just don't see Genis wanting a relationship, ever, with someone he doesn't like, and Genis will never like Zelos. Accept, sure. Acknowledge, maybe eventually. But not like.
BROTP
This was really hard XD it was rough picking between the characters Zelos has potentially fascinating interactions with...but I think I'll pick Colette. Chosen4Chosen platonic angst and maybe, hopefully, a little bit learning how to be human together.
OTP
Lloyd, obviously.
Second choice pairing
Hm, I think this is almost more basic than the OTP choice, but I actually quite enjoy Sheena and Zelos as a pairing, too. Specifically only if they're a little fucked up, though. Like Sheena has contributed to Zelos's spiraling self-worth, and Zelos has dismissed and belittled Sheena with casual misogyny, and their whole friendship has been rife with distrust. But, despite that, they know each other pretty well--in a universe where they finally were honest about how they were both hurting, I think there's a path to reconciliation that could easily become both compelling and romantic.
Fluffy pairing
I mean...Zelloyd? Lol. Zelos is a very angsty character, so the only way I think to get a fluffy pairing out of him is to put him with a very upbeat character, and our upbeat characters in ToS who have enough chemistry with him to be interesting are...Sheena (see above), Colette (Chosen/Chosen could never be fluffy lmao I'm sorry), Genis (who would not be fluffy with Zelos), and Lloyd. You see my dilemma. I'm cheating and saying Zelloyd again.
Angsty pairing
Zelos is like an instant angst flavor packet lmao there's too many choices. Okay, in seriousness, while I acknowledge the angst potential of the Chosens and also of something like Zelos/Mithos or Zelos/Regal (that one could arguably have a happy ending), I think my favorite angsty pairing is fairly basic. It's Zelos and Hilda. I think they could easily be forced into a public courtship or marriage, and they would both hate it, but while Hilda would be allowed to show her disdain, Zelos would hide it, and they would end up in an endless feedback loop of hatred and pettiness and resentment, all the while reinforcing the worst traits in each other. It would be toxic and destructive and the kind of thing that would probably lead to multiple tragic plays and epics.
Poly ship
While I do have a soft spot for Sheena/Zelos/Lloyd, I think my favorite poly ship is the one I like to call "The Adults are Talking," and it's Raine, Regal, and Zelos. I could very much see a situation where the three of them have a mutual and open FWB thing going on when the stress of what the rest of the Sylvarant Squad is up to gets to be too much that eventually leads to some genuine vulnerability and intimacy.
Weirdest pairing
I don't. Know. lol. There's too many weird fucking characters in ToS, so no matter what answer I choose here, I feel like there's a weirder option out there somewhere. If I'm sticking to relatively major characters and ignoring the sequel, then... (oh boy this is going to get me cancelled) I did once have a Thought that went something along the lines of Zelos and Presea. Not necessarily romantically, but two people who both have a very complicated relationship with the idea of sex for very different reasons maybe exploring how they can maybe find peace with it. If we're including the sequel, I think Zelos and Decus would be just the campiest toxic yaoi to ever camp, and it would be funny, but also somehow wildly homophobic.
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Rules: You just got a kind of shitty old car, and it doesn't have bluetooth. You can only buy 7 CDs, and you can't repeat an artist. What are you getting?
Acting under the assumption that I have to "buy" CDs for the game even if I already own them... In no particular order*, I'd go with:
Screen Violence: Director's Cut by CHVRCHES
Leave This Town by Daughtry
Hotel California by The Eagles
Cards on the Table by Jason Charles Miller
How to Train Your Dragon by John Powell (OST)
The Visit by Loreena McKennitt
Transmissions by Starset
*I said no particular order and then realized when I hit 5 that I'd coincidentally listed them in ABC order, so I kept that up lol.
I will tag @orime-stories @undyingembers @sayonaramidnight @makialene and @lumeha, if you want!
83%. When was the last time they were crushed with disappointment? How did that impact them? Did it have a lifelong effect on them?
For Inky, please >:3
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83%. When was the last time they were crushed with disappointment? How did that impact them? Did it have a lifelong effect on them?
Since Inky's timeline is a little in flux right now, I'll choose to go with the earliest instance of this, which was when Inky argued with her mother about not wanting to marry Dulele because their relationship wasn't working. Inky wasn't able to express herself very well at the time, but her big takeaway from that argument was feeling like her mama didn't care about what Inky actually wants out of life as long as mama gets grandchildren. This isn't actually true, of course, but Inky carried the disappointment with her for a long time, and it's the reason she didn't tell her parents she was leaving when she took off for Eorzea.
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4. Has your OC ever been separated from someone they love for an extended period? How did this affect their relationship? What (if anything) did they do to keep their connection alive during this time?
Well. Yeah. Um. *gestures to post-SB/pre-ShB*
For those unfamiliar, Inky and Thancred were courting through most of SB and finally got together before Thancred left on his spy mission to Garlemald. Of course, it was only a few months after that when Thancred was semi-successfully summoned to the First, and it took Inky (in my timeline) about six months to manage to find a way to follow everyone who got got. So, from her perspective, the man she was falling in love with had been comatose with his soul missing for six months as a result of someone trying to steal Inky.
Thankfully, Inky has a pretty good support network and decent emotional intelligence, so she wasn't paralyzed with worry or guilt, but she was definitely anxious and definitely missing her partner. There was nothing she could really do to "reach" Thancred at that point (or vice-versa), but Inky would keep notes about things that she wanted to tell him when they managed to meet again.
From Thancred's perspective...well, he was gone for five years thanks to the dimensional shenaniganry. And he was also immediately thrust into a situation that was pretty consistently buttonsmashing all his traumas. Even if he would think of Inky and their relationship sometimes, there was nothing he could do to reach out to her.
So, tl;dr, unfortunately, the specific circumstances of that whole mess resulted in their relationship falling apart. Jury's still out on whether they manage to repair it, or if they even want to. It's possible they're both going to be content just to be friends moving forward since their lives have taken them different places.
7. Has your OC ever broken someone’s heart? Did they realise at the time that they had? Did they care?
Yes, actually. It's the most Mary Sue thing Inky has ever done (besides being a JRPG protagonist, which is...very M/Gary Sue tbh).
The straw the broke the camel's back when it came to Inky leaving her hometown was a relationship her parents pressured her into trying out with a woman who lived near them. I'm 99% sure I named this woman at some point, but I can't find the record anywhere, so she'll be unnamed for now. She was a lalafell, too, and she genuinely really liked Inky, but Inky wasn't down with the whole 'stay on the island where we were raised and have a family and take over the family businesses to provide for our kids who we'll raise on the same island' thing. The two of them slept together once, and Inky consented to it fully but didn't really have a good time, and their relationship started to dry up after that.
But Inky kind of panicked after realizing she "couldn't" sleep with this person who was her friend of many years (even if not a super close friend), and also when that woman started talking about marriage so quickly after, Inky picked up, packed her things, and ran away. She only told her sister she was leaving, but not really anything else. So the ex Inky left behind was definitely heartbroken and betrayed, and Inky does feel really bad about it...but she also knows she'd probably make the same exact choice again, and that's become a central conflict for her character in Dawntrail tbh.
I was tagged by @orime-stories to make myself and an OC in this picrew.
Here's a slightly outdated version of me that I made in this picrew a couple years ago (my hair is no longer blue, but I still like this image, so I used it again) vs my new Shadowrun OC, Vita!
I'll tag @undyingembers @vihola @quaxorascal @lumeha and @makialene.
8. To what degree do you use your OC as a means to explore your own romantic proclivities (or shortcomings)? Is your OC a self-insert and the relationship a form of wish-fulfilment and/or an means to explore certain fantasies? Or do you enjoy exploring something completely different to your own experiences and preferences?
25. Other than your own characters' relationships, can you give an example of someone who is particularly good at writing or otherwise portraying romantic and/or sexual relationships? What is it about their work that really stands out for you?
32. If you ship your OC with a particular canon character, then what was it about that character that drew you to them? Is it that you have a certain "type" when it comes to shipping? Or did you surprise yourself with who you felt drawn towards? If your OC is in a relationship with another OC then did you change any aspects of either of their backstories or personalities to make this work?
Another old ask, but better late than never, right? This got long, so it's under a cut.
8. To what degree do you use your OC as a means to explore your own romantic proclivities (or shortcomings)?...
A...lot. Lmao. Like a ton. Most of what I know about myself and my relationship to romance and sex comes from the stories I have read (and how I react to them) and the stories I write. But, to be honest, usually I don't know what a given story is going to teach me until I write it. For example, I never considered that I might have a dominant aspect of my personality until I started to explore the sexual tension between Yrrce and Ayumo. I never considered how my own difficulty rejecting people could lead to more pain down the line until I explored that as an aspect of Elex (TWC). I didn't really understand the degree and flavor of my ace-ness until I started thinking about Inky (FF14) and her relationship to attraction vs. fantasy. So, often, I find that even when I start out with a character who has a romantic inclination that I initially think is just an interesting personality trait to explore, the desire to explore that tends to come from something inside me that's asking to be interrogated. OCs are a low-stakes way for me to do that.
25. ...Can you give an example of someone who is particularly good at writing or otherwise portraying romantic and/or sexual relationships?...
Basically every author I follow on tumblr? My mutuals are exceptionally talented.
That said, I have a particular fondness for @floreswrites's works. He has a way of inextricably linking identity to romance so that the characters feel quite three-dimensional. And, there's always this aspect of tension in his works. Usually it's pining and angst at its core, but the tension never feels contrived or like a pure plot device, so its resolution is an immense catharsis both for the relationship and personally for the characters involved. That's not to say that being in a relationship is the end-all-be-all of personal development in his work; he does an excellent job of showing that relationships are stories unto themselves rather than a hand-wave happy ending, but still.
I can't really answer the sexual part of this question well since I tend to focus more on the romantic fulfillment that comes out of sex due to my own biases. But any author who can write a sex scene that feels pleasant for me personally to read has my admiration because I don't even know how to do that yet. It's a work in progress.
32. [nested questions, difficult to summarize, shhh, the text is in the ask <3]
My personal type, when it comes to OCs, comes down to characters who tick one of two boxes: (a) characters who use flirting/charm to deflect from their own insecurities, and/or (b) characters who struggle with unconditional acceptance and love because that was withheld from them in their backstory. These two archetypes often overlap. I don't think this "type" extends to my actual preferences, because the partner to those types of characters often takes on a sort of savior role, and that's not really a recipe for a healthy relationship IRL 9 times out of 10, but in fiction? Delicious.
I can't answer every part of this question for every OC, but I do have three notable examples of romantic development that kind of address this question.
First up is Inky, who I initially thought was not going to have a love interest, and if she did, that it would never in a million years be the two people she ended up with. I didn't create her with the goal of "romancing" anyone in FF14, and so when Heavensward finished up with no signs of her being attracted to anyone, I thought she would just be the ultimate platonic Scion soulmate.
And then in came Thancred with a steel chair, fulfilling her childhood dashing-hero dreams in a very real, tangible way, now with the form of someone she had time to get to know as a good friend and who accepted her for everything she was, and I had a very real oh no moment. Then, the two of them broke up during/after Shadowbringers, and I was very content with the idea of that relationship just having been a small part of their story--until Urianger came in with a whole adamantite throne and not only saved Inky's relationship with Thancred, but managed to--despite being the only Scion she didn't fully click with for four expansions--develop in a direction that made them just as endearing and attractive to her. And now she has two boyfriends. So that was a fun surprise.
Second in the interesting ships list is Ytelarien and @undyingembers's Lenarius/Lenosa. We had an RP with the two of them where they met in an alternate reality that was ongoing for some time (but unfortunately hasn't been for a few years now--mostly my fault). Despite both of them having other "canon" love interests, there was a level of tension between them in the RP that developed quite naturally, even if we never got to pursuing it properly. It surprised me how compatible the two of them were despite also having a good deal of friction. Maybe someday that will be fun to explore again and see what happens.
Third is an example where I did noticeably change the OC involved. One of my longer-running D&D characters, Montgomery, underwent a massive personality shift about two sessions into playing him because I realized that, since I was the only player in the group with experience playing D&D, the other players were looking to my character for leadership, despite me not having designed him that way initially. For the sake of the group dynamic and making sure that the sessions weren't emotionally distressing to the other players, I talked to the DM and altered Montgomery's personality behind the scenes to take him (away from the fantasy-Silicon Valley rich kid who needed to learn how to be a real person) and shift him to a young man whose queerness--in all senses of the word--had left him contorting in all the wrong ways to try and earn love and approval.
As a direct result of that change, a romance became possible with one of his party members, Lorelei, that wouldn't have been possible otherwise. I didn't make the shift with the end goal of romance in mind, but considering that Montgomery and Lorelei's relationship is one of my favorites that I've ever been a part of writing, it hits me a lot just how close I came to never experiencing it if I hadn't altered his backstory and personality.
This got long, so here's Lorelei and Montgomery kissing as a reward for reading the whole thing.