#rip shy

Shy passed away on his own terms, the day before I was going to make the appointment that would set him free him from his failing body. I was with him when he took his last breath. Life sure isn't the same without my Golden Boy.

Hahahahahahaha I'm gonna die from stress. Hooray for being a procrastinator and perfectionist. I have a science test on Tuesday and I haven't started studying because I have a crap ton of other projects to do. I'm dying and can't even get started because I'm so overwhelmed. Im trying to break it into smaller steps but it makes me think I'm not gonna finish so what's the point. That doesn't mix well with my crippling fear of failure. God. Damn. It. Rip me.

i love you so much, crazy girl

i still can’t believe you’re gone…

i’m going to miss you forever.

I been in denial for a couple days, and now that life has settled down now everything is caving in. my heart is literally breaking into peices knowing i’ll never get to hear that laugh of yours ever again. i’m shaking just typing this and not a word can truly describe how much hurt i’m feeling. i’m trying really hard to hold it in and keep myself from crying. no, I’m not okay. how can i deal with this