#rilisreverse

English

Even if i’m loved, just like yesterday I coveted dreams in our room of love

Falling slowly into you, down, down There was never a real me You’re a fool, falling down, down How good it feels, how utterly meaningless

Feel all of me with your filthy body All we need to do is want it You say things like “that’s love”, but That’s not enough for me

I wanted to be loved, not with words I wanted a kiss that tastes of blood I can’t like just “like” anymore We knew that all we shared were lies

Falling slowly into a dream, down, down There was never really anyone here Look at you, falling down, down How good it feels, how simple

Throw your clothes off, use your ugly body And just hold me I can say things like “I love you” easily, but They’re not enough

Tomorrow, everything will vanish, and turn to nothing All I want is to stay here People say things like “You should live in the moment”, but I don’t know about that yet

Feel all of me with your filthy body All we need to do is want it You say things like “That’s love”, but That’s not enough

Japanese

愛されても昨日と同じ　恋の部屋で夢を貪った

だんだん落ちてく君の中　本当の僕はいなかった down downオチてる君は馬鹿　ぜんぜん意味ないキモチイじゃ

ぜんぶ感じてよ汚い軀で　ただ求め合えばいい 愛だなんだとか君は言うけれど　マダタリナイ

愛されたい言葉じゃなくて　血の味するキスが欲しかった 好きだけでは好きになれない　分かってたよ二人だけの嘘

だんだん落ちてく夢の中　本当は誰もいなかった down downオチてる君なんか　ぜんぜん訳ないキモチイじゃ

ぜんぶ脱ぎ捨てて醜い軀で　ただ抱きしめてくれよ 君が好きだとか簡単に言うけれど　モノタリナイ

ぜんぶ明日には消えてなくなるよ　ただここにいたいのさ 今を生きろとか人は言うけれど　マダシラナイ

ぜんぶ感じてよ汚い軀で　ただ求め合えばいい 愛だなんだとか君は言うけれど　マダタリナイ

Notes

English

The symptoms were slowly progressing In a 6-mat hospital room, I couldn’t see the sky from the window How long has it been now? The pain is so great I can't sleep But my murder is tender, with a soft knife

Your look or that gaze or those words I don't accept them Even if I puke, I’ll swallow the pain and cast it aside My body got a little heavier

Unwittingly, unconsciously, the pain i’d been carrying Had ah, immobilised me

On a night when i'm sick I bow to you, who had at last held my heart That deep night, a disease spread by liars

Soley, that song will be what rescues me from that night

Deep in my chest was the medicine i’d taken to dissolve it Their droplets insoluble while cold

I’m used to it not working As when one takes too much “Dreams” are also a side effect To you, oh night when i’m sick I began to understand you

Your look or that gaze or those words It’s fine if I can’t force myself to accept them And it’s fine if you don’t love me completely My heart became a little lighter

Truly, don’t I have to admit The sickness was Ah, it was “me” all along

In the dead of night, laughing with you Slowly, the world is being changed And the lowly me is too So I’ll go on living with my whole heart

So let’s say, even if if i’m frail, barely holding on It is “I” who will keep on living

The cause was unknown The name of that pain was given to me Yes, after all, that pain’s name too Was the only thing that saved me…

On a night… On a night when i’m sick You’d truly given to me a gentle darkness And now I With my whole heart, can keep on living

So let’s say, if i’m frail, barely holding on “Living” will be beautiful

We’ll step out into the newly risen dawn Let’s take that “night” with us too.

Japanese

症状は徐々に進行していた。 6畳の病室、窓は空を見せない いつからだろうか？ 眠れない程の痛みが 静かに柔らかな刃物で僕を殺すんだ

あの表情や視線や言葉を 受け入れられず、吐いても 痛みは飲み込んで仕舞うよ 体は少し重くなった

知らず知らずに持たされた荷物が Ah　動けなくするんだ

ヨルノヤマイ 君をさらい、最後に心を持ってった 夜は深い、嘘つきが撒いた病

あの音楽だけがこの夜から救ってくれる

胸の奥、溶かすように薬飲んだ 粒子状のソレは冷めた温度には溶けない

効かない事に慣れて 摂り過ぎりゃ 「夢」も副作用 拝啓、ヨルノヤマイ キミがわかってきたんだ

あの表情や視線や言葉は 無理に受け入れなくていい 全部愛せなくてもいい 心は少し軽くなった

きっと認めなくちゃいけないんだ この病は Ah　「自分自身」だって事

夜の中、君と笑う 世界は少しずつ変わっていく 弱い自分も この心ごと生きていく

たとえ、脆くて、からがらでも 「僕」を生きていく

原因不明だった この痛みに病名をくれた この痛みにも名前があるんだって それだけで心は救われて…

夜の… ヨルノヤマイ キミはきっと優しい暗闇をくれたんだ 今の自分と その心ごと生きていていいんだよ

たとえ、脆くて、からがらでも 「生きる事」が美しい

明け出した空、踏み出すよ この「夜」も連れていこう。

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