#rika blabs

i saw ella @zombieella do it so i’m doing it LETS GO

LAST: Last drink: Water Last phone call: lol my optometrist Last text message: uhhh Mindy MY FAVORITE GIRL Last song you listened to: currently, it's Kontinuum's Lost (ft. Savoi) but before it was jontron's cover of firework l-lol Last time I cried: a few days ago i was watching thai life insurance commercials

HAVE YOU EVER: Dated someone twice: thank god no i dont do that second chance business Been cheated on: lmao i really hope not Kissed someone and regretted it: i IMMEDIATELY regretted it intensely Lost someone special: yes Been depressed: y-e-a Been drunk and thrown up: THANK BACCHUS/DIONYSUS NO

IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU: Made a new friend: YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA Fallen out of love: yyyyea Laughed until you cried: its almost every other day when i talk to ella Met someone who changed you: y .. eah? Found out who your true friends were: lol yes and it was a very enlightening ordeal Found out someone was talking about you: no? i mean, if someone was, my first reaction would be to get upset but lol i have better things to do with my time???

GENERAL: How many people on tumblr do you know in real life: two? there's way more people i know from other sites and shit that i know irl Do you have any pets: I HAVE THREE CHICKENS I WISH THEY WERE ROOS SO I CAN SAY "LET ME FLASH YOU SOME COCK PICS" Do you want to change your name: eh probably yeah What time did you wake up this morning: 11.08 and i was late for class looool What were you doing last night: stayed up hella late working on this monster of a commission. i got a lot done Name something you cannot wait for: SPRING BREAK SPRING BREAK SPRING BREAK SPRING BREAK Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: now that i think about it, no. WOw What’s getting on your nerves rn: i keep checking the TH forums and trade threads even though 1.) i don't have anything to trade 2.) i'm not looking to trade anything and 3.) literally nothing interests me but i am just COMPELLED TO CHECK every so often Blood type: I DON'T KNOW I THOUGHT IT WAS A- BUT MY MOM SAID ITS NOT RIGHT Nicknames: rika, ricka, frug, i can't be assed to remember them all Relationship status: single as hell Zodiac sign: leo Pronouns: she/her/they/them Favorite T.V show: BEN TENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN High School: im done with that business College: didnt wanna go back but here i am Hair color: dark brown or some shit like that Long or short: it sits on my shoulders and i hate it Do you have a crush on someone: i do and i hate it because i love them so much buT i dont think they're taking me seriously and it hurts a little bit. we also don't talk very often anymore but that's okay we're both busy What do you like about yourself: i'm a fucking delight sorry that's a bullshit answer but i literally sat on this for a good ten fifteen minutes because i couldn't think of anything and i'm going to be honest i don't like myself very much right now Tattoos: i want a small barcode on the back of my neck IT SOUNDS REALLY TACKY but im a product of my own creation and it means a lot to me that i worked hard to make myself who i am Righty or lefty: left

FIRSTS: First surgery: eye, draining a chalazion, 0/10 would not recommend it involves cauterization First piercing: ears, i found out im allergic to silver and nickel that way (awoooo) First best friend: i dont remember First sport you joined: is talking shit a sport First vacation: probably to canada or vietnam

RN: Eating: nothing im so hungry Drinking: i used to have water but my cup is empty I’m about to: get my ass whooped for not doing my homework i'm procrastinationg Listening to: kanadajin3's video on fukushima's ice formations it's a little bit boring compared to her other videos but she just uploaded it so im watching it Waiting for: my ipad to charge so i can waste more time playing cookie run Want kids: now?? haha fuck no Get married: right now??? fuck no unless some handsome rich business woman/man is going to knock on my door and let me live out the crazy smut shoujo life like i've been reading about in some wild ass manga lately Career: if i can hug chickens for a living, i'd probably do it

WHICH IS BETTER:

Lips or eyes: eyes Hugs or kisses: hug me until i die Shorter or taller: same height ok Older or younger: older im not about to go to jail Romantic or spontaneous: u can me... spontaneously romantic... wtf Sensitive or loud: loud LOUD LOUD LOUD LOUD Hook up or relationship: relationship im not about that wham bam thank u mam life Troublemaker or hesitant: lol troublemaker just as long as i dont end up on the run from police because i'm somehow an accomplice in an international drug cartel

HAVE YOU EVER: Kissed a stranger: no? Drank hard liquor:  lol today actually Lost glasses/contacts: yes, both Sex on first date: no????? Broken someones heart: maybe? i know there's a lot of disappointment there Been arrested: no thank god lmao Turned someone down: yeah Cried when someone died: fucking always Fallen for a friend: realized it a little too late but yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE: In yourself: LMAOOOOOO NOPE Miracles: nice things can happen Love at first sight: probably thirst at first but not love Heaven: sure Santa Claus: he sure as hell don't deliver to me because i openly confessed that i would really like to fuck a 2d character and be spitroasted by his younger brother (lookin' at you ella, looking @ you)

i had a dream about someone that i loved seven years ago and following a kiss i said “i waited four years for this” but then i remembered they moved away two years after i had known them and ive never seen them again

then there’s the man i keep dreaming about, it’s not a reoccurring dream but rather a reoccurring character, this man whose face i can’t see because it’s always shrouded in shadow and smoke. he has a voice but i can’t ever see who he is because no matter how close to him i am my eyes can’t focus and he’s a blur. but every time i look at him my heart is filled with this agonizing and heavy love mixed with grief