#ricksbeard

I woke up crying I couldn’t for the life of me figure out why until I realized that I’m leaving almost everything that I’ve ever loved behind to be a scared, lonely little girl in a different state. Across the country.

I get that this is normal, sure, but it doesn’t make it any less scary to have my entire life uprooted at any moment.

But besides that, there are so many people here who have touched my heart so deeply and I couldn’t imagine my life without them there.

I’m not best friends with all of them, but each one has given me a better look at myself and what it means to love.

So here’s to you guys and everything that you’ve given me and everything that I’m going to miss when I’m gone.

I would love to say everything that’s in my heart to your faces, but there aren’t words out there to describe it. So instead, here’s a list of stuff that I’m going to miss on top of that.

-Rick’s beard. -Nicole’s hair. -Steve’s stupid hat. -Alex’s bowtie. -Paul’s face. -Sheena’s eyelashes -Rick’s hugs -Steve’s smile -Sheena’s hands -Tarina’s boots -Tarina’s airplane earrings -Nelson’s teasing -How Daniel let’s me cheat at ping pong -Ari’s horniness

It’s a stupid list, and it’s a cheap cop out for how I really feel, but I might start crying if I were to try to write out what I actually want to say.

I promise that I’ll say it all though. To each one of you.