#rickardo

I'm not sure if I'm doing this open relationship thing correctly. :/ I still love Nick more than any other man in my life. I don't want that to change. I want him to stay in my life. I want to continue dating him. However, I enjoy being around Rick as well, but in a completely different way. I like holding his hand when we go to the store and cuddling when we watch movies. I showered with him and that was a HUGE thing for me, but I was eventually okay with it. But! We don't share drinks or food. We don't talk about his shitty girlfriend...and I don't even know how much she knows about me. That only sometimes bothers me though. -shrugs- I want to continue this, because I like how Rick can make me feel. But I don't know if Nick feels like I'm forgetting him. I'm definitely not. I love him so much and a lot. <3 I hope he doesn't feel like that. Are there rules to follow? Nick and I do talk about it. Very often, in fact, and he hasn't mentioned anything. I don't want this to hurt anyone. I am learning so much more about myself than I would have ever found out on my own, without Rick. I sometimes want to refer to him as my second boyfriend. :/ I haven't talked to Nick about that yet though. kirbydmr, olivilot