#retroghost

So I made this doodle of Snow from Smash Legends after procrastinating doing some fun personal art in my sketchbook. This is not my usual sketchbook this is a random one I won from a swag ag or some random event. But I realized just how much I rush things without realizing it. I have a really hard time getting things done due to a combination of things but when I do get them done it's always an absolute mad dash all at once to get it over with. I realized today that I don't need to do that with my art and I probably shouldn't. What's funny about it was when I let myself finally, just draw, I ended up making something that wasn't half bad for not totally paying attention to the reference and I did it in 11 minutes despite it feeling like I spent 20! For some reason that realization was insane to me. Art is fun and time slows down when I let myself draw and have fun! I really need to let myself be less tense so often so I can make more realizations like this. This realization also really acted as a punch in the gut to show me just how sensationalized art and media have made my brain think about things despite me thinking that I wasn't nearly as affected by those things as I was. Also I think drawing with a ballpoint pen really helped too because it's much smoother than the inking pen meant for manga I had been carrying with me everywhere.

Of course this isn't mind shattering art skill wise but the lesson Is learned from it was. The lesson to you all, big or small artist, whether or not you even post your art, don't be so tense about it. Don't let your expectations of yourself crush you before you even begin. Let each and every piece of art becomes meaning scrawlings on parchment so you can keep making it. Make it because it's fun and not because you want a product. Then when you look back it'll have meaning to it.

It's funny too about how time twists and wraps itself when you draw because that digital sketch of Bridget I posted a bit ago I genuinely thought I'd spent like 5+ hours trying to make the perfect sketch but when I checked my screentime and added up the sessions I worked on it, it only came out to an hour and 20 minutes max. That's just to say you can do some insane stuff when you focus on the process instead of the end product. That's honestly probably how people with insanely detail digital illustrations get their stuff done and I need to remind myself of that so I can improve. I all for improving as much as I can but I needed to be reminded that art, while technical and requires dedication and skill, also requires a lot of love and personality to be out into in order to love your art.

Sorry for the long ass rant but honestly I think that's probably what I'm most known for on my blog other than the art I make.

Yay finally got this thing posted! I made this really short manga like thing to use an examples of my work for an application to be n artist for the youtube channel Crystal Blitz. They do dubs of manga of their artists n stuff and there's some pretty good series on there too if you check them out.

Besides all that the story that I came up with for this manga was supposed to be like a prologue of a story about a Magical girl that crash-landed on the moon where humans are already living on. I wanted to mix cool fantasy sort of stuff but sci-fi things at the same time. Granted the story is pretty jank so far and isn't really thought out since I kind of came up with all this on the fly. If I wasn't so pressed for time I might've made it a bit longer to make things clearer or actually introduce the characters. In the meantime maybe I'll try drawing and redesigning these characters if I want to take this sort of story somewhere in the future. Now that I'm about to post this and looking at it its really embarrassing but I promised I'd post it so I gotta keep a promise.

Oh yeah I tried yesterday and then again today but for some reason both jpeg and png formats were getting and error message and wouldn't let me post it. I don't know for certain but if I had to guess maybe the screen tones were a bit much for tumblr in that format? I've posted jpegs and pngs before so I know that they do work. What finally got it to work was just to post screen shots of my clip studio paint tab open, so ignore the random manga border lines on the edges of the screen for now.