Fruit Quest: Seek out and explore strange new Fruits I have never eaten before.

Get Back: Complete Physical Therapy and resume a fitness regimen, with the honest goal of preventing a cycle of injury and toning up. I'm done trying to lose weight, there are hormonal reasons that is Not going to happen.

Drink Some of this tea: Yes, In much the same manner that some people buy books or games... I love buying and trying new teas. I have a LOT of tea.

Play More: I want to play more games, and play more music, and play with friends.

(Edit) Be a Joiner?? Scary as hell. Outside my Comfort Zone. I've been living my life by vampire rules, where you have to be explicitly invited to things... But I think maybe this was wrongheaded, and fear based behavior. Mistrustful, and based on intrusive thinking rather than the trust I should actually place in human friends.

in 2026 —

Building up a daily practice of writing, so that it becomes a habit – diary entries, planning, essays, fiction, crônicas, research, reading notes...

Developing a journal 'ecosystem' for my myriad notebooks; one that actually works for me

Less screen time! Reminding myself to put the phone down; to not spend hours upon hours mindlessly scrolling.

Reading more – easier when less time is spent scrolling.

Picking up my violin again, and playing sessions with old friends

Hopefully — getting a diagnosis and treatment; regaining independence! Joy! Energy! A body that can sustain me!!

I prefer hopes or goals to resolutions; they're not something I will or must do, but a things to work towards; to keep in mind as I pass my days. To look back at from time to time and remember what it is I wanted more of...

Do so many things in the new year!

¡Adios 2021, Bienvenida 2022!

With less than 24 hours left in 2021, perhaps it’s time for a few personal reflections.  I’ve had more than plenty of time to just sit and think during the past four months, and often my thoughts have revealed more about my own inner workings than anything. One thing I learned about myself is that I’m really good at ‘talking the talk’, but when it comes to ‘walking the walk’, I fail miserably.  I…

- you are who you choose to be

- you don’t have to apologize for how you feel

- you deserve to feel loved

- you don’t deserve to feel shitty because someone said you are

- you’re a good person

- you’re pretty

- it’s not wrong to ask for what you want

- it’s not selfish to take care of yourself

- grades are never more important than mental health

- eating isn’t bad

- you don’t have to face your triggers to be a “badass”

- it’s ok to have triggers

- breathing is not the solution to everything

- sometimes your going to be so unmotivated that you can’t shower, it’s ok try again tomorrow

- sometimes your going to make yourself puke because it’s all a little too much, it’s ok, take a nap and call someone

- you do not “owe” anyone your time and energy

- if you ignore people to see if they care, they never will, instead ask

- you don’t have to keep relationships that aren’t mutually beneficial

- you can’t stop therapy because you feel ok today or you won’t feel ok tomorrow

- nobody hates you because you cared, no one will ever hate you for caring

- you don’t need anyone else to be happy, that doesn’t mean you can’t want a relationship

- don’t be afraid to be you, unless it directly impacts your safety

- stop apologizing for being feminist and pro-lgbtq rights and pro-choice and participating in blm , YOUR OPINIONS CANT BE WRONG