sweetheart
nerd!anton x nerd!reader | 5.1k words
a request i got and it kinda made me go a little insane.
contains: anton pretends to be an insecure little nerd to plot on the reader, fingering, reader is implied to be a virgin
part one | part two
Anton is a sweetheart. Heβs non assuming and soft spoken, so quiet that he has to clear his throat each time he speaks. Heβs kind, always extending the same tenderness and patience to people he received as a child. Heβs one of the few men in his program that the girls didnβt have trouble approaching if they had a question or trouble with an assignment.Β
Each time anyone approached him with a question he was helpful, pushing his thick frames up his face before leaning to the paper. With a pencil heβd mark where the mistake was, and explaining it with a gentle voice that had girls leaning in even closer.Β
After they got a smell of his cologne and the look of his soft skin everything else was easy. The girls would tilt their heads in curiosity about Anton, intrigued at how someone so shy made it this far in life. How someone was so cute from afar but something more once you got close. All he had to do was avoid their eyes and chew his lip a few times before they were sliding their phones over to him.
Just in case I need help with another assignment.
Antonβs eyes would always widen in shock. Not from the surprise of being pursued but just how easy it all was. The girls never found out that Anton was red in the face from the rush and he ducked his head to hide a smile of satisfaction. They would laugh lightly seeing his reaction, observing what they thought was insecurity. Before going on about their day theyβd touch his shoulder or pull on him playfully.
Anton is a sweetheart.
But he also has a problem.
He knows he does. His friends compared it to a sweet tooth that bordered addiction, or someone who would walk into a casino with a twenty dollar bill expecting to hit big. They sometimes even called Anton a psychopath when heβd get all giddy telling them about his day.Β
Anton knew he had a problem, but it was hard to stop when he got the sweet fix or hit the jackpot each time. Nothing could top the feeling of euphoria Anton would get when heβd come to one of those girls after they asked him to come to their place. Heβd look at the messages in the comfort of his room and smile, knowing what it meant when theyβd preface the study session by saying they were alone. Heβs addicted to the game heβd play every time, faking the shy and insecure nerd that pretty girls were going to eat for dinner. Like they were throwing him a bone by inviting him to their apartment or dorm under the guise of doing homework.Β
Theyβd answer the door in something easy to take off or something that would cling to them like a second skin. If they were particularly desperate itβd be both, yoga pants that showed everything and a cropped shirt that rode up with every movement. Anton loved shamelessly gawking at the girls behind his glasses, shuffling from foot to foot in front of them before they invited him in. He waited for each direction, eyes darting around their room before he was invited to sit down or told to take out his notebook. He would purposefully be a step behind, showing how lost he was to be in a room that didnβt belong to him or his other intraverted friends.
He loved letting the girls make the first move. On their bed settling in as they really got a look at him in the setting of their room. Something about how clueless he was made the girls all the more strung up. He looked everywhere but at them, shrinking himself on their bed. His timidness made the girls love making the first subtle touch on his flexed arm, or purposefully grabbing his pencil so they could compare hand sizes. Anton loved acting like he was nervous wreck from the longing stares to the side of his face, like he hadnβt done this dance a million times before. He loved messing up his words while trying to act oblivious to the hungry look in their eyes. He loved the pretty smile the girls would get likeΒ heΒ was the one falling into their trap.Β
His absolute favorite part was when theyβd turn his head with their soft hands. Anton would falter from the eye contact, letting his lips part in confusion as they focused on him. The notebooks and assignments between them long forgotten as they shuffled closer to him on the bed.
βHave you ever been with a girl before?βΒ
Theyβd always ask that. Voices light and airy, already having an answer in their mind.
βI have.βΒ
Heβd always answer with a stutter. The falter in his voice never made them push any further. They assumed by Antonβs darting eyes that the number was so minuscule asking about it would only embarrass him.Β
(He stopped being embarrassed of his conquests a long time ago. He also stopped being able to keep track.)
Anton is a sweetheart, with a problem of seeing pretty girls eyes flash when they realize that he is more than capable.
The moment was always the same. The mood in the room would change when Anton would sheepishly take off his oversized hoodie. Each time silence would settle over the room when they saw what he was hiding underneath. His undershirt hugged close to his body, showing the chisel and the hard work he put in at the gym. When he was feeling tired while working out heβd replay the sight of the girls taking in his toned body. Theyβd reach out to touch his chest as if they were expecting it all to be fake, other times they would just let out a breathlessΒ wow.
He always basked in seeing the girls try to maintain their composure. They would become the ones averting their eyes and stumbling over their words. They would be shellshocked on their side of the bed, wondering what else he was hiding. But Anton was still sweet, he always was. He would always wait patiently to see if this was really what the girls wanted. He would pick at the seam of his pants and look down to the forgotten homework to let them know they could go back to what they were doing and pretend this never happened. But the obvious bulge in his pants always made pretty girls reach for the waistband of their pants without a second thought.
Anton was never sure if they gawked at him in an attempt to get his confidence up or if they were truly surprised. As if his build and height were no indicator, each time Anton took off his pants to reveal his dick they were always soΒ shocked. Thatβs when the resolve would truly fall, when their jaws would drop and theyβd blink their eyes from the sheer surprise. Precum would leak from his tip just from the sight of them coming to terms with what was twitching and red and angry in front of them.
βYouβre big.β
The infliction in their voice was always different. Some girls would be excited, others would be confused, a few times they almost seemedΒ disgusted. Like there was no way the shy kid in the back of the class was hiding this.
βAm I really?βΒ
Anton wasnβt an idiot. Even if he said it looking down at the bed, he knew that he was endowed and it wasΒ pretty. But sometimes he just needed to hear it an extra time, or look up to see a quick head nod when they couldnβt fathom saying it again. He was an insecure nerd after all. The quiet recluse in the back of class that barely had friends. An absolute sweetheart that threw girls around and manipulated their bodies into positions they didnβt even know about.
He loved being a good fuck. For a long time he believed he was put on the Earth to fuck pretty girls and to stop them from judging books by their covers. Anton was killing two birds with one stone by cooing at girls condescendingly while he gave them everything. It was his civic duty to exert his strength and to kiss girls until they were breathless and his glasses fogged. Each time he heardΒ I didnβt know you had that in youΒ an angel gained itβs wings. Whenever theyβd tell their girlfriends what the shy nerd did to them in their dorm Anton was making the world a better place. Sometimes he would get called back, sometimes he would run through entire friend groups just to prove he was really committed to the cause.Β
No matter how many people Anton fucked, no one seemed to believe it. Like it was collective psychosis that the nerd was a good lay, or a big open secret everyone was hush about. Anton was still treated like he was meek, his soft nature made everyone believe he was an open book, so much to the point that they made wrong judgements about his character. He actually hated staying inside and enjoyed exploring the city and trying new things with his friends. He was a sensitive person but he could also advocate for himself and admit when he was wrong. He was quiet, but only because he valued personal, quiet conversations more than anything.Β
He eventually learned that peopleβs preconceived notions of him couldnβt be helped. Anton could fuck the entirety of the campus and people would still treat him like he was made of glass. He decided to be an optimist, finding the silver lining in people assuming he was the sweetheart with a cute smile. Their perception of him couldβve been worse, being shy was infinitely better than being loud and obnoxious. So when people would assume things about Antonβs personality he would only react positively. He would let his eyes go wide, acting shocked when someone would tell him about their first impression of him.Β
βI thought you were an asshole at first.β
You told Anton nonchalantly, as if his whole world didnβt crumble. You didnβt even spare him a second glance as you wrote on your lab report. You were too busy adjusting the calculations and reading over the proper way to dispose the chemicals a million times to make sure it was right while Anton sputtered to himself. He was caught off guard by your honesty and surprisingly quick answer as if it was on the forefront of your mind. You only tilted your head up for a second before you had the answer.Β
Anton didnβt know what to do about you. Just when he thought he had seen every girl in his major you came along, sitting in the back of class with him. You seemed to be the recluse of a person everyone mistook Anton for. You were in and out of class, not bothering to raise your hand during discussions or to socialize with your peers. You also didnβt seem to latch onto him like other girls of his major did. When they looked for Antonβs face in the lecture hall you walked right past him, not bothering to look up from your notebook or laptop. For the first time in his life Anton felt compelled to make the first move. He thought that you two had built up a good rapport, and that you saw him as your kindhearted and resigned classmate.
But you saw him as anything but that. You said it confidently too, and loud enough for your classmates at the next lab table to look over.
βWhat do you mean?β Anton said quietly.
You frowned looking up from the pamphlet. You were visibly annoyed, you even motioned to the undisposed chemicals to show him that you two still had class.
βCan we talk about this when our grade isnβt at stake, please?β You asked.
You werenβt commanding for his benefit. You werenβt taking into account that he might be afraid to hear a negative opinion about himself. You werenβt looking at him like girls had before, like you were trying to pick him apart for your own entertainment. You were willing to put validation for Anton on the back burner because you had other things to do. When Anton would have girls gush over him you were benevolent, indifferent to his fake insecurities.Β
The more you paid attention to your work rather than him, Anton found himself scrambling. He was working hard for your affection. When the teacher announced that class was over and lab reports were due the next morning he leapt at the chance to invite himself over. He was supposed to be shy and insecure, getting nervous over the mere thought of being alone with the opposite sex. His facade went over your head. Instead, Anton watched you do the cost-benefit analysis of inviting him over before you shrugged your shoulders.
βAlright. Just follow me.β You said before setting a ridiculously fast paced speed walk to the other side of campus.
But Anton followed you. He bobbed and weaved through crowds and essentially chased you across the common area while you continued on your pace. Other girls would walk with Anton, trying to pry information out from his clammy hands. You barely spared a second glance over your shoulder like you were trying to lose him. Anton followed you all the way to your dorm, then up the stairs, then waited for you beside your door as you put your backpack on your desk and pulled up a chair next to yours. You didnβt extend an invitation towards Anton to take a seat.Β
He waits for you to step in. Heβs laid the trap by taking off his hoodie even though you kept your room cold, and shuffled his seat closer to yours. He put his elbows on the table next to yours coming closer to the lines you stopped writing on your paper.
He laid the trap. He can see you hesitate, looking from him to the assignment and then back to him. Anton keeps his eyes on the paper, rubbing his fingers over his lips to stop himself from smiling.
βDo you work out?β You asked.
Your voice didnβt have the sultry infliction that girls usually had when they asked him that question. You didnβt reach across and squeeze his toned bicep or shamelessly drag your eyes over his broad shoulders. You asked the question simply, no other intention except for wanting an answer.
βI do. Sometimes.β Anton said.
You only hummed and went back to your paper. Anton scooted closer to you, hoping hisΒ Le Labo Lavande 31Β and the hand across the back of your chair was invading your space enough for you toΒ reallyΒ get a good look at him. Anton watched your eyes dart again. You were nervous, eyes wide and Anton felt the rush.
βYou smell nice.β You said.
The line was pulled from the trap. Youβre caged in and Anton looks to you. He knows about the death grip you have on your pencil, it makes him brave enough to invade your space even more.
βYou forgot to write your observationsΒ here.β Anton says, trying to make lab reports as sexy as possible.Β
This assignment wouldβve been abandoned a long time ago. If this was anyone else it wouldβve never made it out of their backpack. You were adamant about your work, looking at the tips of his pretty fingers where you left a spot blank. He should have his report out too. He should be writing something just like you try to, instead Anton leans closer and he swears the pencil in your hand is going to break from the pressure.Β
Is this how he shouldβve been acting with those girls all that time? This isΒ realΒ nerves rolling off your body. The anxiety almost makes Anton nervous by extension, he shivers when he finally lets his hand on the back of your chair touch your body. You stiffen and heβs amazed. You went from being indifferent to being too aware. He feels you back away slightly, but when his hand tightens on your shoulder you lean in. Youβre hot and cold, not knowing what you want. He can feel you tremble, and your eyes dart from his eyes to his lips.Β
βIβve never done anything before.β
Anton comes closer. His hand that pointed at a random thing on your paper turns into a fist as he distracts you completely. He brings himself forward until heβs in your line of sight, even when you try so hard to look at anything but him. He smirks when your eyes dart past him, and he fully lets his arm rest across your back. Youβre malleable, before you refused to even bend to him but now you move from his slightest touch.
βWhat do you mean?β He asks. βYouβve never done what before?β
He should go for the nerds more often. The way you already seem sweaty and antsy just from thinking about what is happening makes Anton want to play with you some more. He knows itβs perverse, like a dog playing a smaller animal to death. He wants to see if youβll twitch, if youβre playing dead just to try and make a run for it.Β
βIβve neverβI know thatββ Anton raises his eyebrows and nods to each one of your broken statements. βIt just seems likeββ
βLike what?β He smiles and nudges you. His smile is toothy, yours is tightlipped to a straight line. βCβmon. Talk to me.β He continues.
βYou smell really good.β You repeat.
Youβre the twitching body of a mouse in his jaws. He just smile and nods at your statement, how you go back to saying old things in an attempt to catch your footing. He forces you to sit in the uncomfortable silence. He waits for you to say something knowing you canβt, he waits for you to touch him even if youβre caught like a deer in the headlights.
βI look good too, right?β He starts drawing shapes on your shoulder.
Heβs having too much fun. Heβs entertained seeing your intelligence fail you. Youβre stumped, you drop your pencil to fully clench your fist.Β
The pencil is rolling back and forth on your lab report, the small sound is the only thing that speaks. Youβre still desperately trying to figure out how you got into this situation, how one thing led to another so quickly that his hand is reaching underneath the sleeve of your shirt.
βYou look good, Anton.β You agree.
βThanks.β Anton smiles and you do too, averting your eyes and nodding to yourself to feign indifference. Anton looks down to your shirt, still playing with your skin underneath your sleeve. βYou do too.β He says.
Another bout of silence. You let yourself be touched, hands still clenched on top of the table. Anton rests his hand on top of your fist, smoothing over the protruding veins trying to coax them open. This is more fulfilling than playing with popular girls. The game still hasnβt ended for him. Heβs on the fifth consecutive jackpot when you finally open your mouth again.
βI donβt.β Your hand opens and Anton clasps over it, smiling to himself when it disappears. βI donβt know what you want me to do.β You stutter.
Youβre too cute for your own good. Finally you look at him with big eyes and your eyebrows raised. You give into his touches a little more, finally warming up to all the attention. Still your pupils shake, and Anton brings his hand from your shoulder to your face to keep you from turning away.
βCan I make you feel good?β He asks.
You could barely nod before Anton was guiding you up from your chair and backing you towards your bed. He watched you stumble when the back of your legs hit the edge. You looked up at him, your pretty eyes already looking wet. Maybe he really did have a problem. Because he loved seeing them widen in surprise when he put his hands underneath your arms, lifting you up just enough to set you on the edge of your bed. He loved seeing your jostled expression and the tiny yelp when you landed so perfectly on your sheets.
Anton watched you stay in place, catching your breath from the sudden movement. He watched your chest still as his hands went to the bottom of his tank top. Heβs grateful to have such a captive audience. Thereβs no way he can pretend to be shy after this. Youβre astonished as he slowly lifts his shirt, and he watched you shamelessly stare at him before you realized he could see you.Β
Anton let you eat him alive before he came up to you, until you had to tilt your head upwards to see him. You didnβt dare lift your hands from the bed, like he was going to disappear the moment you touched him. Like he was straight from a dream you only looked up to him, waiting for what he was going to do next. Anton wonders if you thought youβd end up in this position, with him looming over you and his hand creeping to a spot under your chin. He absolutely canβt stop doing this. The view is too pretty, your stillness is addicting. Like youβre too afraid to even breathe too loud in case itβd break the tension. He bends closer to your lips, eyes still open after you screw yours shut. You preemptively grip your mattress for dear life and he canβt help but smile.
He smiles into the kisses, each peck bringing you closer and closer to your mattress. When your back is against the sheets Anton climbs on, refusing the break contact. You look so pretty underneath him, eyes squeezing shut again when another wave of realization hits you. Youβve never been in this position before, with someone like Anton looming over you while still being so sweet. He runs his hand over the apple of your cheek, and fixes your shirt that left your stomach exposed.
βIs this okay?β Anton asks.
He knows it is, because your legs seemed to spread a little bit more and more with each passing second. By the time his hand drifts down to your neck youβre completely open, your soft pants bunching at the place Anton wants to touch you next. The valley of your chest gives him a straight path down, and your bent legs open further.
βWant me to touch you?β He asks.
He knows heβs cruel. Youβre metaphorically dead and his face is covered in blood, but still he continues. Heβs jumping around your body, reaching out a playful hand like you have the life to play back.
βPlease touch me.β You whine pitifully.
Anton presses a chaste kiss to your forehead as his hands work past the elastic band of your pants and underwear. You flinch from his hands, then you preen your hips towards his fingers, then you pull back. Heβs mocking when he coos at you, the time pressing a kiss to the side of your head. He almost feels bad. Youβre clearly fighting against something, your eyes are shut tight as you press your head into the mattress. Anton tries kissing your eyes open, but it only makes you squeeze them tighter.
With you writhing underneath him, he took the time to look around your room. Your little pegboard above your desk where you had calendar marked with all the important due dates of upcoming assignments. Your neatly placed books and papers, your stuffed animals around your pillows. You didnβt make your bed this morning, instead laying on crumbled sheets and gripping whatever you could get your hands on. Your hand went to Antonβs forearm and clutched it, whimpering something that he couldnβt decipher.
βDoes it feel good?β He asks.
You nod, and when Anton tries to pull away he feels your nails dig into his forearm. You seem unaware of what youβre doing, how youβre silently begging him to keep going. Youβre just moving underneath him, already beginning to twitch helplessly. Anton purposefully pushes his fingers deeper into your clit until he knows heβs bringing you the smallest amount of pain. Heβs pulling the strings, watching your body react to him because you canβt control it. By this point the girls would already be asking him to take his pants off, but you canβt even form a coherent thought. Heβs having fun in his jeans, watching you twitch and twist and grip his arm with all your might.
βAnton.β
You flick your hips up and he presses his hand to your hip, pinning you to the bed. You still try to swivel, useless against his strength. Heβs intrigued that you arenβt trying to be defiant but you simply canβt help it. All the other girls were pliant immediately, so desperate to please the quiet boy in class they underestimated. Youβre defiant because you canβt handle it.
βWhatβs up?β He asks.
His completely even voice makes you whine. The flush across your cheeks tells him youβre embarrassed, red hot andΒ realΒ unlike his facade.
You donβt answer him. You just dig your nails into his arm and attempt to get his prodding fingers to slide in. He raises his eyebrows at your not-so-subtle attempts to get him to inside of you.
βYou want me to finger you?β He asks.
You nod like a good girl and Anton almost feels bad for asking you the question in a mocking tone. He makes up for it by giving you what you want immediately, sucking in a deep breath to match your deep breath. He smiles when he sees you arch off the bed. This is so much more entertaining than anything else. Just two fingers has you making unfiltered noises and gripping the sheets. Anton has to bite his lip to stop himself from laughing, and he has half a mind to ask you if youβre okay in a serious tone. But he just continues driving his fingers into your hole.
He picks up the speed, just to hear the lewd sound you two make. Itβs wet, Anton can already feel the mess on the palm of his hand. He pulls your waistband down to your knees, bringing your thighs closer together. He has to fight against your soft thighs clenching around his hand. Heβs still able to drive his fingers in and out of your heat. He likes the resistance even though you clearly want more. Anton is surprised when you lift your shirt on your own accord. Itβs obvious youβre doing it to relieve some of the heat you feel, but heβs still flattered nonetheless. His hand presses against your stomach, applying force to the lowest part.
βI canβt.β You whimper.
Thatβs when Anton finally laughs. He chuckles at how panicked you sound and how you turn your head in embarrassment.
βDo you want me to stop?β He asks while picking up the speed of his hand.
You nod your head but when Anton tries to pull his hand away you clench your thighs to keep him in place. He chuckles again, situating one legs on the side of your body and the other between your closed legs. He casts a shadow on you below him, and he can see your eyes open the slightest bit from his movements. He drives your legs apart with his knee, and continues pumping that spot deep in you that leaves you shaking your head.
βI canβt.β You whimper.
βYou can.β Anton sees your eyes open, wide and staring directly at him as he drives your legs apart further. βYouβre so close.β He says.
Your entire body moves from the speed of his fingers. Even your chests jumps underneath your shirt, and he wants to lift it up to reveal the rest of you. He lets you take it at your own pace since youβre giving him so much already. He just pinches and grabs a handful of your stomach, marveling in how soft you are.
βSo cute.β Anton coos. βYou had no idea, right?β He asks.
You shake your head and you donβt stop shaking it, like youβre trying to will away your impeding orgasm. Anton watches all of it. Heβs never had a pretty girl twitch for him so much, or reach a greedy hand up to grip your chest. Something you do when youβre close, something he wants to do for you. His hand superimposes yours, and grips harder too. Youβre arching into his palm and preening your hips on his fingers, and then he watches your body go rigid.
βYouβre cumming.β Anton teases.
Your whimperingΒ yesΒ rips through the room, and Anton feels wound up himself. He has to set his sights on something else. Pretty confident girls are fun, but seeing your shame manifest in the way you push and pull at him is much more intoxicating. He likes that he knows what you want but youβre too scared to say it, itβs your body that has to act on its own to fulfill your needs. When you continue going, and your strangled moans turn to brokenΒ oh my GodβsΒ and your legs start shaking, Anton knows he wonβt be able to get enough. He keeps pushing you further because he knows you can take it, and you continue whimpering. He doesnβt stop until you sound panicked, and your hand starts pushing his away.
He still looks down at you with a smile on his face. Your head is turned towards your fluffy comforter, exhaling and inhaling so hard you move the fur with your breath. Heβs satisfied seeing what heβs done to you, and heβs even more amused when you turn your head to face him.
Your eyes are wide, your lips are swollen and slick from your mindless drooling. Anton feels something in his chest when your eyes move past his body to the prominent bulge in his pants. Heβs a step ahead, shaking his head and moving back to rest on his haunches. That comes later, when he plays with you some more and you start voicing how badly you want to please him. When you reach your hand towards his crotch Anton grabs your hand instead, intertwining your fingers.
βI just wanted to makeΒ youΒ feel good.β He says.
Heβs aΒ sweetheart, after all.

















