Hello there fellow gamer, may I request Joshua Levinth with the letter X from the fanfiction alphabet challenge? Thank you and have a nice gay.
sure thing gaymer. send me a character + one of the letters and Iâll write you a little drabble :) X = xoxo (love notes)
With far too much unreasonable- unwanted- affection stirring withing him, Joshua eventually found the need to express said feelings. But without the ability to tell the person they're directed at directly, he found another solution. Writing. Simple letters, never to be read by the person they were about. Things where he could say, "I love you," without facing what the would mean to that person. What it would mean for him.
At the time, this helped. Joshua Levinth could continue on with all his other duties, without thinking about it, until returning to his room for the evening. Writing simple little notes, and later destroying them for safety's sake. It was fine. He was fine.
As fine as he ever was, at the time.
Lately things have changed. The target of his feelings has changed. The letters no longer feel like a secret that would destroy everything around him. Maybe it's wrong they ever did.
"What are these?" Johan asks, one day, while looking over Joshua's desk. He's long since given up organization. Long since stopped hiding the letters. Johan wouldn't look at them if he was told not to. No one here would.
"Letters." A pause. Joshua glances between the letters and the theoretical recipient. Feels a warmth in his chest that makes him sigh. "You can....read them if you'd like. They're about you."
"Huh?"
Letters where he could say, "I love you," without facing what the would mean to that person. But he already faced that a long time ago. Johan already knows. There's no harm in letting him see those feelings too.
