#remembering us

He had to swim in me bathe in my tears drink my memories and drown a little with each sip... for me to believe, I am a forgotten lake now remembering, us.

after i happened to see the trailer for the Loki TV series on my dashboard, i suddenly remembered this blog & how much fun it was to read through the imagines & submissions. glad to see you guys are still here after all these years, thanks for all your hard work! much love to you.

Bygone

How did you ring in your 2016? You missed it actually you checked your phone and it was 12:06 And you didn’t even feel anything for missing it, you were face timing the love of your life and talking about everything that had hurt you and vowing to never let it happen again and clearing the air and just being so in love we didn’t even notice what time it was we didn’t even say happy new year but it was one of the only times you stayed up past midnight to talk to me and it was so special and it was even better than those screenshots I have of me staring at you with such adoration that it makes my heart fuckin hurt -the day I wrapped presents in the bedroom and then decided to make cookies and you were laughing while you brushed your teeth- because it hasn’t gone away i still love you so goddamn much it’s just buried under hurt and betrayal but nothing beats the day of my papa’s funeral and I was sitting with my knees up in the uncomfortable kitchen chair picking the turkey out of one of those 12 foot half soggy subway sandwiches and you told me I was eating a bird and that meat was murder and I was so fucking in love with you and how after you went to bed on New Year’s Day i sent you a long message about happy I was to have talked and how I felt so so confident in us now and that we were closer than ever and I smiled the entire time I was in the shower with that tight feeling in my chest from trying to hold back all that smiling and laughter and nothin will ever hurt as much as you and the fact that within three months of being so in love and happy you decided it wasn’t what you wanted and you fuckin left and broke my heart and never looked back and I wish I didn’t fuckin love you so much and that even when I think I’m done with you I’d give everything up just to see you yawn and type on your laptop and squint at me and take cheesy screenshots together goddamn why why why