7AM
This is the reason I didn’t wanna go there last night, this is the reason why I said no and told you that I wanted to go home. Waking up to the smells of last night and not knowing what it is, is the worst feeling I know. I’m scared to face the people I talked to last night and the people who helped me. Im embarrassed because I might have said something I regretted last night or done last night. As I sit in this coffee shop this morning, I try to contemplate and understand how this stamp got on my hand and why my calfs are sore.
This is the reason why I decided to stop drinking for a long time, this is the reason why hate getting drunk or hammered. Ive learned this same lesson over and over but its like I cant learn anything. Im writing this so that I hope I learn from this experience and remember why I don’t drink hard anymore. Tumblr has now become my place to speck and let out emotions. Im scared and embarrassed about today. Im scared to find out what people think of me now. Lets just go, take it step by step, and slowly get this day over with.
