Taking up writing as a way to release
I have so much feelings pent up, and it feels like no one is listening OR maybe its a tonic mixture of I'm unable to clearly express myself.
Needless to say, I'm learning a lot in relationship. My Current hurdle is believing a person, this person in particular is able to be faithful to me. It's a tough fantasy to swallow and believe. I already has my reservations, that were confirmed by his infidelity earlier on in our relationship. In addition to this, according to history he hasn't been faithful to anyone. So what makes me different. As I write this I almost feel foolish to believe that he is, but I want to give him the benefit of the doubt right? *squinty eyes*
If I can change, can't someone else change?
IF I can be faithful, doesn't someone else have it in them as well. I'm only human, I'm no better for worse then the next, so why isn't the capacity in others? Or is it, and I'm just looking at it pessimistically?
Unsure, we'll talk more later.
-In Memory of Vanity



















