I. dont know what to think of my situation now with the winter and my kingship. we are constantly cold, and most of those in-system specifically seek out warmth. winter as a whole had to fall at some point I know. my winter would have never truly lasted, restricted as I was to a mortal form. even so, as negative as the situation and connotations were, I miss it. I miss sitting by the fire with my hand, and occasionally our allies. etho visited the most as I recall. especially near the end. martyn never let me have hot chocolate, but the experiences were oft enjoyable. now I'm much more how I was after it all. stuck in a host, stripped of power and land to defend. except at least then I had someone, something to rely on. once they understood that I remained, the others listened and talked. when ren was too tired to continue, I would either do it in his stead or force a break. now I have no one to really talk to. even those in system tend to avoid me, and I cant say I blame them. ... I want to go home. please let me go home -red king #🗡❤
ha. after all my rambling I can almost think I was a datd fictive, but no. things were similar, but still far too different for that to be the case. perhaps I'll ask one of the others to help me make characters to describe my home and life. to feel that contentment again -red king /2 of my last ask if you will, monarch of cats #🗡❤
