#rebels!rex

Erie had a brow raised, her teasing tone managing to still keep its edge as she turned to give you her full attention now that you were safely inside. Your sigh did little to relieve your worries, but you used the exhale to release some of the tension in your stance.

“I just don’t-”

“No, you don’t. That’s the point,” she was firm without being harsh as she cut off your well-worn argument. “No one in the field ever has the full picture for everyone’s safety. You’re just going to have to trust me when I say this was our only option. Otherwise, you’d be staring at the inside of an imperial cell sooner rather than later. And you’ve grown on me too much to be left out there on your own.”

A not so small seed of affection squeezed at your scarred heart and you let the corner of your mouth tilt in the smallest smile.

“Fine. Just … Just put me to work soon, okay? I want to be useful.”

“Oh, honey!” Erie barked, her sharp laugh tinged with just enough steel to make you almost regret your request. “Don’t you worry. We’ll run you ragged soon enough. For now, though, there’s not much that needs doing that isn’t already getting done. You’re allowed to take a night to adjust.”

She passed you a slip of flimsy with a rough map of the base on it. Several of the rooms were circled with descriptions.

“If I knew you were short on datapads, I’d have lifted a few before leaving. Kriff, the Rebellion must be struggling more than I realized.” You teased, bringing the page closer to your face to make out the poor writing.

“Har har. You’re a riot. That’s for safety too, smartass. Datapads can be sliced.”

Erie took your wrist in her hand to bring the page between you and pointed to a circled room on the left. Your bunk. Private for now, but she warned that would likely change soon. Your eyes tracked the path on the page as you gave a nod. “Got it. I’m going to start unpacking. Wanna help?”

“I would, but I’m needed at a mission debrief in a few.”

“Oh, okay. I’ll see you later, then.”

“Definitely. I’ll grab you before dinner and introduce you to everyone.” She answered with a brilliant smile. “Ya know, there are a couple of real cuties here you should get to know.”

Your laugh came out easy enough — as easy as it should in a lighthearted conversation with a friend. But it was a little thing, all breath and tinged with bitterness. “Oh no, I’m far too old for that nonsense.”

“You’re not. And they’re going to come sniffing even without my interference.” Erie’s eyes swept down your figure pointedly.

You know she means well, but you can’t help that the thought of anyone looking at you that way again — the way he had — makes your breath catch in your throat. It threatened to choke you.

“I’m right and I’m not arguing this.” You force a lightness into your tone you don’t feel and grab for your bags before she can respond. “Have fun at your debrief!” You call over your shoulder, heading down the hall to your quarters.

Squeezing the strap in your hand, you took a deep breath, allowing the feel of the leather against your palm and the air expanding your lungs to ground you. It stopped you from spiraling, but it didn’t stop the heat from spreading across your cheeks.

It was embarrassing, after all. You could admit that objectively. It’s been years since he left. You understood his decision then, and you understood it now. You never actually agreed with him. But you remember his eyes when he gave you that last order, begging you to listen. And you couldn’t bear to tell him no.

And so he left. Left to go do whatever it was he felt he needed.

And left you alone.

Back then, you wanted to hate him, to burn away the phantom touch of his hands on your skin, to gnash your teeth at the whisper of his name and to curse the day he came into your life.

But even as the grief permeated your every cell, moving from your mind to morph into a physical shroud that mutated your body in its image, you couldn’t find the strength to hate him.

It wouldn’t have helped anyway. It would have only calcified your pain into a tool to hurt others.

So you let the years slip by, shrinking your world into something that you could manage — your apartment, the odd jobs you took to keep yourself fed — all the while shrinking your heart and closing it off. The numbness prickled at your consciousness, but you found it more bearable than the pain of loneliness.

Of wanting him and no one and nothing else.

That is, until you got a job stocking shelves at a mechanic’s shop. A boy came in one day looking for a new filter for his air circulation system. While your boss grumbled about the difficulty of procuring pre-imperial parts, you caught sight of the insignia on the inside of the boy’s jacket as he moved to grab a handful of credits.

For the first time in longer than you’d care to say, determination had flooded your veins. You couldn’t change the past. You couldn’t walk by his side.But you could help this boy, this new movement in their fight for their better tomorrow.

And maybe, even distantly, it would help him, too.

You still didn’t let too many people get close. It’s easier this way, you had rationalized. Easier to lie. To steal. To disappear in the dead of night and start your operations over on a new planet whenever Erie tipped you off to an upcoming raid.

Now, though, as part of the Rebellion proper, you’d likely find safe distance harder to maintain.

It hadn’t been too hard to relearn the rhythm of banter between friends when you opened up to Erie. Hopefully, that will be true for the others you meet. And it won’t be too hard to scoff off attempts by any young guns set on impressing you … if Erie was to be believed about their intentions, anyway. You had serious doubts considering you were at least a decade older than most of the contacts you’ve met.

What would be hard is if you saw any of them. You knew a few had joined the ranks, offering their expertise and lifetime of training to the cause. Of course some would. It’s in their DNA. It’s all they’ve known.

It isn’t fair to them, but you weren’t sure you could handle seeing their face. His face.

You still loved him. No matter how small you made your world, made yourself, you couldn’t change just how thoroughly he claimed your heart. Even now, with Erie’s comment rattling in your brain, you could feel your stomach gurgling, pushing you to pause as you come to the next turn.

Another deep breath. In. Out.

Pulling your shoulders back, you start again … only to run into what feels like a wall when you face makes contact with hard duraplast.

Oh, kriff.

“Dank ferrik! Watch where yer going!”

The growl was unfamiliar, the tone harsher than anything he ever directed at you. But your body reacted to that voice before you could gather a rational thought. Heat surged through your blood even as cold fear sent your stomach into a freefall.

“S-sorry.” Your eyes focused on his jaw, unwilling to look higher until you caught a glimpse of a small scar on his neck.

He didn’t have that.

Tilting your head back, you finally met the man’s gaze. Luck was on your side as your eyes traced over the raised scar bisecting one eye, the cybernetic beneath analyzing you.

He didn’t have that, either.

Wolffe. You had met, briefly, when you joined the boys at 79’s a lifetime ago. But it was just the once, and if luck continued smiling on you, he wouldn’t remember a thing.

“I’m, uh, new. I was just focusing on finding my way and wasn’t paying attention to much else. Sorry about that,” you said, forcing a small smile to ease the tension. From what you remember hearing among the guys, there wasn’t much that could ease the overwhelming aura of Commander Wolffe. But hey, it couldn’t hurt to try.

“Better learn to multitask, then.”

You tried to ignore the way his eyes narrowed at you. “Sure thing. Sorry again. See you around.” The words tripped off your tongue with less grace than your feet as you clumsily slipped past the clone commander to continue down the hall.

You could feel his intense glare burning your back all the way to your room.

*****************

Callused fingers slid back and forth across his forehead in a vain attempt to alleviate his headache. The mission had been a success, technically. It still took all his self control not to drill the crew of the Ghost for their sloppiness.

They were a solid bunch, but by the Maker they made things needlessly difficult. The debrief took far longer than necessary just cataloging all the supplies that didn’t make it home. It almost — almost — made him nostalgic for his more regimented days in the GAR.

He did miss assigning latrine duty to mouthy troopers. Too bad he enjoyed the freedom of the rebellion a little more.

Leaving the briefing room, Rex strode down the hall toward the mess, heavy footsteps rebounding down the durasteel as he checked his comm. Curiously, it had gone off during his meeting. Everyone who had his frequency was either in the room with him or had just returned and was settling in for their respective post-mission routines.

His curiosity only grew upon seeing the culprit was Wolffe. His brother never interrupted a meeting, the GAR indoctrination still proving pervasive in his mind. Slightly worried and even more curious, Rex hit the redial button.

“Finally,” Wolffe grumbled through the comm as his likeness was projected above Rex’s wrist.

“Remind me never to rely on you for patience, vod,” he teased, unable to resist riling up his brother even more. “What’s up?”

“New meat on base. I bumped into her earlier.”

“Knock it off,” Rex snapped. His small frustration from earlier immediately flared into pissed off. Wolffe knew better. “My answer is still no.”

“I have a feeling that’s gonna change this time.”

Rex’s nostrils flared and he could feel his anger spreading, tensing his muscles as if he were in the heat of battle. “Never.”

And he meant it. It didn’t help and never would.

He couldn’t regret the path he took. He had been the difference between life and death for so many brothers … and so many others since then. But with every breath he regretted what he had done to you. That last look you had given him still cut deep. Too deep to ever heal.

“When are you gonna learn that your ori’vod is always right?” The grin that curled over Wolffe’s face gave new meaning to the term wolfish.

Rex was about to tell him to shove it, but Wolffe beat him to it, silencing him with just two words.

“It’s her.”

*****************

Releasing one last breath, you sunk into the mattress beneath you, finally feeling the tension leech from your limbs.

Seeing Wolffe had shaken you, and you allowed yourself a few minutes to fall apart in the privacy of your room. You let the sting of what was lost crest over you. It passed through at a steady pace, neither rushing nor lingering, giving you time to refocus and recenter. Each inhale pushing it to the edges of your body, each exhale banishing it to the fringes of your mind. For now.

Roughly passing your palms over your eyes to dry them, you shifted your focus to your bags. The task at hand should distract you. Moving through the motions always helped you put the past back where it belonged. Besides, Erie would be done with her debrief soon and the Force alone knew how long she planned on dragging you around the base tonight.

A small smile unfurled on your lips a while later as a light knock reverberated through the door. You tossed the rest of your yet-to-be-folded clothes into the chest that lay at the food of the bed and began speaking as you walked over to the control panel, projecting so Erie could hear you on the other side.

“And here I was thinking you forgot about—”

But when the door slid open, your friend wasn’t on the other side. Where her eyes should have been stood a wall of muscle, evident even behind the chest plate. It was dingy, scuffed armor that had seen better days after too much fighting, flecks of blue paint hanging on for dear life as if determined not to fade into obscurity.

“Me.” The last word came out a whisper without your consent, your bold tease fizzling into insecurity.

If you had been hesitant to meet Wolffe’s eyes, you were obstinate in your determination to keep your gaze straight on that armor. You had never been strong, never claimed to be. But this was a new type of weakness, foreign as it flooded your bones. Your jaw trembled as all your effort was focused on holding back the surge you could feel coming.

“Oh, mesh’la.”

His sigh nearly undid you, and you could feel yourself blinking rapidly, your body fighting just to hold steady. You could. You just needed a moment.

But it seemed he had other plans. It was gentle; of course it was. He was always so kriffing gentle with you. Even when you had taunted him, teased him into being rough, it never lasted. He had spoken to you gently, guided you gently, held you gently, loved you gently.

He had broken you gently.

And now, as those damned fingers pressed under your chin to force your gaze upward, they were so heart-achingly gentle, opening the old wounds anew. He was a man built for battle. And yet you found his most brutal side in his gentleness.

Unable to resist — you never were good at denying him — you finally met his gaze.

“I could never forget you.”

Your heart squeezed painfully hearing the words you’d longed for as his rich brown eyes swept over you, taking you in. It stuttered at the thought of what he must be seeing. Mussed hair with so many more grays than before. Crow’s feet that spread from the corners of your eyes to your temples with various other lines crossing your face, interrupted only by the freckles and sunspots you’ve collected over the years.

You weren’t usually vain. But you wore the years plainly on your face … and on your body. At least if I’d been able to put on a clean shirt, you lamented.

The self-deprecation was like a jolt to your brain, bringing you back to yourself, to the present. Rex was here, in your doorway, fighting for the rebellion. It makes sense. That’s what he set off to do all those years ago. But you never let yourself wonder what he was actually doing for fear your wonderings would lead to knowledge you couldn’t survive: Him not being with you was painful; him not being was unimaginable.

But before you stood confirmation that he was alive and well.

And not once did he try to contact you.

Clearing your throat quietly, you plastered a smile on your face, the one you reserved for difficult customers and nosey neighbors, and prayed it didn’t look at stiff as it felt.

“Well, you’re not Erie.” Your tone was light and sounded artificial even to you.

Rex’s responding laugh was just as fake. “No, I’m definitely not.”

His hand dropped back to his side, but his eyes remained locked on yours, searching. For what, you couldn’t guess, and even if you could, you weren’t sure if it still existed. But you are sure that whatever is going to happen next won’t happen in the public hallway.

“Do you want to come in?” You asked, pulling back, pulling away, pivoting to let him pass to enter your room.

“Thank you.” He paused once he took a few steps in. No longer restricted to the GAR meal plan, he had filled out. His broad shoulders almost grazed the sides of the doorway as he passed through, and while his muscles were still evident, they were covered pleasantly by a layer of healthy fat that made him seem even larger than how he loomed in your memory.

As you glanced down, you caught sight of his hands, curling into fists only to unfurl and curl again. The thought that he could be just as unsettled in that moment as you felt was jarring … but welcome.

You moved to sit on your bed, gesturing to the other end for him lacking another option.

“Looks like you’re already settled in,” he noted, shifting to bend one leg to turn to face you. He wore his years, too. But they looked much better on him. His blonde hair was gone, shaved down to the skin. The full white beard was new, too, and rather impressive.

It helped that he looked different. Helped you feel like you could get through this without embarrassing yourself. And you wanted to. You wanted at least to be able to talk to him as a friend again. He may not want you the way he used to, but you could be cordial to a fellow rebel.

“Yeah, didn’t have much to unpack. I guess that’s the bright side of a last-minute extraction.” The tint of humor colored your voice a little more naturally. Confidence trickled slowly, but it was there. You clung to it like a lifeline.

“Extraction? What the kark were you up to that needed an extraction?”

Your eyes cut to his, challenging his sharp tone with your own. “What I could. What, did you think I’d be a good little citizen of the Empire?”

The hit landed better than any punch you could throw. He recoiled, if only slightly.

Guilt curdled your stomach. You didn’t want it to go this way, for the accusation to fill your voice even though you left it out of your words. But you couldn’t help that small, dark, nasty piece of who you used to be that wanted him to feel a fraction of what he put you through.

“I’m sorry. That wasn’t fair. I didn’t … I didn’t want to be angry if we ever met again,” you confessed, catching the corner of your lip between your teeth. “And besides, I likely would have ended up here anyway.”

You moved to pick at your already threadbare sheet as the silence coagulated around you, thick and heavy.

“No, it was fair. More than.”

You found yourself mirroring his deep breath as he continued.

“You never were one to rest on your laurels. I just … I always liked imagining you on your home planet or somewhere in the Outer Rim, curating your library or working on your crafts. Something peaceful, on a peaceful planet far away from the mess of the Empire.”

The hint of a smile touched the corners of his mouth as the weight of his admission settled around you. You didn’t want it to comfort you.

And yet …

When Rex left, he said it was his duty to find and save his brothers. To do that, he needed to leave you behind. You always understood that to mean you couldn’t keep up. You would be a liability to his mission, one he couldn’t risk.

And yet …

“You thought about me?”

Rex’s eyes hardened, singularly focused on you as he reached out to grab your hand. Even now, as a fire you refused to name burned clearly in his eyes, he was still achingly gentle in his touch.

“I thought about you every day.” He spoke almost insultingly slowly, every word bursting with intention. “You were the thought that kept me going.”

“Then why-” You swallowed down the crack in your voice, hating how it revealed just how tenuous your control was. Rex moved closer to you, bringing his hand up to your cheek, but you leaned away and pushed it down. Gently.

“Why didn’t you come back? You never even commed.”

“I had to keep you safe-”

The speed with which he was ready to spit out the answer, like he had rehearsed it, fanned the flames licking up your spine, forging it to steel.

“That’s osik and you know it. No one is safe from the Empire, and-”

“And I realized that. Took longer than it should have to get through my thick skull, but it did. Wolffe and Gregor helped get that lesson in. So I went back to Coruscant. And you were gone.”

The shock from his admission kept you frozen so that when Rex reached for you again, you let his palm curve around your cheek. You had left Coruscant a few years after the fall of the Republic, unable to stay in the shadow of your lost life.

If you hadn’t ...

“When I couldn’t find you on planet, I convinced myself it was for the best. I had been a coward when I left. I hurt you. I thought it was to protect you, but I think even then I knew I was keeping myself safe more. Me leaving meant I would never have to see you in danger. So when I saw you also left, it meant you moved on. You weren’t hurting anymore. You were starting a new life … just like I told you to.”

His thumb moved back and forth across the dry skin of your cheek as he pulled you forward. You fell into him, your hands braced on his knees as he pressed his forehead against yours.

“But that was an excuse. I was still just a coward. I didn’t know what I could say to you that would do any good and … I didn’t want to see someone else next to you, living the life I wanted.” His eyes closed before he continued. “You deserve the galaxy, and I didn’t know how to give it to you. I still don’t.”

It was a confession saturated with guilt and shame. It crawled over you as your tears finally slipped past your control to pool against his thumb.

Safe from the weight of his gaze, you gave a confession of your own. “I never wanted the galaxy. I only ever wanted you.”

Rex’s eyes snapped open, and you could feel his heavy breaths matching yours. Before he had the chance to say anything, you pushed the words out of your mouth, letting the purest truth you knew pour out of you.

“I didn’t leave to start over. I left to escape. The opportunity to help the rebellion came to me, so I took it. It was my way of fighting against the thing that stole you from me. And … And if I did my job right, if I smuggled enough blasters, and med packs, and rations, then I wasn’t just helping the rebellion. I was keeping you safe, too.”

It wasn’t everything. It was barely enough. But you needed him to know, beyond a doubt, that your heart always had been and always will be only his.

“The thought that I could be helping you was what kept me going.”

His grip on you tightened, pulling you impossibly closer. “Can-” Now it was his voice that broke. “Can I kiss you? Please, sweetheart, can I-”

Maybe at one point, a younger you would have kept your composure, would have remained determined not to let Rex see just how desperate he could still make you.

But time had taught you well just how fleeting it could be. And you knew pride was nothing compared to the feeling of your love on your lips.

So, there was no hesitation as you closed the distance, answering the ache in his voice with the frantic press of your lips to his. The brush of his beard was foreign, the hair scraping and chafing your skin. But you couldn’t care when the familiar touch of his kiss grounded you, made you feel whole and alive in a way you forgot possible.

It hurt, feeling the small, shriveled thing you had allowed your heart to become taking up room in your chest once again, filling up with nothing but him — the feel of his skin on yours, the smell of his soap tickling your nose, the sound of the small noises that escaped his lips as he devoured yours in turn.

But it was a pain you’d welcome a thousand times over if it meant Rex’s mouth stayed on yours. This wasn’t just a kiss. It was a rebirth, the two of you breathing new life into one another.

You shivered as his tongue slid along your bottom lip. A whimper betrayed your need and you opened for him, letting him explore what has always been his. Blood roared in your ears, and you cursed it for drowning out the sound of his groan as his tongue danced along yours.

Pressing yourself ever closer, your hands slid up his impossibly thick thighs for balance as you leaned into him, needing to feel him everywhere. Thank the Force Rex understood. He always did, after all. He lifted you with ease to pull you into his lap, his arms wrapping securely around you to keep you in place as your legs slid around his waist.

But then he pulled his face away, holding you firm as your hands curled around his shoulders and your lips tried to chase him.

“I’m sorry, sweet girl.” His eyes pierced into you, and you could see how determined he was for his apology to reach you. “So, so sorry.”

“It’s-”

“Don’t say it’s okay. It’s not.” There was the captain you remembered, his tone curtailing any argument before you could even raise one. “But if you’ll let me, I plan on spending every spare moment I have making things right.”

He softened, but his eyes were just as intense. “You don’t have to answer right away. I want you to be sure; no regrets. Because if you say yes, mesh’la …” His arms tighten around you, the pressure of his strength sparking delightfully across your torso as every ounce of insecurity melted from your body and his lips moved to graze your ear. “I’m never letting you go again.”

“Please don’t,” You beg, barely letting him finish. “Please don’t ever let me go. Hold me, claim me, make me yours. Build a future with me so I never have to live without you again. Choose me ... the way I never stopped choosing you.”

The silence in the wake of your plea lasted only as long as a single heartbeat. Then, something in Rex shattered.

He may have broken you gently, but he was going to rebuild you roughly.

Coarse hands lifted you again as if you weighed nothing, throwing you onto your bed and knocking the breath from your lungs. Before you could even think, Rex was on you, his hips pressing you into the mattress as his hands slid up and down your sides.

“I do choose you.” You shiver at the growl in his throat as the words slide down your spine to pool deep in your belly. His hands slide under the thin fabric of your tunic, and you preen as his fingertips dance along your skin. “And I’ll keep choosing you. Let me prove it. Can I show you, pretty girl? Show you how I can take care of you?” 

Your eyes slipped closed as his indulgent tone; your core fluttered at the dark promises dripping from his lips. But a quick, sharp sting on your neck pulls you back.

“Eyes on me,” he reprimanded, though his smirk as he licked the skin red from his nip betrayed his amusement. “I need an answer, mesh’la.”

“Yes! Yes, please. Stars, Rex, show me!”

You should be embarrassed by how quickly you cave for him. But how can you be when Rex wasted even less time in claiming your mouth again, all tongue and teeth as he left no part untouched. You reveled in the attention, undulating hips demanding even more as your hands trailed along the broad curve of his shoulders. You followed the line of muscle down his arms, feeling as they shifted with the movements of his own hands.

Hands that locked around your hips and forced them to still. “Not yet.”

His admonishment wasn’t quite enough to dissuade you from challenging him. You pushed your core against his length, leaving you breathless at how perfectly it pressed against where you needed most.

Rex’s responding moan reverberated through you pleasantly. His dark chuckle, however, gave you pause. You’d heard it maybe once or twice, and you knew it meant trouble.

“I said …” He moved so his legs straddled yours, his full weight holding you still as he held both your wrists in one hand above your head. “Not. Yet.”

You pushed against his grip, needing to put your hands on him again, to feel him. Every inch of you needed to be touching every inch of him now.

“Please, Rex. Please, I need …” Your desperation stole your words and turned them to whines. This wasn’t the first time you felt carnal desire since he left. But you had always just taken care of yourself, quick and efficient, turning pleasure into a task like any other.

Now, you were consumed by your need.

A sweet kiss graced your lips lightly before Rex hushed you.

“I know, sweetheart. I know. But I’m going to take my time with you. It’s been so long, and I wanna take care of you right. You’re going to come undone on my tongue …” At this, his tongue made itself known as he licked a steady stripe up the side of your next, pouring fuel on the inferno raging just under your skin.

“On my fingers …” His free hand trailed over the wet skin, continuing past your neck, over your collarbone to tease mercilessly at the top of your breast.

“And once I feel you’re ready, you’ll come all over my cock.” Rex brought one of your hands down to the front of his pants, letting you feel his hardness through his trousers. “But you’ll need to be good and listen. Can you do that?”

You nod, whipping your head up and down, willing him to give you exactly what he promised now but groaning when he moves your hand away from him.

“Wound up this bad already? I believe that’s a new record. You need to use your words, pretty girl.”

You wanted to slap him for his teasing, but your pointed glare would have to suffice. “No shit it’s a record. I’ve been waiting,” you huffed.

Rex stilled. “Have…Have you not …?”

You could feel the heat returning to your cheeks so you answered before he could find his words if only to cut your own embarrassment short.

“No. I mean I took care of myself, but…”

Unbridled lust was the only thing you saw when you met Rex’s eyes again. “Then I won’t make you wait any longer.”

Using his grip on your wrists, he pulled you up and with a speed you didn’t realize he had, he stripped your tunic from your body. Before you could even register the cold pebbling your nipples, he moved to your waistband, peeling your underwear and leggings down in one move, pausing only to pull your shoes off before you’re completely bare before him.

“Kriff, Rex,” you huffed, impressed as Rex cast off his chest piece with as little regard as possible.

But the man above you focused only on your newly revealed form. You moved to touch him in return, hoping to hide a few of the new rolls of your abdomen against his.

You should have realized by now tonight was going his way.

“Let me see you, ner mesh’la karta,” he commanded. You didn’t want to, but since you never thought you’d ever get to hear another order from your captain, you obeyed, laying back and following his eyes with yours as they took you in.

He leaned down, dragging his lips over your stomach to graze the bottom of your breast with his teeth. Gently, but with the threat of rough just under the surface.

You wanted both … everything … anything he would give you.

“Perfect.” You keened at the praise, lifting and offering yourself to his mouth and earning a smile in return. “Oh yes, I remember …”

His tongue ran across your nipple before he blew softly, sending a shudder through you. You didn’t suffer long before he wrapped his lips around your peak and sucked hard. Nothing could have stopped the cry that spilled out of you as your back arched, your body mindlessly giving him even more access.

And he took every inch you gave. Releasing you with a satisfying pop, Rex reached up to turn you to face him with one hand as the other moved down your body to rest just at your mound.

“Spread your legs for me. Be a good girl and show me that pretty little pussy of yours.”

You pulled your knees up and wrapped your hands around them to pull them apart and hide how he made you tremble. The cool air, made colder from your slick, tickled your sensitive skin. But it was the reverent hunger on Rex’s face that made your cunt clench around nothing.

“Please, Rex. I—”

He didn’t let you finish your pathetic plea, instead diving forward, his movements just as desperate as you felt. His hands encircled your thighs, pushing them even further apart as he buried his face into your core and let his tongue sink into your wet hole with a satisfied moan.

His tongue laved against you, determined to touch every inch of you before gliding up to circle your clit. As your breathy whimpers turned into full-fledged cries, you absentmindedly hoped that the walls around you were thicker than they looked before Rex wrapped his lips around your nub and sucked.

A moan erupted from deep within you as your muscles contracted and sent a gush of arousal spilling out of you, leaving you unable to care who heard.

“Stars, already so wet for me. You taste like a dream.” His eyes pierced you from where he lay between your legs. “Keep your hands where they are and hold yourself open for me.”

You mewled in response as he returned to his task with his fingers now aiding in the effort, finding your clit with ease as his tongue entered you once again. His free hand slides up to rest on your tummy, pressing down but not enough to keep you still. But just enough so you can feel him as your hips kept their frantic undulation going, your body demanding the release he promised.

“That’s it,” he groaned to himself more than to you. “Good girl, taking what you need.”

Picking up the pace, Rex kept his fingers moving in tighter and tighter circles, keeping pace with your frenzied keening as he fucked you with his tongue.

“Kriff, Rex … so close … so … S-shit shit shit shit-”

He pushed down harder on your pelvis, amplifying every spark he ignited at your core as his fingers moved ever faster. “Let go, mesh’la. Let go and don’t you dare fucking hold back. Give it to me!”

Your captain gave an order. What else could you do but obey?

You shattered around him, your scream echoing against his satisfied groan as he drank from your cunt with a fierce intensity. His fingers and tongue never stopped as he forced your orgasm out of you, working you well past overstimulation into boneless compliance as you gave everything he demanded.

Eventually, the aftershocks faded. Rex’s ministrations eased, though he never took his hands off you, letting his fingers trail gently along your lips and restoking the fire in you that burned only for him.

“I love you, Rex,” you sighed, relief flooding you as the words finally escaped you after years locked away.

Rex smiled with only a tinge of sadness in his eyes speaking to lost time before he rest his head against the softness of your thigh, pressing a kiss to your skin.

“I love you, too, sweetheart.”

“Don’t leave me again?” You meant it as a command, but you had none of Rex’s natural authority. Well, that and your post-orgasmic state hindered what strength your voice could have had, leaving the order sounding more like a needy whine.

“Never.” Rex slid his hand back down, gathering your slick to sink two thick fingers deep into you. “Now, I believe I said something about you coming on my fingers next.”

Thankfully for you, Rex was a man of his word. He never left your side again. He kept the rest of his promises, too.

You were on the edge. In more ways than one.

You felt like the mattress beneath you was doing absolutely nothing to cushion you. It was as good as a wall against your back, cornering you and leaving you with nowhere to go.

Which was exactly what the man between your legs wanted.

He had you pinned, with your knees pressed all the way into the sheets to accommodate the sheer width of his shoulders and arms, which were curled around your thighs to further spread you open. The strength and single-minded focus of his was enough to keep your hips and ass firmly in place too, no matter how much you twitched or bucked or trembled. Sweat slicked your entire body from exertion and desperation. And with every orgasm he ripped out of you, you felt your sanity fray away, dissolving into something coated in drunken bliss.

You felt your gut clench as Rex flicked his tongue over your swollen, sensitive clit, releasing a cry. You would've tried to muffle it with your hand, had they not been forcibly dragged away from your mouth earlier by Rex, his liquid, brown gaze promising to punish you if you tried that again.

Rex's large, warm hand skated up to rub your stomach in soothing circles, applying the barest pressure down on you, just like he always did when he was buried inside you, bulging inside you. The pressure made you gasp and hiccough, and all the while, Rex's face never left the feast that was your cunt.

You twitched as his face practically vibrated against you, and it took a second for you to register that he was humming encouragingly.

"Gonna cum again, mesh'la?" he rumbled into you, his beard scratching your skin as he spoke. Your thighs and core were nearly bright red from the constant movement of his bearded mouth against you. And he relished in knowing that you would be feeling the burn of him for days.

You honestly weren't sure how you could still cum. He had pried two from you with his fingers alone before he started to eat you. And now, you were working towards your fourth, having been slowly worked towards it for what felt like hours now.

"Rex —" you hiccoughed, nearly sobbed, "can't — I can't —"

"You can," Rex soothed. "I know you can." He briefly sucked your clit into his mouth, two of his thick fingers moving to slip into your puffy, fucked pussy. You sobbed again as he crooked his fingers inside you, them working you as well as his blasters. "Go on now, gorgeous. Let go."

Unable to ever disobey him, your back arched as your fourth orgasm washed over you, cunt fluttering around Rex's thick fingers. You could vaguely hear his deep-toned praises, but it was like you were drunk — everything just seemed that much more numb and heightened, and you swore you knew nothing but orgasmic ecstasy any longer.

Your gasping whines were as delicious as your dripping slick. And Rex physically could not get enough of either, burying his tongue amongst your folds to catch as much of your sweet arousal as possible. He wanted it all, and with each pass of his tongue, you released more and more of those equally sweet noises, both desperate for more, and desperate for a break.

But he knew you had more in you. You always did.

So Rex began to slowly pump his fingers again, spreading you open to let more and more of your nectar fall onto his tongue. Your thighs were trembling around his head, and he couldn't help turning his face briefly to suck a little mark into the raw skin there, burned so gorgeously by his beard.

Your little mewls shot straight to his cock, which had been straining in his pants all night, throbbing with need.

But Rex could wait. He had grown patient in his age. And when it came to making you cum, Rex could wait as long as needed.

His hips flexed a little, settling more firmly into the mattress, pressure relieving some of aching need inside him.

"Rex," you were gasping. Your knuckles were white where they fisted the sheets, and your face was absolutely wrecked with pleasure and overstimulation. But Rex knew you had more in you. His good girl. You absolutely spoiled him, how much you came for him. An old soldier who'd long outlived his original purpose, and yet it was him drinking your cum. It was him you welcomed between your legs. It was his name you screamed when he was balls-deep inside you. It was him you ached and longed for. It was him who had ruined you for absolutely anyone else.

And the knowledge of that made Rex ravenous.

Your body felt like it was made of jelly, and every pass of his tongue over your clit worked a cry out of you. All you wanted was relief, even though you had just cum. Relief. Whether from his mouth, or in the form of another orgasm, you didn't fucking care anymore. His name was the only word on your tongue anymore, and it slipped from your lips as easily as your overstimulated mewls.

Rex, Rex, Rex.

Rex's ears roared with each thick, nectarine cry of his name. And he buried his face in you as far as he could.

The two fingers in your cunt crooked against the spongy bundle inside you, slowly increasing in speed, in tandem with the increasing pressure of the lips sucking around your clit. His fingers and lips were dragging you higher and higher, stretching you tighter and tighter. A strange, but familiar pressure began to build in you. Even through the haze of your overstimulated bliss, you recognized it for what it was, and your next cry of his name was a choke.

"R — Re... Rex!"

"Good, mesh'la." Rex smirked a little against you, hot breath wafting over your swollen pussy lips. It did nothing to lessen the hot little ball tightening inside you. "Good."

It didn't take much longer, your body pliant and unable to resist the ultimate high Rex was working you towards. His fingers began to work furiously inside you and his thumb pressed hard to your clit, rubbing at a pace you didn't think possible. And with a scream of his name, your entire body seized and lifted almost fully off the bed.

Rex grinned as your juices splashed to his chest and face, warm and thick and dripping.

He was proudly soaked in it.

And when you came down enough to fully take in the sight, your cheeks went hot with arousal and mortification. You weren't sure how it was possible for your pussy to still tingle with anticipation, not after you'd literally squirted all over Rex, but you pressed your thighs together, slick squelching between them.

Rex grinned.

"Got more in you mesh'la?" he rumbled, not bothering to do anything about the juice dripping from his face to his chest.

You smiled, tiredly. "For you?" You forced your trembling thighs open, a film of slick briefly following them before breaking and slathering back across the skin. "I have as many as you want."

Rex dipped down and connected your lips.

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You awoke with a start in the middle of the night to the sound of noise in your apartment. The entrance slid open and closed again, and you recognized the soft beep of the lock function on the door panel being activated. Your hand automatically reached out for the blaster in the top drawer of your side table as you wrapped the sheets tighter around your body. Footsteps slowly stalked around your living space. You could hear the sound of fabric rustling and what sounded like durasteel being placed down on your countertop. A heady cocktail of confusion and fear swirled in your veins as your mind raced at all the possibilities of who the intruder could be and what they could want from you.  

The footsteps suddenly began to travel closer, echoing louder and louder as they moved down the hallway directly toward your room. Your hand snapped upward, aiming your blaster directly at your bedroom door. You willed your wrist to stop shaking as your finger flexed on the trigger.  

All noise ceased as soon as the footfalls approached your door and you held your breath. The door panel trilled loudly in the deathly silence, signaling its activation before the entrance slid open. Before you could react, a low chuckle emanated from the darkness. A large figure stepped into view, hands raised in surrender. 

“Is this how you greet me after not seeing me for a week cyare? With a blaster in my face?” You gasped, dropping your weapon as all of your previous fear melted into excited relief. 

“Rex!” You exclaimed as you tossed your sheets away and bound across the room so you could throw your arms around him.  

He laughed softly as he wound his arms around your waist, his beard tickling your skin where he rested his chin on your shoulder. Rex had been off world for the last week on a covert mission for the rebellion. You unfortunately couldn’t accompany him like you normally did since you had work to do on base helping to strategize your sector’s next moves against the empire. It had been one of the longest weeks that you had had in a long time. You and the former clone captain had been attached at the hip since the fall of the republic when you could finally be together without fear of losing your respective careers. Having to work apart was not typical, and no longer something that you were used to. It wasn’t like the old days where you would sometimes have to go weeks if not months without more than a quick comm call to check in. To say that you were relieved to be back in his arms again was an understatement.  

“On second thought, if you’re going to greet me by pointing a blaster in my face naked, maybe I should go away more often.” Rex’s warm calloused hands smoothed down your back to your ass, which he gave a good natured squeeze. You shivered in response. With all the excitement, you’d forgotten that you’d chosen to forego your usual pajamas tonight. 

“I hope you were expecting me cyare and not someone else,” He teased, pressing your bodies closer so your chest brushed up against the rough fabric of his shirt. The feeling was tantalizing, but nowhere near as good as that of his skin. You gave him your sweetest smile, batting your eyelashes as you stared up into his handsome face. 

“I wasn’t expecting you, but I was hoping you’d come back Captain.” You knew him well enough to see the slight change in his demeanor at the use of his title. Even after all these years it was still a sure way to rile him up. Without missing a beat one of his hands came up to grasp your chin between his thumb and forefinger. 

“I’ll always come back to you cyare,” Rex growled before crashing his lips to yours.  

His kiss was all consuming as he gripped the flesh of your hips in his large hands and began backing you toward the bed. You immediately melted into him, wanting nothing else in that moment then to feel the warmth of his skin and the softness of his lips as they descended from your mouth down the column of your throat to nip gently at where your collarbones poked upward from beneath flushed skin. Your hands grasped at the hem of his shirt as you attempted to lift the offending fabric away. Rex took pity on your efforts, backing away briefly to remove his remaining clothing before surging forward once more.  

The weight of his broad form lying atop your own felt like coming home as your back arched, pressing your body against his with an unconscious ease, like a gravitational pull. You’d been here, beneath him more times than you could count and yet, the feeling of his calloused palms traversing across your skin still made you shiver. If anything, your frequent practice of this particular dance only made Rex better at it with time as each experience revealed more of what made your skin flush and your eyes role back in your head. Your body spoke its own language of seduction and at this point, Rex was more than fluent. It didn’t matter exactly how much time had passed, your bodies always knew their way back to one another.  

Rex laved kisses from your neck down your chest, taking time to suck red marks onto the undersides of your breasts. His fingers, calloused from years of handling weaponry, slid up your ribcage to tweak your nipples. You gasped and arched off the mattress. 

“Rex please!” You cried out. “Please don’t tease me.” 

When you opened your eyes to finally meet his, you found him to be smirking up at you with a familiar youthful glint in his stare.  

“Meshla I would never tease you,” The gruff timbre of his voice only further stoked the fire beginning to crackle and burn in your gut. “Let me appreciate you the way you deserve.” 

The sincerity of his statement caught you off guard. It made your heart beat faster and your blood begin to rush in your ears. You simply nodded down at him in surrender, unable to form a proper reply.  

You could’ve sworn that you heard him chuckle softly against your skin before his lips resumed their descent down your stomach. Your body bloomed beneath his touch, a light pink flush spreading up your chest and neck as you heaved and squirmed in anticipation. One of his strong arms moved upward to rest across your abdomen, effectively pinning you to the bed.  

“Stay still for me pretty thing,” He spoke, his warm breath puffing against the plush skin of your inner thighs. “Stay still and let me make you feel good.” 

You couldn’t help but whine in response as you fisted the sheets, trying in vain to anchor yourself. After a few more gentle kisses and nips to the inside of your thighs, he finally pressed forward to lick a long strip up the length of your center. You gasped as your eyes screwed shut and your back lifted of its own accord against the heavy weight of his arm.  

Rex let out a loud groan at the taste of you on his tongue. The vibrations only electrified his movements as he pushed his tongue into you, the bridge of his nose bumped deliciously against your clit with each thrust.  

“Oh gods Rex, please!” As soon as his mouth had met your center, you knew that you were already a goner. It had been a long week without him and your body was even more responsive to his touch than usual. The familiar fire had already begun to build in your gut as you cried out his name in warning.  

Rex seemed to only heed your pleas as a cue to double his efforts. Before you could fully comprehend what was happening, his mouth had already moved upward to latch onto your clit and suck hard. You let out an embarrassingly loud moan and your eyes snapped open as your head jolted off the pillow. His golden brown eyes were already boring into your own, watching intently as he brought you closer to your end. The heat of his gaze was enough to push you over the edge as you came with a shout. Rex allowed a bit more room for your hips to flex as you rode out your orgasm. He greedily lapped up every bit of your release, singing your praises against your dampened skin.  

“Missed you so much meshla. You look so gorgeous when you cum for me.”  

He pressed a few more gentle kisses to your stomach before climbing back up your body. Your legs parted for him of their own volition and he slotted himself between them with a practiced ease. Gentle hands made their way down your sides to hook under your knees and bring your legs up to wrap around his hips. He leaned down to kiss you then, and you groaned when you tasted yourself on his tongue.

“Will you let me fuck you pretty girl?” He whispered the question, facial hair brushing against your face with every movement of his lips. “Let me make up for not being here to take care of you this past week?” 

You whined again and rolled your hips in an attempt to further entice him. “Yes gods Rex, please fuck me. I need you!” 

Rex smirked, his chest rumbling with a low chuckle.“Your wish is my command cyare.”  

He pressed a final gentle kiss to your lips before sitting back upright. One large hand gripped the meat of your hip while the other went to your center, gathering some of your slick on fingers so he could spread it down his length. He rubbed the tip up and down your outer lips, tapping your clit a few times to watch you jolt off the bed. You were about to beg for him to hurry up, but the words died on your tongue as he finally sank into you.  

There was no sexier sound in the universe than the way Rex moaned when he first entered you. It was a gruff, deep sound that came from deep in his chest. His eyes fluttered closed and his mouth hung slightly open as he attempted to tether himself back to the present moment. You swore that he never looked more handsome than when he was lost in the moment like this; lost in you.  

He finally opened his eyes again when he began to experimentally rock his hips into yours. “You feel so good around me meshla. Always so perfect.” 

You whined at the praise. “Rex! Faster. Please.” Words were quickly escaping you as you began to grow desperate. You wanted him to fuck you so hard you couldn’t remember your own name.

His soft laughter broke you from your frantic thoughts. Your eyes met his once more to find him gazing down at you with a look that could only be described as pure adoration.  

“Oh don’t you worry cyare, I’ll give you what you need.”  

He fell forward so his strong arms caged you in on either side of your head. His hips receded so only his trip remained inside you only to snap forward so they were flush with yours again in one swift motion. Your hands immediately flew up to grasp onto his shoulders, nails clawing down his back in a futile effort to gain stability. All you could do was wrap your limbs around him and hold on for dear life as his hips began to piston into yours.  

His pace was immediately bruising as he fucked you within an inch of your life. It was as pleasurable as it was overwhelming. You could practically feel him in your throat you were so full. All other trains of thought were wiped from your consciousness until only he remained. The feeling of his cock brushing against the most intimate parts of you was intoxicating. You couldn’t count how many times he’d had you like this and yet, he never once disappointed.  

Rex drew back for a moment to lower his hips so he could drive up into you, seeking out the soft spot within your walls that he knew was there; the one that made you scream. You did not disappoint in your reaction. You cried out to him as all the muscles in your body pulled taut. Your walls began to flutter around him as the familiar fires of your impending release began to rise in your gut. 

“Yes Meshla, that’s it. Wanna feel you cum hard on my cock.” You had no choice but to obey him as the relentless pounding of his cock combined with the gruff timbre of his voice whispering the filthiest things in your ear sent you hurtling over the edge. Your vision whited out as you writhed and shook in his arms. All the while you screamed salvation to the ceiling of your dark bedroom, crying his name like it was the only one you knew. Once you began to drift back down, you could immediately tell that Rex was not far behind. 

“Fuck pretty girl you get so tight when you cum.” His pace began to falter as you pulsed around him. He drove his length into you a few more times before finally pushing in as far as he could and spilling inside you. You moaned at the feeling of his hot release painting your walls, shuddering at the sensation of being so utterly full of him.  

After a few moments Rex carefully slid out of you before rolling onto his back and bringing you along with him, wrapping his strong arms around you so he could press you against his chest. You drew patterns in the curly salt and pepper smattering of chest hair and waited for both your breathing to return to normal.  

“Definitely going away more often if you greet me like this again,” Rex teased you, breaking the silence. You snorted, lifting your head up out of the crook of his shoulder to meet his gaze. 

“Or you could just bring me with you next time and we could take this show on the road,” you countered, your lips curling into a mischievous smile. 

Rex laughed aloud at that, his warm belly laugh that always made your heart skip a beat.  

“I think you’ve got yourself a deal cyare.”  

HERE the juice

Because I can't get enough of him

Thank you whore list

It had been years.

But you’d know that helmet anywhere.

“Rex?”

You asked, unsure of yourself, as he pulled his helmet off to get a better look at you. The look in his eyes held the same sadness that you remembered. But it seemed to disappear momentarily as recognition flashed over his face only for it to take over his features tenfold as it sunk in.

“I never thought I’d see you again.” He whispered, holding out a hand, movements faltering before he could touch you.

Tears welled in your eyes, you had long assumed that he had died with the rest of the 501st. But here he was. As different as he appeared, you felt the familiar tug at your heart. You reached for his outstretched hand and grabbed it with all your strength, part of you not expecting him to be solid. His lips lifted slowly in a tentative smile.

“You haven’t aged a day,” he chuckled, looking you up and down.

You rolled your eyes before closing the space between you two, grabbing his face with both hands. His beard was coarse against your skin but you stroked his cheeks with your thumbs all the same.

You finally spoke, “I still love you.”

A cloud of emotion covered his face before his hands moved to copy your grasp.

“Not a day went by that I didn’t think of you mesh’la. Not a single one.” His voice was hoarse, emotion stuck in his throat. “But I’m an old man now. Not quite the dashing soldier I was before.”

He ended the statement with another dry chuckle.

“I don’t care. You’re still you.” Tears flowed down your cheeks.

Rex finally closed the remaining space between you, kissing your lips softly. He moved his hands to your waist, pulling you flush against him as he pressed his lips rougher against you. You were both panting as you pulled away from each other.

“I still love you too cyare.” He whispered before pressing a chaste kiss on your lips.

You stood embracing each other for some time, neither wanting to let go lest the other disappear again. Finally, Rex’s comm went off.

“I have to do this supply run cyare. Don’t go far, you’re safe here.” He whispered before kissing you again.