#rebeccakin

i miss you, choom. i know you're probably with lucy by now, because that cyberpunk red string shit does NAWWTTT fuck around, but i wanted to tell you i miss you. i wanted to tell you i miss you and that you were literally the best person ive ever met out of all my canons, with the exception of my sis bc. well. sorry big dawg shes my sister LMFAO.

but you were the best, kindest person i'd ever met. all lifetimes. and outta all lifetimes, you were the only fuckin' man i ever loved. as jinx, i didn't love ekko. dont even fckn get me started, that mf was chasing ramona flowers‼️ i do NOT know that space-bunned, "destructive journaling" bitch in that gay little white dress hello??? can anyone hear me?? omg. i didn't love ekko but he loved me. probably

as sue i was effectively a clone with SUPERRRR great tits and a vendetta so no time for love. i need dick and drugs, and maybe even to replicate if the mood is right/everyone behaves/no one hates me/wants me to die for being a beautiful girl with stars in my eyes. being junko was a whole nother story babey we wont even get into that!

sorry dude i STILL be just fucking talking omg. the point is that i really lusted after a lotta people, i liked the IDEA of a shitload more. i liked the idea of people, but i'd get bored and chuck them to the side like some broken piece of tech i couldn't be assed to fix. too boring to fix and boring when it IS fixed. you, though... no, david, i loved you.

funny, smart, FUCK YOU WERE SEXY, couldn't do brews but vodka was ggez after a while. you never left anywhere without that gold chain crucifix, i never saw you with it off. i remember begging you to go lightspec. i really remember begging you to go lightspec but you wouldn't. because of maine and your mom. because of lucy, because faraday had her, and because fuck you david you're beyond a good person.

fuck you david, you were such a good person and you didn't listen to jack shit nothing. i loved you a lot. i still love you, and if you want, i'll wait up. even though you told me not to all the fucking time. even though you don't love me. i'll wait up, even though it makes me look like a dog.

miss you, choom. i'd kill to have you back even as a friend, even though i ain't good at playing just friends. :(

-rebecca/"becks", cyberpunk edgerunners.

im happy to have the bew friends abd dome sourcemates. but i died before i ever got the relationship i wanted to before i ever got to move on and find obe for me

i want a relationship that wants me how i am, yknow? wanna be loved like how my teamwtes had love. like so many otheres have love. im crass, and dating mes hard cause even in thise life people assume my age in really annoying ways... im not always gonna admit im wrong right away but i can always come around if you and me have something loyal. im not even monogmus!! im bi and poly and single and i cant get anything but creeps who want me for looking young :/

its funny. i actually really want to have a kid. kt would be prett neat. but doing it slone would be hard. and my friends have their own kids. and i just want what they have. im trying not to be jealous about it, but im so ready to have a family of my own

eugh, i feel kinda of pathetic typing all of this out but i wanna get it off my chest.

rebecca, edgrunners

Hey Edgrunners kin, be a little louder out there! I miss you team!

And yes Kiwi, even you, you didn't really betray us. Everyone looks out for their own is the rules, and you followed them.

You guys were the best and I miss seeing you, even if you don't wanna find anyone. Just don't leave me hanging, k guys?

-Becca out! 💙