#reasonstokeepliving

My dreams keep me going on. Celebreties, my bff, movies, books, music, band, animals make me happy. i probably haven't seen lots of animals alive yet i have lots of people to meet, lots of animal to see at zoo or at their natural habitat, there are still dreams that i'll have to see their coming true. Because i know i am so much better than all of them. I can make it. I believe in myself. I have city to see. I will not die yet.

because no one has never been as beautiful, and breathtaking, and worthwhile than this boy is to me. I love him, and I think mainly why I'm still breathing is because the love I feel for him, and the love he gives me, makes up for the absences and when I felt everything BUT love. <3

For me, when love was absent, and care was nowhere to be found, I felt like then would be a good time in my life to close the book and give up. But the reason why I'm still here is because of my one and only love, Justin. He's my boyfriend, you see, and sometimes it's hard to believe just one person can change your entire life but you know, I've never wanted to live more than when I am with him. I love him more than anything, and what drives me is just to see him more, to see our future together

My mom died recently, and ive been really depressed since then. But what keeps me going is just to make her proud. To make my mom proud. Thats all Ive ever wanted.

Because when I woke up in the ICU two days later, my first coherent thought was "well damn, I'm glad that didn't work." I can't tell you why I thought that, and I can't articulate why it matters to me that I'm still around, but I am positive that I instantly knew I had made a mistake, and that I had completely lucked out. I might not luck out next time, so I better not risk making that mistake again.

What keeps me living? My horse. He just lets me feel how it is to enjoy life and forget about all your worries. Taking a trail ride outside just make me feel so free. And the bond we have together is the most special thing I have ever experianced. Without him I wouldn've already killed myself. And whenever I have suicidal thoughts I just go and see him and then everything's alright again. <3