I felt a connection with him, I saw him in middle school on the bus, then he left for a while and I didnāt think of him again until I saw him. It was kinda creepy because I didnāt know anything about him. He knew nothing about me. Until I saw him this year (This year being last school year our sophomore year) across from one of my classes and on my bus again, I felt like I had to meet him (weird I know). Before/during this I was in an abusive relationship for a year with a boy who used me to get what he wanted a lot, we fought almost every week and he was my first sexual experience which wasnāt at all good. I was self harming because of my home life plus my ex and thought of ending my life almost everyday. I had those thoughts even before my ex because of my home but thatās not entirely the point of this. I finally met the boy I didnāt even know would change my life but I wanted to know so badly. Iām not one for muchĀ āfateā but it honestly felt like there was a invisible line connected to the two of us. (ONCE AGAIN odd I know).
On our bus the back is where most the high school students hang out and most of us knew one another so weād talk and hang out and laugh and have a good time after school on our way home and thatās kinda when I started talking to Tristan, but one of the days were pretty special.Most our friends werenāt on the bus that day and I was really depressed because of things going on at home, and when I got on the bus someone was in my spot and I decided to sit next to him. He asked me what was the matter and I told himĀ āMy moms a bitch.ā and he replied withĀ āHoly shit youāre bluntā and that made me snap into reality I donāt remember what happened that day but Iāll remember that moment for a very long time, I started frantically apologizing and freaking out a bit and he just told meĀ āThat isnāt really a bad thing.ā and I smiled.Ā
After that we kinda started actually talking more on the bus and hanging out more at school, and in about late January early February he introduced me to a couple of absolute nerds who I love so much and are proud to call some of the best friends I have ever had in my life.Ā
Having been talking to Tristan for a while now we talked about a bunch of things I was surprised we had in common like Shows, Movies, Video Games and most importantly Roosterteeth and I think we kinda helped each other out with the passing of Monty.Ā
Now fast forward to more of the best month of my life, I had beginning to develop a liking for the boy I think at the beginning of February, which seems like a long time and I think it might of been the same for him, but I was scared of getting into a relationship again because of how badly I was treated by my ex boyfriend, but I knew there was something different about Tristan and I knew even before we got together heād do nothing to hurt me. So I decided fuck it.Ā
I told no one of my interest in him except my cousin who I can share almost everything with, and a day before we got together the only girl apart of the group. The day before the 20th there was a prep rally for the girls/boys basket ball game at our school and we all sat together and Tristan sat next to me and we laughed and pushed each other jokingly and did stupid flirty things NOW stupid dumb idiot Cas didnāt know he was crushing on me too until about this moment. But I still hid the fact ofĀ āOh shit, this kid doesnāt like me, who would like me? Iām lame, I shouldnāt like him because he doesnāt like me back.ā and after I had lunch with just the girl and one of my friends (they were dating at the time) and She asked meĀ āSo do you like Tristan?ā and I started blushing really bad and shook my head no but then yes and I told her that she could tell anyone because I didnāt even know if it was mutual and it was kinda the end of that.
THEN THE NEXT DAY WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE;
We didnāt have school, the Irresistible music video came out, and the Lazer Team trailer came out! Then I decided hell I like him I think he likes me, we should go to the basketball game that was that night, and we did, the game we pretty good, sadly our team lost but it was alright because we yelled at the top of our lungs and freaked out. Later on at half we went outside and it was snowing, we stood out to escape all the heat from inside, and we stood around and talked, he was getting snow and the back of his neck and said how it was cold I told him to put on his hood and when he refused I put it on for him, and looking at him, I wanted to kiss him, but the thought of him actually not liking me came back so I didnāt even though that wouldāve been smooth as fuck, haha.Ā
Back at the game we moved up more to get away from a bunch of our sweaty hyped class mates, and behind us were a group of like thirteen year olds/ middle schoolers who thought they were better than everyone around them I told Tristan they needed toĀ āCalm their titsā and he saidĀ āIf you go and tell them that.. I would actually kiss you.ā which probably made me blush like a strawberry, I didāt want to because the same thought that was going through my mind the entire time I had this insane crush on him, but I did because I was think about kissing him just a couple minutes before, but either of those were in my head at the moment I told them to calm their tits, because they were juts being pure annoying and when I sat back down Tristan was laughing and smiling and saidĀ āI CANāT BELIEVE YOU JUST DID THATā because I was surprised myself.
After the game and a bunch of more yelling, it ended and we sadly lost, but while waiting outside, I was freezing my ass off, and he gave me one of his jackets which was too big on me along with a āoh yeah ,I almost forgotā head tilt touch of the back of my head and a kiss that absolutely sucked because I wasnāt paying attention, but it left me breathless. The boy I had been hardcore crushing on, the one Iād see around school, and felt like it was meant for us to meet, had just kissed me. and then after he left we did it again and we blushed a bunch and it was less awkward but still kinda and I got to keep his jacket for the night, and I was 100% dead. I was the happiest Iād ever been in a very very very long time. I donāt entirely believe in love at first sight, but I think this mightāve been the small piece that makes me believe in it a tiny bit. 7 months later and we still look and laugh and be with each other like weāre best friends/in the honeymoon phase and he knowās everything about me and my past and loves me the same and I do too with him, we laugh about stupid things and match so fucking well with each other, and we both have similar fears, but it only brings us closer. Weāve had some interesting adventures and weāre bound to have even more.Ā
Iām sorry if this was too cheesy for you but our team name is Double Cheese so. on that ending note Iād like to say;Ā
I know he probably wonāt see this but
Tristan, my babe, my marshmallow, my huge fucking cute ass nerd,Ā
Ā I love you so god damn much, and Iāve been through so much shit, and Iām so fucking grateful for you, you are one of the absolute best things that has entered my crazy life, with out you I wouldnāt have met the people Iām happy to call best friends, I would probably be stupid and with someone whoād hurt me, and Iām so fucking thankful because I have a god damn king, who is more of a man than the fuck for brains people Iāve had before, You treat me like a king as well, and Iād be more than happy to rule this kingdom of our lives with you. I know weāre just a couple of teenagers, but I honestly do not know who else Iād rather spend the rest of my life with, some who laughs at my stupid jokes and phrases and laughs with something stupid I said with me, some who I make laugh and make happy, and they do the same for me, someone whoās arms I fit prefectly in, the Loin to my lamb well ram, who I can talk to about anything with, without getting judged or put down, and adores the same things I do, and we have no idea what weāre doing because itās pretty new for both of us but we are absolutely the best and weāre doing this together which is what matters, I look at you like youāre the one that puts the stars and moon up at night. I love you I love you I love you, I love you more than words I can ever say but I think you know like I do how much I do love you a bunch.Ā
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