#reality issues

Casually doubting and dismissing your senses (I just realized that defaulting to “I just made that up” whenever I smell anything is probably not good)

disassociation culture is struggling with instructions at a new job because you're consistently unable to seperate from your daydream space, and when you try to force yourself to, you wind up spending equal amounts out of it trying to remind yourself to pay full attention.

I've spent a majority of my life disassociated. Even since I was a little kid, but I can't seem to remember why. I barely remember what people told me just a few seconds ago. I can't focus, and there's something hollow about my body. I've had moments where I realize things are actually real, but only for a short second. Maybe "actually real" isn't the right description. Of course I know that everything is real, but something about it just isn't real. Those few moments feel extra real, where I realize my mom is a real person, where I am a real person, where everyone else is real. But then, it just goes back to everything feeling hazy and foggy. My life doesn't truly feel real, but it's been like this for so long, I just didn't notice until now. Last year, I felt as though I had opened my eyes for the first time. Like I could really breathe in air, and feel it. Where my thoughts stayed, and my memory did too. I was actually able to focus and do work. I actually had my own opinions over everything. I'd do anything to experience that again. I'm not sure if it will, though. Everything else feels like the type of speed that you go through in a dream. It feels fast, but it's slowed. And so is the world. Yet, everything else seems to be going so much faster for other people. I wish I could return back to the way other people feel. Where things have always been real for them, where they can actually feel their own body, where they don't just dream.

Dissociation Culture is my problem is maintaining grip (on reality) and trying to fix it

Dissociation culture is, always questioning yourself and everything around you. am i even real? I don’t feel myself i’m not here I don’t feel my body! there is someone controlling me over things, someone is taking control! someone is inside me. I don’t remember half the things i did or said. questioning over and over did i really did that or it didn’t even existed?

Dissication cultuer is don't ask me to explain what I did or what happened, like maybe one day but I gotta convince myself I'm real

dissociation culture is watching the same media over and over again, and after feeling like everything you do is predetermined