#realisation.

Today I was questioned, today I was asked something no one had ever asked me before, today I realised why I had really joined what i had, today I really saw myself through someone's perspective. I was asked why had I joined and became a Blogger? I was dumbstruck, I did not have words to explain why I became one. Like usual the most generic answer left my lips " Because I love fashion. " . Never had I thought why I even became one. Today i realised I am also one of the rats who got trapped inside the rattrap. I was also a loser who got tricked into the temptation of limelight of the industry of fashion. I realised I chose the most easiest of ways to become a part of something I thought was cool. Today was a day of personal questioning. The day started like a regular lazy day, I realised that even I was even becoming a liar to myself. I know it is so irrelevant to you, but the relevance of what someone close to you brutally and honestly says makes biggest impact at a point. I started as helping my aunt who was already an established individual and what got she was receiving in the industry was the first bait left for me to be tricked. Slowly I started my so called blogging and it was easy for because I was know as the nephew. I wanted to grow and learn, don't get me wrong I found my own ways but the ways you find is not always right, i needed a reality check. Today I realised I was becoming this other self without realising it. As always whenever someone had pointed it out, my defense mechanism kicked in. But today's reality check, brought me to the limelight where I saw what people close to me meant when they were telling me and I will say. I am a fast learner and it will always stick with me. I may not blog like how bloggers should do, but from today onwards I would like to learn, I want to be an individual, yes I am an attention seeker, but lets take this form of narcissism in a positive way. I will do what please me, I had forgotten I am an artist. I was stuck in the paradox of following what people were doing. I do like being the center of attention but I forgot that I was becoming someone else to be that. Seeking and self discovery takes time. Finding the correct way towards who I am is strange and absurd. I was splashed with hot boiling water of honesty. As a rat I am inside the rattrap but now it is time for me to be an individual and not just see the bait but the trap too and be smart enough to get the bait without falling under that pall.

She can't accept that...so she won't let go...