#readyforit?

I went to Taylor’s concert on Friday in Melbourne. I enjoyed it like everyone else and was rocking out to all of my favourite songs by her. Not meeting her at the time didn’t bother me as I was enjoying the concert and watching my idol do her thing.

Fast forward to today and I’m crying.

I’m so happy for those who got her meet her.. so why am I crying behind the scenes?

I go to all her tours and I’m always in VIP. I am always at the music store, waiting in line for her new album.

I support her no matter what anyone else thinks about her.

I’ve looked up to her since the day she started her career and will always continue to do so.

So why am I crying?

Am I crying because I always go VIP even though I know people in VIP rarely get picked to meet her?

Am I crying because I don’t try hard enough on social media to get her or TaylorNations attention?

Maybe I’m crying because I don’t change myself in order to stand out in the crowd (I’m a shy person)..?

All I know is that, I don’t want to meet Taylor because she has amazing music or because she makes good movies...

I wanted to meet Taylor because she has saved my life and when I’m down, just thinking of her picks me up. In simple terms, she is my hero.

I’m at work right now crying because I’m being laughed at because I didn’t meet her... “you spent all that money and didn’t meet her”, “maybe she hates you”, “ maybe it’s because she just doesn’t want to meet you”, “maybe it’s because you can only go to one show?”...

why is it getting to me so much?

Maybe it’s the depression, who knows.

I’m not in any way upset because people got to meet her over me because it is what it is and I’m happy for them.

I just hope my time is soon, as the gratitude for her continues to grow and I just want the opportunity to thank her.

Please don’t be offend by this, I don’t mean to hurt anyone’s feelings.

It’s just how I’m feeling right now and wanted to share it.

I’ll never stop being there for you and supporting you taylor.

Can’t wait for the next tour. ❤️

Drunk guy: what are the red flashing lights for?

Me: it’s from Taylor swifts concert

Drunk guy: omg they’re fucking everywhere

Me: yeah, you missed out

😂😂😂

Hi @taylorswift and @taylornation

My outfit for Friday is complete! I’m so excited to dance and sing the night away with you. I’ve looked forward to this night for a really long time! I hope that I can thank you in person for everything that you’ve done for not only myself, but swifties all around the world. My friends and I will be in Snake Pit 2, I hope that you can come and say hi! It would be a dream come true. Btw the Reputation era rocks! Below is a is a photo of us all that my husband made for us. Hope that you love it! ❤️