L.
I mean don’t get me wrong, of course you cross my mind. I don’t deserve to be judged for that. From anyone. Despite that, I can wholeheartedly say no matter what, I would never want to be with you, ever again. I think that’s what hurts the most. Wanting something so damn bad, but knowing it’s toxic, that you have to let it go.
I used to be so hard on myself thinking I can’t let go of you, but in reality, I fucking did. I COULD have you but I CHOOSE not too. Have you ever loved something so damn much that it hurt to let go? I didn’t want to let you go, but I had to do what was best for me. You call me selfish for that. Sue me.
It truly blows my mind that you’re doing the same things with her that you did with me. You created her own little playlist, took her to the places you took me, wearing the same clothes that I wore. (A says it’s what happens when people move on, I beg to differ) She’s not me, L. You can go ahead and have girl after girl to void that emptiness that I know you feel (because I feel it too) so damn bad. It won’t work. I know you’ll come my way around soon, but I won’t be waiting for you. Not this time.
