#reader x thomas

The flare, a stuppid virus that made you go completely insane, you've kept your sanity in all those years in the Maze and now that you were finally free you wouldn't live to see the beauty of it. Here you were leaning on the table listing to Thomas and Gally picking a fight over what to do next you had to save Minho from WICKED but every idea was turned down it being to risky and now that there was a real option to extualy get the job done Thomas was refusing to do it and you were just trying to keep your mind from not completely losing it over this endless ‘i don't trust you even though it could save our lives thing’ you loved Thomas that's the hole reason you were together but sometimes he could be so stubborn and right now, right now he was being a pain in the ass because the plan Gally had to save Minho included Teresa “No there's gotta be another way” Thomas kept saying while everybody disagreed knowing we didn't have much choice or resources to do anything else “like what? you’ve seen the building she’s our only way in'' Gally tells him again but he still doesn't listen. “If we do get in you think she’s going to help us?” Thomas ask him and Gally shakes his head “I don't Plan on asking for her permission” i crack a little smile knowing nobody at the table really liked teresa in the first place and Brenda only conformers that when she's speaking up “Am i missing something here this is the same girl that betrayed us correct? same Dick”

Thomas starts to nervously pace around and nobody understands his problem. You loved Teresa like a sister but after her betrayal a lot changed even for you “what's going on?” Brenda asks him and you look over at Newt you knew your brother and you knew that look on his face because you've had it yourself and you've seen it on him before he was angry and he was going to lose it any second now “your afraid your little girlfriend is going to get hurt?” Newt snaps and all eyes go to him “this has obviously never been just about rescuing Minho is it''

Thomas looks taking back by his sudden outburst and so does everybody else but i couldn't disagree “he’s got a point Tommy” you tell him and the brown haired boy looks up at you even more shocked that your agreeing with Newt “what are you talking about” but before you can do or say anything Newt stands up straight in front of him “Teresa, she's the only reason Minho is even missing in the first place and now we finally have an opportunity to get him back and what you don’t want to because of her? because deep down inside you care more about her than for y/n don't you, just admit it”

Thomas turns his gaze over to you over Newt his shoulder and you know Your brother hit an emotional string there. from day one you were Teresa her competition and you knew how thomas felt about her but he chose you over her and that meant the world to you but this part of you that was Sick and infected was telling you that the minute you would be gone he would run to Teresa “Newt i” Thomas starts but All Newt does is move closer pushing Thomas against the wall “Don’t lie to me!”

“Newt calm down!” You yell getting closer but your brother doesn't move “Don’t lie to me” he tells Thomas again “Newt Get the off of him!” You say using every ounce of strength to pull him away from Thomas. As soon as he backs away he looks a bit shocked at his own actions looking between you and your friends mumbling a quick apology before turning towards Thomas and apologizing again. the minute he steps to the side wanting to walk away, wanting to leave the room you notice him grabbing onto his arm and you immediately fear the worst cause you've had the same outbursts and the same burning sensation in your arm right after you had an outburst like that. “y/n, i'' Thomas says towards you and you shake your head not wanting to talk about it “it’s fine, he just need to cool down”

“That's not what i mean” and you nod “i know”

you stand on your toe’s giving him a quick kiss on his cheek and giving him a reassuring smile “i’ll go check on Newt i’m probably the only one he’ll talk to you guys find a way to get Minho back”

Opening the door to the roof you can see Newt sitting on the edge of the building and you take a few steps closer trying to calm yourself down already knowing the truth about what just happened what had caused his outburst but still a part of you hoped it was just the tension and the time spend so close togheter that caused it instead of a stupid virus. Looking over his shoulder newt spots you standing behind him and you take a few steps closer “sorry bout that back there” he tells you but you don't say anything you just sit down beside him and look at his arm and seeing the twitching in his fingers and it looks all too familiar to you “Why didn't you tell me?” you ask him and he looks over at you but you just look at his arm and he Rolls up his sleeve Revealing multiple black and purple veins on his lower arm “you could’ve told me” you tell him but you knew your brother, you were the same you didnt wanna spend your last few weeks or even days saying goodbye to the people you loved

“I didn't think it would make any difference” he was right knowing it didn't change a thing it only made saying goodbye so much harder because you didn't know when you had to do it “All i know is that WICKED must off put us in that Maze for a reason, maybe it was literally just so they could tell the difference between the immunes like you and people like me” that only made it hurt more because he didn't know, he didn't know you were not Immune “people like us” you tell him and he looks confused. taking a deep breath you lift your leg up a little and move away to Fabric covering your ankle to show Newt the bite mark and torn skin that was covered in black and purple veins “it was that Crank that Fry shot when we were in the tunnel right before Brenda and Jorge saved us, his aim was good only a little bit to late” you explain

it stays silent between the two of you for a minute letting it sink it that you were going to lose each other to lose everybody you loved “Thomas?” He asks and you shake your head “he doesn't know, and he cant i'm not spending my last days saying goodby to him he needs to focus on Saving Minho”

“So what's your plan? You just wanna run off, leave us all behind and die on your own?” Newt asks in a harsh tone “No, i’m sticking to the plan and that's saving Minho”

“What you gonna do after that” and you swallow the lump in your throat “There won't be an after cause i’m not planning on surviving it and that's exactly why he doesn't know”

“who doesn't know?” a familiar voice says behind the two of you you both look back to see The brown haired boy and you turn your gaze to Newt pleading for him to stay quiet and he nods looking back to this arm “i guess i can't hide this anymore'' he tells Thomas rolling his sleeve up again “Newt we can still fix this” thomas tells him and you look between both boys being trapped in the triangle of losing not only yourself but also your brother and the boy you love

That night you all decide to go through with the plan, get Teresa, make her take out the chips in your necks and break into WICKED to get out Minho and that's exactly how things went. having Teresa back was weird to say the least nobody trusted her but right now she was sitting behind you with a small knife against your neck to cut out the chip you didn't really have a choice “try to relax this is going to sting” she tells you and shrug it off wanting to get it over with “just do it”

a sharp pinch follows within a few second you grab the chair tightly out of reflex and you put your feet flat on the Floor trying not to move but moving your leg past the Chair the zipper on your Jeans opens showing her the black veins beneath it “your leg” she says and you pull back leaning down the close the zipper and pull the fabric over your ankle down “What happened?” She asks but you ignore her completely

“are you done” you tell her harshly looking straight up at her “you two okay?” Thomas asks from across the room and you nod “yeah, where fine” you tell him grabbing a small piece of gauze and holding it to your neck “does he-” but you cut her off talking a little softer making sure nobody hears “No, he doesn't and he won't cause your going to keep your mouth shut and not talk to anybody about it you ruined enough as it is”

“if you come back to the lab with me i could help you give you a-”

“just drop it alright!” you yell getting everybody's attention “Whats going on here?” Gally asks and you shake your head “Nothing, there's absolutely nothing” you tell him walking of Looking over at your brother And then to the brown haired boy that is already on his feet and coming towards you and taking you away from Teresa and away from the others for a second “hey, whats going on with you?” he asks and you shake your head “i’m just one edge i just really want this to work” and the boy nods understanding and giving a quick peck on your lips cupping your cheeks “well get Minho back and we'll all be safe i promise” you look over at your brother on the other side of the Room and Thomas seems to understand “We’ll save Newt well get the cure and he’ll be fine”

“Promise me that after saving Minho you’ll try to save Newt no matter what” and he nods “where is this coming from?” He asks but you just look at him “Promise me Thomas”

“I Will, i promise i Will try to save Newt no matter what” you give Him a weak smile knowing that your brother might survive this all and that made you feel good you where going to save your friends, your family even though you know there was only enough to save one of you two and you knew it wasn't going to be you “You know i love you right?” He tells him and he leans down a little kissing you with more passion than before “i love you too, until Death do us apart” it was a small thing you two said in the glade and in the scorch when something happened but right now it only made you sad cause the small Joke that first meant you loved on another and would stick together would soon turn into reality and probably Faster than he hoped.

The plan worked, you got into WICKED, you saved Minho and you got out of the building with only minor issues but the adrenaline and the fast work took its toll on Newt, His body was shutting down and it was getting harder for yourself to keep things hidden from Thomas or anybody else for that matter.“They were supposed to blow up WICKED not the whole damn city!” Gally says as the walls explode and cars full of angry people coming rushing into the city. pushing us to the side we all sit down against a wall in an alley trying to get away from the explosions and Thomas crawls to the side and you pull his arm “where are you going” you ask him but he is quickly sitting back next to you as he sees WICKED’s cars rushing in “shit”

“what are they waiting for?” Minho asks “Like i have a clue” you answer and like it was planned a loud explosion goes off again and gunfire starts to blast out on the street “we gotta go!” Gally calls out and we sneak into an old dinner to stay sheltered from it all. Sitting in the back of the restaurant you sit against Thomas his chest and his hand goes around your waist as both of you breath heavily for the first time sitting still and letting everything that happened sink in looking between the gunfire outside and Gally,Newt and Minho you know things aren't looking very good for the five of you. Thomas loosens the hand on your waist and grabs the walkie from his pocket “brenda, are you there” and almost immediately she answers “Thomas, i’m here” you grab the walkie from his hands looking around seeing your brother getting worse the fire and fight going on outside and Thomas behind you before answering her “Bren, there's too much going on and i don't think we're going to make it”

“y/n? what are you talking about” she says clearly holding back tears making it harder for yourself to hold it back and you hand to Walkie back to Thomas while swallowing the lump in your throat “you should take the others and get everybody out while you still can” and i doesn't take long for Brenda her protest to come through

“No” and tears roll down your cheeks knowing how hard it is for them so putting your hand over Thomas you hold down the buttons “brenda, you need to go” you tell her hoping she will listen to you “i’m not leaving you two okay so forget it”

“Even though you should,” Thomas tells her and it stays silent for a while you sit up a little with a few tears in your eyes and you grab onto Thomas's hand tighter than before. part of you hoped it was going to be over cause it meant you never had to tell him the truth but the other part wanted him to survive and live his life at the fullest “we started this together might as well end it that way” you tell him and he smiles “you sound like your brother” and you laugh a little looking over at him “till death do us apart right” Thomas Jokes and you nod turning our head far enough to kiss him

“Thomas! y/n! don't worry i’m coming for you” and both Thomas and you look at each other and you act quick taking the walkie out of his hands “what are you talking about?”

“our rides here, look for us near the tunnels”

After walking out of the building Gally takes the lead cause he knew the place the best and he led you all towards the tunnels. At the end of the street a loud blow is heard and a car blows up in front of you all making you fall over and you're once again stuck hiding behind a wall “were almost here” Gally says staking low trying to look for a way through the fight without much trouble but a bright flash of light above you all making you look up seeing the berg flying overhead heading towards the tunnels “There here” you say in a whisper looking at Thomas having hope for your brother once again knowing Brenda had the cure to save him

“go without me, just go” Newt spills and you all look at him, veins starting to crawl up his neck and towards his face and black blood coming from his mouth

and you knew he wasn't going to last long anymore “Minho, you gotta run ahead grab the serum and get back as soon as you can” you tell him and he looks at you not agreeing with it but Thomas nods “Minho, go”

“there right, i’ll cover” Gally tells him and i nod once silently thinking him

“y/n, bring one for y/n” Newt says and you shut him up “what is he talking about?” Thomas asks and you shake your head “Nothing I'm fine it’s just the infection getting to his head” you tell him turning to Minho “You need to go Now!

“just hang on, you hear me,” Minho tells Newt and with those words he runs off getting the serum to save your brother. Newt his head turns to the side and you can see he's fading away but you grab onto him shaking him trying to get him to focus on you and trying to stay awake “Newt! stay with me do you hear me, i need you to stay focused”

“We've gotta get you up” Thomas says, grabbing onto Newt his arm but he protests reaching for his necklace and ripping it from his neck “come on Newt we've gotta go!” Thomas tells him again and tears run down your eyes as Newt holds out the necklace towards Thomas you knew it was the letter he wrote, you were there with him

“Newt, your gonna make it”. I tell him but he keeps his hand out for Thomas

“Just take it!” he yells breathing heavily and Thomas takes the necklace from him holding his hand tight “please, Tommy please” as the words pass by his lips your body starts shutting down and you start coughing letting your body drop next to Newts “y/n!” Thomas yells and you nod “i’m okay, it's just smoke” you lie and you look towards Newt and you can see in his eyes that he knows you're not far behind him “tell him, you need to tell him” Newt says and you shake your head “you need to keep your mouth shut, the plan is going the way it should” you tell him before turning to look at Thomas “tell me what?” Thomas asks and you shake your head holding onto your sanity and pushing yourself up again “The plan about saving Minho it's working now we've gotta save Newt your helping or not?”

“She’s Sick” Newt spits and Thomas looks at you “i’m fine just tired” And Thomas nods he knew you hadn't been sleeping much being concerned about newt but the truth was you didnt wanna risk him seeing the Infection in your leg you had enough time to sleep when this was over. “We need to get out of here” you tell him and Thomas nods, helping you lift up Newt and Making your way closer to the tunnels.

after a few blocks of walking your knees give up on you and you drop to the ground Newts body collapsing onto Thomas and dropping to the ground before you “Y/n?” Thomas ask and you look up at him “I’m Sorry Thomas” you tell him knowing your plan was not working you weren't going to make it and your idea to walk away the minute your brother was save wasn't going to work, if you were shutting down this fast then Newt was even worse knowing that the body in front of you wasn't your Brother anymore but the Infection that caught up with him and took over his brain.

suddenly the street goes quiet and Teresa her voice comes through “thomas? can you hear me, i need you to listen to me i know you have no reason to trust me but i need you to come back, Thomas you can save Newt you can save y/n, there's still time for the Both them” you start coughing and looking at your hand you see black blood and you lift your head up al little to look at thomas you give him a silent apologie again but he just looks at the blood on your lips “there’s a reason brenda isn't sick anymore, it's your blood do you understand she isn't sick cause you cured her she doesn't have to be the only one. the only thing you have to do is come back and all of this will finally be over, please just come back to me” he looks at you and with tears in your eyes you nod “you need to go ” you tell him and he shakes his head ignoring it only wanting answers “why didn't you tell me?” He asks and you swallow the lump in your throat this was the exact reason you didn't tell him

“i couldn't, i didnt wanna say goodbye not to you”

“There's still time Minho is getting the serum” and you shake your head “That’s not the plan’ you tell him throwing it all out “Newt was supposed to make it and i was going to stay behind, going down saving you guys”. You tell him and he has tears in his eyes “You were just going get yourself killed? After everything we’ve been through”

“It’s better than letting this Stuppid Virus control me, i’m not becoming a Crank Thomas, i love you i do but i would much rather get shot out here than survive only to risk hurting the others or you” but he shakes his head not accepting it you betrayed his trust which made you no better than WICKED the only difference was that your intentions were truly only to save the people you loved “we’ll get the serum and everything Will be fine” he tells you but before you can say anything or protest a loud scream comes from behind you and you turn your head to see Newt showing getting up onto his feet, surprised he’s still there “Newt?” you both ask insinc and he slowly turns revealing him fully cranked out eyes gone black and he lashes out towards Thomas attacking him. Thomas steps aside letting Newt drop to his knees and he seems to have a second of his humanity coming through “Tommy! kill me!” he yells, turning to look at Thomas but your own mind keeps getting hazly wanting to shut down so you only see fragments of the fight in front of you. the minute you look backup holding onto your sanity you see Newt holding a knife close to thomas his chest and your own rage takes over pushing yourself onto your feet and pushing your brother off of your boyfriend and holding him down “Newt, this isn't you! Get a hold on your sanity” you try hoping he has any left but he doesn't do anything but trying to get you off and to your side you see a Gun and you use your left foot to kick against it and it slides towards Thomas and he looks between the weapon and you holding down Newt “shoot! the bullet will kill us both” you tell him in a clear moment and she shakes his head

“Thomas, it's your own life, or ours!” you yell at him but Newt gets the upper hand throwing you off him and going for the knife again heading back towards Thomas and you make a decision, with tears in your eyes and the last bit sanity you crawl towards the gun and clock it standing on your feet and aiming the gun towards your brother “Newt!” you yell and he turns his attention towards you and in that small moment you see his eyes the ones you grew up with and the ones of the big brother you love so much and he nods telling you it's okay and with that you pull the trigger the bullet going into his chest and his body dropping to the ground. you look over at thomas and he sits there next to Newts body tears covering his cheeks and your own rolling down your face knowing you just killed the one person that you promise yourself you would save “i'm sorry thomas'' you tell him lifting up the gun an you close your eyes placing your Finger on the trigger but before you can pull it Thomas slams it out of your hands “No! I’m not losing both of you” you look him in his eyes and he has a pleading look “Minho is on his way just hold on okay” he tells you through sobs and you shake your head “i'm not going to make it till then i’m tired of fighting Thomas, i just want it to stop, make it stop” you tell him trying to hold onto your sanity, you reach in your pocket and take out the small necklace and you hand it to him. “Newt’s not to only one that wrote you a letter” and he grabs it holding onto your hand “i love you” you tell him and he smiles a little through the tears “i love you too” with your own tears you take a step back and let go of his hand “if that's true and you really love me, then you'll let me do this then you let me go” he looks shocked and shakes his head protesting but you dont listen to his words “you’re going to be okay” he tries to tell you but you give him a hard enough push to make him trip and you grab the gun up from the ground and drop to your knees next to Newt his body “i’ll see you soon” you tell him before before turning to look at Thomas one last time as he gets back onto his feet but your already lifting up the gun to your head “i’ll say hi to chuck for you”

“don’t do it Please y/n!” he asks through sobs “till death do us apart”

“Wait!” Looking to the side Brenda runs forwards with the small blue file in her hand and she looks to Newt on the ground and to you holding the gun to your head but it all gave Thomas enough time to run towards you getting a Grip on the gun“Thomas! I’m gonna kill you!” You yell at him letting the last of your humanity slip away and fighting the one person you thought you never wanted to hurt “Brenda!” Thomas yells and before you know it everything in front of your eyes turns black

WICKED had taken everything from him, they made it to the safe haven but it didn't seem to matter to him. Vince's speech was what hurt most , it reminded everybody of what they lost but it also reminded them that the people they cared about sacrificed their own lives to save them. “We've come a long way together, so many have sacrificed to make this place possible. your friends, your family. so here's to the ones that couldn't be here, here's to the friends we've lost, this place is for you it's for all of us” he turns his body to point at one of the large rocks in the middle of the place “this, this is for them, so in your one time in your own way, come make your peace, and welcome to the safe haven”

The night was spent talking about memories of the lost once and the plans for the future, the plans of what was coming next and what to do with their lives Now That they were free to do what they wanted but Thomas kept away from it sitting to the side. Minho said down next to him giving him a small smile and looking over the place “this is going to be a good home for us, they would of loved it” he tells him while reaching in the pocket of his jacket and pulling out the two necklaces and hands them back to thomas “you had this one you when you passed out, figured i'd keep them safe for you” an Thomas takes Boh of he necklaces from the boy hesitantly “thanks minho'' padding his shoulder he smiles before walking away leaving Thomas alone to read the letter from Newt, followed by the one you gave him.

Dear Thomas

it’s been one hell of a ride, i know i always complained about being trapped by WICKED so this might be weird coming from me but i miss the glade, i miss waking up to frypans crappy breakfasts or watching the sunset right before the doors closed, it all seems like so long ago doesn't it we were so innocent back then. But now here we are, we lost a lot of Friends in the fight to get you all to the safe haven so you guys better make the most of it or I'm coming to haunt you all.

i want you to know that i never kept this all from you cause i didn't love you, god i loved you even more after i found out it wasn't going to last but i couldn't bring myself to tell you i know that it's probably selfish but i didn't want to spend our last few weeks maybe even days saying goodbye like everyone did with Newt, i wish i could be with you forever but i guess we weren't meant to be. Our time together was exactly like paradise but i wouldn't wanna change, i remember when you can up in that box back in the Glade everybody though you were one hell of a trouble maker and to be honest you really were, breaking the rules running into the maze but i loved every second of it, it didn't matter to me how many times you broke the rules or what stuppid or risky idea you had i would off followed it all, i did follow it i followed you, through the Maze, through the scorch and now through the last City saving Minho and getting Newt to safety. That was my plan and i know you’ll hate it but it was simple get you all save and leave myself behind to die out in the field so nobody has to know what was really happening to me it Will be easier that way. i’m not afraid of dying, i’m afraid of

Losing myself to this stuppid virus that turned me into a walking time bomb. I want you to know I don't want to let you all go but I have no other choice cause waiting for this serum isn't an option for me and even if we get there in time it would only push back the inevitable. I want you to be happy. I want you to live your life to the fullest and make me proud and take care of the other keep Minho out of trouble and make sure gally doesnt start a fight with some shank in the safe haven. i hope that in a few years from now you’ll smile and say that it was worth it cause it has been worth it to me. Now pick yourself up and finish what you started and lead the people that are there with you like I know you can. I know you’ll do what's right you always have. take care and remember that i’ll love you

thank you for being my best friend and my first love

goodbye tommy

y/n

Opening your eyes you sit straight up feeling a burning pain in your ankle and lifting the fabric you see the Veins disappeared and the bite mark was almost completely healed. Panic rushes through your body not knowing where you are and looking around you only see wooden furniture and bottles of medicine on a table to the side, throwing your feet over the edge you stand up finding your balance and walking past the curtain that closed of the little shed you were in and you look out over the ocean turning to the side you see an entire village that reminds you of the glade, making you think that heaven wasn't as bad as you though it was going to be walking forwards into the place you pass by field that are growing food, people building shelter with wood and right in front of you the dark haired Runner comes walking closer and you look over at him surprised “Minho?” You ask him hesitant and he smiles up you only to see Gally, Frypan and Brenda walking closer to you beside him “hey there Greenie, you look better” Gally tells you and you stand there shocked and there eyes go to something behind and turning around your faces with the brown haired boy you love and he looks a bit sad but there this little light of Hope in his eyes as he steps closer grabbing onto you an hugging you tight.

“I-i’m alive'' you ask hesitantly while you sit on the side with Thomas and he nods “how long have I been out?” You ask him “A week the serum took its time but you made it through” he tells you and guilt hits you immediately, your plan your brother was the one that should have been sitting there not you, your brother, you killed your brother you shot Newt,you almost shot yourself. Panic washes over you and Thomas seems to notice and he grabs your hand pulling you out of it “hey, you made it” he tells you again and tears roll down your cheeks “i wasn't supposed to”

“yeah, i know i read your letter” and you look up at him “Thomas”

“I did as you told me to, i picked myself up and i’m gonna keep going forwards, were gonna keep going forward together”

“After everything if done, you still want me?” And the boy nods lifting his hand an cupping your cheeks “i hate the plan you made to just go of and die on your own and i’m going to be angry about it for a while but right now your still alive and i’m not planning on letting you go anytime soon so you're stuck with me”

“Newt..” you say in a whisper “Newt would want you to live a happy live and not think about what happened because you can't change it” you know he’s right but it was going to take time to mourn the loss of your brother this wasn't the plan you made instead of silently slipping away after you saved your friends and your brother you are the one that got saved “you were infected you didn't think straight” he tells you

“I knew what was doing when i pulled the trigger, i knew in that moment i was shooting My own brother, the look in his eyes told me it was him in that last minute it told me it was okay” you tell him holding down the Tear's that threaten to slip again

Your name: submit What is this?

You didn’t know how you caught it. It had to be in the tunnel with your brother Newt, Thomas and Frypan, although you couldn’t remember coming in contact with any of the Cranks. Nonetheless, wondering about how you caught it wouldn’t change anything, it simply acted as a way to distract you from what you had been dreading to accept.

You were infected. You had the Flare.

It had started off small, a tiny scratch on your calf which you initially had no concern for. Slowly, you could feel yourself getting more fatigued, your personality changing in small ways. You started losing your temper more often, and each time you did, you felt less and less control over yourself. Slowly, the tiny scratch began to spread. It stained your blood, turning your blood blue and purple as it spread up your leg, a constant reminder that the virus was claiming you while you could do nothing but helplessly watch. A cobweb of sickness blooming underneath your skin. You’d be lying to yourself if you said you weren’t scared, terrified of what the virus was going to change you into. You had seen the Cranks firsthand, and you didn’t want to turn into that.

But you had no choice. You were infected, and there was no cure. You were merely denying the inevitable.

You hadn’t told anyone you were infected. What would it do aside from worry your friends, distracting from the task at hand? The priority was Minho, it always had been, and you were determined to get him back. If Thomas, Newt and the others found out you were infected, you knew that they’d stop you from trying to rescue Minho. But this was something you had to do. Minho was one of your closest friends, and you had to save him.

Keeping such a huge secret from Newt felt terrible, especially since he was your brother. The two of you had relied on each other for the longest time, always having each others backs, and having to keep something so detrimental from him felt like you were violating that. But he was so focused on bringing back Minho, you couldn’t bring yourself to distract him from that. You knew that if Newt found out you were infected, he would drop everything to try and help you, and it was useless to focus on saving you and trying to save Minho, especially when you were almost certain you couldn’t be saved.

“Hey.” Thomas suddenly grabbed your shoulder, and you flinched at his touch as you turned around to face him. He studied your face for a moment, his eyebrows furrowing as he could tell something was off, and he asked, “Everything alright?”

You waved your hand, brushing off the question. “Are we ready to go?”

“Yeah.” Thomas replied, his voice unsteady, the concern still evident in his face. “y/n, are you sure you’re-”

“I’m fine, Thomas.” you suddenly snapped, glaring at him, and Thomas jerked back slightly, surprised by your outburst. Taking a deep breath, you quickly composed yourself as you insisted, “Let’s just get Minho back.”

“Hey, everything alright here?” Newt approached, zipping up the stolen uniform he was disguised in. Thomas cast a look at you as you lowered your gaze, absentmindedly wiping off your gun as you sucked in a sharp breath.

“Yes.” you firmly replied. “Let’s go.”

—

Thomas didn’t know what was wrong. Or maybe he did, but he didn’t want to accept it. He watched you, observing how your face grew paler and paler by the minute. How your breaths seemed to become increasingly labored, how sometimes it felt like he’d say something to you and you couldn’t hear him, lost somewhere in your own head.

He momentarily forgot his worries about you as Minho stood in front of the three of you, after tackling down a guard who was about to shoot you. After running through the WCKD base, evading and shooting down guards, you, Thomas and Newt had finally found your friend, and the relief that all of you felt was exhilarating.

“Minho.” Thomas spoke first, before all of you crashed into each other, arms around one another in a giant hug. You laughed, squeezing Minho tight as Minho hugged all of you back.

“Is this real?” Minho whispered, his voice trembling slightly, and you grinned as you squeezed his shoulder. You nodded at him, and Minho’s smile grew.

The moment was quickly ruined as two guards rounded the corner, and Thomas was quick to sprint into action, yelling at everyone to follow him as you all ran down the corridor. The four of you ducked into an empty room after being cut off by Janson, and you helped Minho barricade the door.

You suddenly coughed, the action so violent you lurched onto the floor. Minho quickly crouched beside you as Thomas and Newt jumped back in alarm, before quickly regaining their senses and reaching out to you.

“y/n.” Newt grabbed your shoulders, forcing you upright despite your protests, and you could see Newt’s eyes widen. You weakly reached up, touching your lips, and as you pulled your hand away, you could see dark liquid staining your gloves. Shaking his head, Newt ripped off your jacket to look for where you were infected as he muttered, “No, no, no-”

“Newt.” you breathed out, grabbing your brother’s arm. Behind him, you could see something in Thomas’ face fall as his worst suspicions had been confirmed. Pressing your lips together, you slowly pulled up one of your pant legs, revealing the wound that had started it all. You could see Minho’s shoulders slump as Newt’s hand flew to his mouth, covering his shock. Tears welled in Thomas’ eyes as he forced himself to stare at your wound, which looked worse than before. The virus had crept up your leg and up your chest, and as Newt reached to pull the edge of your collar down, the boys could see it was starting to creep up your neck.

“How… how could you-” Newt choked out, momentarily forgetting the fact that you were all trapped, waiting for Janson to capture you. “How could you hide this from me?”

“We needed to focus on saving Minho.” you replied, your voice low, and Minho scoffed in disbelief and frustration at himself.

“Are you out of your bloody mind?” Newt exclaimed, and you screwed your eyes shut. “We-”

“It doesn’t matter now.” Thomas quickly interjected, crouching in front of you and grabbing your shoulders, giving you a firm shake. “We’re going to get out of here, and we’re going to save you, okay?”

“And how do you propose that?” Minho asked, and Thomas glanced over his shoulder at the window. Minho frowned, getting to his feet as he looked at the bottom of the building, where there was a fountain of some sorts below. Minho looked back at Thomas, who shrugged, and Minho grabbed a nearby cannister to break the window. “You sure about this?”

Newt and Thomas helped you to your feet, guiding you to the edge. Bluntly, Thomas replied, “Not really.”

You, Newt and Minho glared at Thomas as Minho quipped, “Nice pep talk.”

“Yeah,” Newt replied in disbelief. “We’re all bloody inspired.”

The door crashed open behind the four of you, and you all spun around as Janson forced himself inside. Grabbing your arm, Thomas began to sprint, pulling you with him, and before you could overthink it, you closed your eyes and leaped forward.

—

Each step became harder and harder for you. The virus had almost claimed you, pulling you down, but you refused to give up, refused to give in. Thomas had an arm around you as he helped move you forward every step of the way, but it was impossible to deny how your eyes had darkened, how more blood was spilling from your lips, your blood turning unnaturally dark. There were some points where you could barely stand, collapsing onto the floor and feeling as if you couldn’t get back up.

It was just you and Thomas now. Newt, Gally and Minho had all gone ahead to get a serum, a serum which would hopefully slow the virus down. Thomas had just heard Teresa in a broadcast, claiming Thomas’ blood could save you, could cure you. If the serum could slow down the virus long enough for Thomas to go back to Teresa and get the cure, they could save you.

Thomas had managed to pull you into a clearing, away from the riots and fighting. He turned around, ready to pick you up and help you get to the ship with the serum, but he paused when he noticed you had gotten up on your own. Slowly, Thomas called out, “y/n?”

You turned around, and something in Thomas’ stomach lurched. Maybe it was too late for all that. It looked like the virus had already claimed you, and you looked at Thomas with no recognition in your eyes. It felt like Thomas was staring at a stranger, a stranger he feared.

But Thomas wasn’t ready to give up on you.

You suddenly lunged at him, an inhuman groan escaping from your lips as Thomas quickly pushed you aside, onto the ground. Hands in front of him, Thomas tried to stop you as he insisted, “y/n, it’s me. It’s Thomas!”

You didn’t seem to hear him as you lunged at him again, with more force, tackling Thomas to the ground. The both of you rolled over, Thomas finally managing to push you off of him, and you scrambled upright. Your hands trembled slightly as for a moment, you were able to break through the virus’ hold on you, and you choked out, “Thomas, kill me before I kill you.”

“No.” Thomas replied firmly, stepping closer. “y/n, we’re going to cure-”

You tackled Thomas again before he could finish, forcing him to the ground as you pinned his arms down. You snapped your jaw at him, resembling a feral dog instead of the calm person you usually were, and Thomas pleaded, “Come back to me, y/n, please, I don’t want to- I can’t kill you-”

Thomas was finally able to wriggle out of your grasp, and you scrambled back from him as you momentarily became yourself again. You gasped for breath, keeping your distance from Thomas as you whispered, “Thomas, I can’t hold on anymore. Help me.”

“Do it for me, y/n.” Thomas reached out to you. “I promise, we can make it.”

A smile flickered onto your lips as you allowed yourself to indulge in the false sense of hope Thomas instilled in you. Your eyes darkened again, and Thomas lunged back as you charged towards him again, grabbing a knife from your belt. Thomas kicked your legs out from under you, trying to hold you down as he tried to wrestle the knife out of your hands. You overpowered him, your rage giving you an edge over him, as you plunged the knife towards his chest. Thomas tried to grab your arms, feeling the knife graze his shirt.

Thomas’ instinct for survival kicked in, and he kicked you with all his might. The knife clattered on the ground, and Thomas quickly kicked it farther out of your reach. Before he could stop you, you grabbed the gun from his belt.

“Thomas,” you choked out, pressing the gun to your temple. “I’m sorry.”

“y/n, no!” Thomas yelled. “Please, I love you!”

You didn’t hear his last words as Minho tackled you from behind before you could pull the trigger, injected the serum into your neck. Thomas watched as you and Minho fell to the ground, and you gasped for air, stunned as you stared up into the sky. Thomas ran beside you, grabbing your shoulders as he tried to study your face, hoping to see a glimpse of the boy he loved in your eyes instead of staring into the eyes of a Crank.

“Tommy?” you whispered, evidently still in pain as you fumbled for his hand. Thomas laughed in relief as Minho reached over to squeeze his arm.

“Dude, go to Teresa and get the cure. I’ll stay here with y/n and make sure he’s okay.” Minho instructed Thomas, and he quickly nodded as Thomas quickly got to his feet and headed for the WCKD building. He was about to break into a sprint before he stopped after hearing you call his name.

“Thomas!” you yelled out with all your strength, and he turned around. “Stay safe.”

“I will.” Thomas reassured you, tears in his eyes. He could still save you. There was still hope. “I will.”

“And…” you took a deep breath. “I love you, too.”