#razewhat

I'm in that mood where everything is so fucking annoying

man I feel like if I played any new video games or game consoles that have recently came out I wouldn't know how to play them. Or better yet I'd get mad bored or frustrated that I haven't beaten the game.

. I have depression and ptsd. Idk if people understand but i would never wanna hurt anyone intentionally. I know how it feels to have a knife repeatedly stabbed at you. Multiple times. Growing up fucking sucked. It was all in illusion of happiness and sunshine. All of it was real tho. I have a really really good memory and When people fuck with my memory it fucks with my mind. I have memories that I have to remember otherwise I'll be afraid I made it all up. But I know I didn't. It was all real. I also can't stand when people lie to me. Because that's all I've ever known, and I just ask for honesty and sincerity in my life. I have my real friends, my bros, my homies. When you become someone real close to me swear to god imma always have your back. My real friends were put into my life for a reason, and even if they walk out on me I'll always leave my door open. Cuz you brought a moment of genuine happiness into my life and I thank you all for it. And tbfh one of them hates me now and I can't do much about it cuz I can't force someone to change. Ofc I wish them the best and I hope they're happy. I really care for them but stuff happens. Stuff happens for a reason. Ultimately I'm hurt but time heals right?? Just know imma always have your back even when you hate me hector :,)

Today I realized that there have been people in my life that have always cared about me and have been there for me. And I've been wasting my time on those who don't. And I'm so over it and I'm glad. I'm done.

Idek what makes me happy anymore

I shouldn't even b texting anyone I am depressed