#ray ranting

turns out shes doing it in the worst way i think she could possibly do it, especially with the way i learn. the whole point is defeating homework (no im not counting just writing down video notes as homework those are NOTES n theyre different to me) but she still gives us half the page to do on our own.

and usually? she does the easier ones as an example, leaving me with NO clue on how to apply the techniques to the harder questions. it leaves me with so many what ifs that cant wait for tomorrow, because if i dont answer one problem? i dont get any points. and it sucks when i dont even know how to start a problem, and im staring at one problem for 30 minutes to an hour without a clue on how to defeat it.

also, i process videos very quickly, and im also in a house with a bunch of speedy talkers, me included. but she doesnt allow the video to be sped up at all. so despite the fact that the video is painfully slow to me, as well as her speaking pace, there is literally nothing i can do. it just frustrates me because its so slow to the point im not even able to process what shes saying. (ps you can slow it down but not speed it up)

also, she PILES on work while ur in class. her whole classroom protocol of work at school and notes at home is literally already breaking two weeks into school because i cant finish the amount of work in class most days. not to mention, after every question she's asked? out loud: "wonderful questions guys, let me know if you have any! wonderful questions, im here if you need me." over and over, and i am VERY easily distracted, especially with unmedicated audhd. so. yeah. not a good mix.

forsaken devs, specifically the owners, need to pick up their shit already. i remember when ownership first changed and people thought it was for the better. now its just going further and further to shit.

i understand it's their game, but at some point you have to take the community into consideration. i cant have x, mainly for my own mental health, because im damn sure that shit would put shedtwt on my feed and im not up for seeing that.

but i cant even access devs thru the fucking discord server, because its closed down. yes, they have the support server, which is great! but they dont allow feedback or even bug reports there, because they have to be in the main server, where you needed to be lvl 5+ in the server before it shut down to access the bug report section.

tldr! i cant fucking access the devs, and im sure there are MANY more people in my situation. and thats just one, selfish thing. yes, i admit its selfish. but it still pisses me off.

what mainly pisses me off is theres not any change happening. staff are stepping down, collabs are stopping, and creators are leaving due to the stupidity we've all witnessed. theres no give, but there needs to be. we need a fucking change here.

what do i think needs changed? well one thing should be fucking obvious.

they need to stop supporting soul. hes still getting a bunch of the revenue, one of the staff members was outed for still talking to him as a friend, and more. the fact they tried to defend that staff member talking to him too was fucking disgusting. that is a child predator youre talking to as if youre best buddies. theres even more souls done that i just havent had the energy to research, yet its like its all fine and dandy.

at this point? i dont know how forsaken would get better besides a change in ownership. but with that, im worried forsaken will get turned into a straight cashgrab with no life, and itll no longer be fun to even touch. so i dont even know how shit would change.

regardless, devs need to wake the fuck up. there have been many polls with an OVERWHELMING majority on one side, but theyll pick another option every single time. its like theyre trying to ragebait us and holy fucking hell its working.

im going around in circles and thats because i dont even know how to fucking explain how pissed i am at how the game is being run. so heres just one message to the forsaken devs and especially the owners. its one i know theyll probably never see, but its going to be said anyways:

please for the love of all things holy, LISTEN TO YOUR COMMUNITY. again, staff are stepping down, collabs are withdrawing, and countless creators are leaving because theres nobody listening. just a little bit. one chance to breathe would be amazing. the community isnt even the worst part anymore and thats saying a whole fucking lot.

im begging you to just listen. for once. people arent happy, and it needs to change.

precalc teacher said no on allowing speedup within the video notes. so now i have to take this to my counselor and then if that doesnt work i have to go to my therapist to make this work.

the amount of work i have to put in for this mini accessibility thing for me is insane. she said it "wasnt available", and i think she heard me ask how i speed up the video?? because, yes, it is available. she is using the same program for her video notes that my boyfriends ccp precalc teacher is using, and he has the ability to speed them up.

there were no questions as to why, no reasons, just "thats not available". it is a single thing. and even if she uses it as an excuse of "kids will just use it to skip through the video faster"? heres my thing: those kids will find themselves in a sticky situation a bit down the line.

it hurts my head and sometimes causes me meltdowns whenever i have to sit down and watch her videos, because i just cant handle how slow she speaks. the kids who dont want to put in the work and just wanna get through it quicker will just do that anyways. im suffering through this because she just doesnt seem to care.

if i went through this whole crashout and she ends up enabling it later im gonna hate my life bro IM GNA BE SO EMBARRASSED

so y'know how the whole part of a flipped classroom is kind of to reduce if not eliminate homework at home, where you can't get help? and how in my last post about her, i talked about how she kinda. Doesn't. do that?

yeah she's already making it Worse. so because she gives us half the page to do on our own anyways, she literally spends half or more the class to go over all the questions she assigned us. today, she went over the work until there were only EIGHT MINUTES LEFT OF CLASS.

so yeah safe to say, not only could i not focus because she wouldn't shush and it made me physically unable to focus, BUT i had basically no time to work :/