Okay. Tomorrow I'll be back to work after a week off. This is the first time in five years that I didn't go anywhere for my annual leave. Tbh I find it complicated to travel these days because of the ever changing protocols of each local government unit. It's different from town to town and for every resort/hotel/tourist destination. So really I didn't bother to make plans at all. Everybody kept on asking me where I'll be and they didn't believe me when I said I'll just be home; and that is where I was. I cleaned and did loads of laundry and watched tv and slept and ate a lot like the good old days. I'm not even guilty. Did I wish I was somewhere? Not really. The idea really did not interest me much because travel is such a hassle these days anyway and I just didn't have that desire in me. Maybe next year.
These days off got me thinking too. The idea of resigning has been on my mind for quite some time now. Lately work has been...how do I put it... "suffocating" and "dull"? Due to some units' errors and of course the pandemic, we underwent ~dramatic~ changes this year. It feels like being scrutinized for every thing that we are doing. Like they are accusing us of doing something the other units did. Now every move should be checked up to the tiniest of detail and I really really do not like feeling like this. For years I have been 'freely' doing my job but now there are a lot of rules and 'checkpoints' and it has stressed me/us out (still does!). Fyi, we haven't failed an audit under my work. Sometimes it's a bit too much but can't complain because it's 'management rule'. I do understand where they are coming from but some rules just doesn't make sense and it is delaying the process we are used to. Anyway, just needed to vent it out so tomorrow I can breathe a little.
I still haven't decided if I will pursue this because finding another job today will be a challenge and I'm not sure I'm up for a series of interviews and exams and adjusting to another environment again. If anything, my colleagues are the ones holding me back. It's gonna be so hard to leave them. It's just a thought that keeps on popping out once in awhile--- which I had time to think about this past few days.
I hope you are not in a chaotic situation as I am. Have a good week ahead!
