#rantingaboutlife

I just want an apartment in the city with my favourite person in life and I just wanna study and work and be able to do my own thing without any restrictions and curfews and constant overbearing authority figure telling me what to do. And I just wanna live my own life and figure myself out with the independence to do so. I may make mistakes and stumble and fall in this awkward transition into adulthood but that's okay. I just wish I could get my own space and peace of mind.

My school is so stupid. We get a reading break but it's only TWO days. Like seriously, every other school gets a week long break and we get a two day break. And the funny thing is that I don't even have classes on those two days during a normal week so it's going to be like a normal weekend for me. School and work and everything in between has been just crazy lately and those two days are not enough for me to get back on track. Also there have been like a whole bunch of robberies in my area and that has been stressing me out even more. I don't get why people have the need to break into other peoples houses and steal there things. Like seriously go find a job and make your own money. We know whose doing all this but when we see them and call the police they don't do anything about it. Just the thought about people taking other peoples stuff gets me angry. These people need to gtfo. And my Dad has been bugging me about not spending enough time with my grandma. I honestly want to but I just don't have time. I go once a week now but I wish I could go more often but everything is so crazy right now. If I could I would go and spend 5 hours just sitting there with her. Sometimes I can sit with her for hours and not talk about anything but just being in her presence makes me happy. I need to start making a schedule and use my time wisely. Everything has just been crazy and I just need to get myself back on track with things. I'm so overwhelmed with everything that is happening right now. Hopefully I can figure things out and can stop stressing myself out. AND I totally forgot about how I'm breaking out SOOOO much and my face looks super gross. And I can feel myself losing hair because of the stress. And I've been gaining so much weight because I eat when I'm stressed out. I stress myself out over the littlest things and I need to stop doing that. The only way I am going to get through this crazy/stress/freaking out phase is by making it happen. I can do it! But where to start? Maybe by making a schedule hmmm. I'm talking to myself now. LOL. Okay I'm done.