okay so I’m kind of looking for advice and kinda venting, if you’ve got advice I welcome it, if you just wanna look at this then keep scrolling then thats also valid.
So, this week sucked pretty seriously, my brother found out where one of his teachers lives and left him cookies on his car which I think is the craziest, “its expected that you don’t leave cookies on the car of a dude you just met just because you saw where they live” but everyone thinks im overreacting and its making me feel like im crazy, and its like week 9 of school and I’m super tired and exhausted (I’m trying to keep up my 90′s grades in college classes and it’s harder than I thought it would be), and like just existing has been giving me migraines the last few days and my fam is like overall a nightmare, so the house is suffocating and I really just need to get out of the house before i have a breakdown, but as we’ve established I live in the middle of nowhere so if I wanna spend the day out of the house I gotta go somewhere, I had planned on going to burlington, spending a few hours in barnes and noble, getting like four boba and sticking them in the fridge at home to drink over the next couple of days, picking up a tsumtsum mystery pack because they’re always fun and I like collecting them, like overall just kinda vibing not at home. And I told my mom I needed to get out of the house and she was like “you’re almost 18, thats okay” and I was like “yuusss” until she said “except you can’t go to burlington” because shes worried about covid cases, so I thought montpillier but they have none of the things I was planning on doing to destress and so part of me is like “just go to burlington and say you went to montpillier” or “say you spent the day with your best friend and sneak all your shit into the house without telling her where you went” or “go to montpillier, and then go to burlington so at least you won’t be lying when you say you went to montpillier and its a biggish city so you could probably explain how you got all the stuff, provided she doesn’t google and learn there is no barnes and noble in montpillier” but like lying makes me feel bad, however staying in this house feels like I can’t breath and I’m on the verge of tears half the day so its like...I don’t know what to do, I had it all planned out and it was gonna be great but now im stressed again and I’m just so tired. If you have advice I appreciate it, but also just typing that out made me feel a little better, didn’t solve any problems but it let me process a lil so idk
