8 miles and counting. That's how far I walked today, and somehow I feel something is still missing. Is it the lack of sightseeing? After all, it being a Saturday, I avoided all the touristy spots as much as I could. Or maybe it was the lack of energy. I spent most of the morning dragging my luggage up and down subway station after station, so my arms, back, and legs grew sorer and sorer as the day went on. Or perhaps it was the lack of company. As I watched couples holding hands or throngs of students laughing together, I couldn't help but feel a sense of emptiness. Traveling solo is freeing, no doubt, but being somewhat extroverted I couldn't help but wish I had a close friend or even a stranger engage in conversation, even for just an hour or two. . . I read this in my devotionals today: "If you have accepted Christ in your life, you are never alone. Single, maybe. Lonely, sometimes. Alone, never! God is always with us." But despite His promise to never leave us, sometimes I definitely fail to feel His Presence. And in those times, I wonder if I actually know what it means to love Christ at all. In the Book of Philippians, the author writes, "What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things." Do I really treasure Christ to this extent, where despite feelings of loneliness or discontent, I believe He is worth it all, that He is enough? Do I really hunger and thirst for the One and only One who can actually satisfy what I'm looking for? . . Haha that escalated really quickly. You probably think I need a chill pill... I tend to overthink things a bit :) But in thinking about all of these things...I figure maybe what I'm "still missing" is a heart and a mind that is open and eager to see what GOD is doing around me. Maybe I feel empty because I'm missing the point: God didn't send me here just to have fun and enjoy the ride, but to participate in the work He is doing in parts of the world I've never seen before. . 8 miles and counting...but it seems like I still have a long way to go. You coming? #week2 #day12 #randomreflections #inpursuit #inlove #longingformore (at Tokyo shinjuku)