#jpa

I need some James comfort 🥺

best friend james has my whole heart

cw - toxic relationship, cheating

This posted before I uploaded and idk wtf happened but i am crying and i now kinda rushed the ending because i didn't want anyone to see my stupid half written post 😭

So you're in this toxic relationship and James has definitely said something in the past

And he wasn't stupid about, he made sure you were alone, he didn't just blurt it out, he tried to make you connect the dots

But it didn't work

You furrowed your eyebrows at him, "what are you trying to say?"

And James knew what he was saying. You should break up with them. But he wasn't going to tell you that when he now knew, that you were not going to react well

So he kinda leaves it because you don't want to hear what he has to say, but he is always making sure that you know you have him, that you can stay at his place anytime and if you ever need anyone to vent to, he is always there, or even if you need to call someone in the middle of the night, he has his phone on his bedside table

And as your relationship continues he can just see it taking it's toll on you

You're always spaced out and you're not hanging out with him and your friends as much and when you do, you're not really there

And then there's a knocking on James' door

It's very early in the morning and it's dark outside and he would be lying if he said he wasn't scared

And he has his wand tight in his hand, but then he opens the door, and there you are

Tears streaming down your face, your arms wrapped around you to find some warmth in the cool air that you can't seem to find in your thin pyjamas and a small bag on your shoulder

"i'm sorry, i didn't know where else to go"

But James is already making you come in and he is getting his fluffiest blanket for you and asking if you want tea or a hot drink

And once you're settled and comfortable and he is sitting next to you he asks, "what happened?"

Maybe he should have asked if you wanted to talk about it instead, but, you looked horrible and he needed to know

"We broke up."

And James would be lying if he said his heart didn't skip a beat

So you explain to him how you saw him out with another person when he said he was at work and they were just a little bit too close for your liking

And then when you had brought it up he got defensive and kept trying to convince you that nothing was happening, even if it looked like it did, and he kept screaming at you that this wasn't going to work if you didn't trust him

And you were both yelling and screaming, and now you're here

"Is it over?" He asked.

"I think so."

And there's nothing really more for you to say. There's probably more you want to say, but you're exhausted mentally, physically, emotionally, and all the rest of it and James can tell that you're tired so he gets the spare bed ready for you and tells you to sleep

And when you admit that you haven't had a good night's sleep in months, his heart cracks

But anyways, James goes to bed also feeling good because you're finally going to be out of that stupid relationship

Until the next day, you both stay in bed after the disrupted night and James thins you're still sleeping

But then when he finally gets out of bed, you're up and dressed and smiling

And he is like 'did you sleep good?"

And you nod, but he can tell there's something you're not telling him

And you're so excited that you can't hold it in much longer

Of course, your toxic boyfriend had rang you this morning to say that he really regretted it and he would be more honest with you and would never see that person again

"Relationships only work if you're willing to stay through the hard times, you know?"

James didn't know, because what you were going through was something more than 'hard times'

"But how do you know he won't do it again?"

And there it was

Your face fell, your lip trembled and James felt like a dick

"Thank you, James, for looking after me, but I think I need to go now.'

And James had somehow managed to fuck it up again

Andam os humanos pela Terra como detentores da verdade, cada qual com a sua. Veem-se eles vendados pelo Incerto, mas não percebem sua cegueira. Adivinham o porvir e andam sem freio, a passos largos, deixando para trás apenas o rastro de destruição de suas ações desmedidas. São tantos os destroços!

Andam os humanos a sorrir, a falar, a dançar, a trabalhar, a viver. Não percebem que quem ao seu lado vive hoje, amanhã não mais respira. Não sabem quando o fio da vida será cortado. Fazem planos, juntam dinheiro, não percebem até onde vai o fim de seu caminho. Andam, assim, confiantes, apesar de vendados, em direção ao abismo.