#random shoots

But it’s not that I find my work ugly, in fact, I’m still hella proud of them. It’s just that, to my eyes, they’re not the bit satisfactory. And seeing everyone else’s work around me makes me realize how behind my art is. It’s like they always lack something and that frustrates me to no end. 

And nowadays, I find myself seeing people's work online and making it a basis as how I want my art to look like. And I find myself losing touch of how I actually want my art to look like. I'm so caught up with how much praise I get, which we all can't deny- plays a very big part in the creative industry. Appeal to audience affect your work as much as you don't want it to, especially if you're trying to make art as a living.

But here's to hoping that I always get out of that ditch. Here's to never quitting even though I don't get adequate results. Here's to never giving up and strive to get better piece after piece. Because I know, for sure, that one day I will be somewhere up there. I will be enough to show the world that I can, and I will. 

Here’s to all those endless nights that I will have in order to meet deadlines. Here’s to all the days wherein I would feel brain-dead. To all the times where my blood will turn to caffeine. I am ready for you, albeit being a bit scared.

Here's to what only my eyes can see.

Hair & Makeup: Alexa Avila | Photos and Direction: Marielle Eugneio