This is just me murbling and burbling on my page to try and keep myself upright. I've got seven more hours in my shift, and unholy hamburger helper, but I'm enduring an arthritis flare that has me contemplating day drinking as an Olympic sport, or seeing if one of the veterinarians on site would be willing to spot me some drugs. I don't care what kind, just as long as the hurting. fucking. stops.
Basically, everything from the hips on down is radiating like angry sand, hot and grating and miserable, and walking is a fucking chore, damn. Which is extra suck, because I get to do foot patrol, so in addition to the weather being hot and sticky it's also filled with pain and irritation. To be fair, my rheumatologist encourages me to exercise through my flares, so yay. Let's hear it for daily work being therapeutic, right?
Now all I have to do is remember to fucking breathe, because when I'm really hurting I hold my breath - I blame my childhood abuse for that. If I wasn't making noise, eventually they'd stop hitting me/looking for me, so being dead still and quiet was the way to keep myself safe.
I'll be all right, eventually. This is temporary.