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You guys ever have that friend that you love dearly and would never want to hurt ever, but you can tell they're drifting away from you? Like, every time you talk to them, you can tell they aren't into it. And then they get another friend group. And you're happy, they need to socialize more and stuff. But, they don't act with them like they act with you. They act friendlier with them than they with you; they're more open, more active in the conversation. And you see them be like this and you think to yourself "they used to do that with me. They used to joke around like that with me. They used to laugh about that with me. They used to go feral about that with me."

And you know they're slipping away, and you're losing another friend who you love dearly, another person trust with everything, is now not your friend. It ends like the others did. You've been through so much together—did they finally get tired of you?

Why did you expect anything different this time? Why did you get that attached to them, knowing there was a chance they'd leave and leave you broken? Why did you think it would end differently?

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You guys ever get into another relationship (platonic or romantic) and you're scared it will end up like the others? You've been hurt and wronged so many times before, and you're scared you'll be hurt in the same way.

But this person is the direct opposite of your past relationships. They're amazing and so nice and sweet to you, way nicer and sweeter than others in your life. And they trust you with a lot of things too—things you would keep close to your chest 'til your death. So, in turn, you trust them too. And you get close, and it's unlike anything previous, you're happy and they're happy.

But a little voice in the back of your head whispers: "It won't be different. It will end the same. You will be hurt again, and it will be like the other times. You've told them things they can and will use to hurt you. You've done the same things that got you hurt last time. Why do you trust them so?"

But they shatter those thoughts and they prove they you can trust them.

But that voice still nags at you, never fully goes away.

So you lie awake at night wondering if it will end any differently.