#rambingthoughts

I have really, really vivid dreams. Colors, sounds, sensations, everything. I have had these since I was a teenager. Prior to that I would have the same kind of dreams but seeing everything with my eyes partially open. I always felt I was half asleep in my dreams and could quite hear what was going on.

When that changed, dreams become whole novels and stories. I have great abilities, weird situations occur, and my relations with people are slightly exaggerated. There would be fights, sometimes lots of sex, and even some dark things would happen. These dreams would feel like they would cover multiple days and sometimes multiple world locations.

Sometimes I have problems waking up from my dreams. I will wake up for some reason and then lay back down. When I do, I am immediately shoved back into the dream. The dreams gets stuck in a loop though and I am repeating what had happened earlier. I can now manipulate the dream to try to correct the action, or in some cases, prolong some actions. This of course never works and just messes everything up and the dream begins to fall apart. Eventually my brain decides it is done and I should just wake up.

Other times when I wake up, I am unable to fully become awake. My head is in a fog and I sometimes see and/or hear things from with in the dream. These times cause my head to become very painful and cause normal functions to not function normally. However deep of a dream I was in determines how long and what I have to do to become a fully functioning awake person.

My dreams as of late are becoming even more vivid and more realistic. No longer incorporating extraordinary powers, just putting me in different, and sometimes interesting, situations, with people I have known for a good amount of time. They are becoming a bit more disturbing due to the people and the conversations that are occurring. There have been times I have woken up with tears in my eyes or even full body sobbing.