#raisedbyborderlines

If you’re wondering whether my sister just called me and then put my mom on the phone, why yes, yes she did. She did do that to me. Wow. My mom babbled for a few minutes and I responded in 1 word answers. Then she asked if we could talk again sometime and I said no. I have her number blocked for a reason.

I’m honestly relieved that Easter is basically cancelled. Due to my mom’s behavior at holidays, I really dislike all holidays—especially Easter. I have no fond memories, just yelling, fighting, my mom being mad. And this didn’t improve as I became an adult, either. Last year on Easter, my mom was mad and yelled. And that’s every holiday. So frankly I’m just glad I don’t have to see her, I don’t have to experienced the forced joy of Easter, and I don’t have to cower when something goes not perfectly to plan.

I’m about one argument away from uninviting my mom to the wedding. She was so shitty last night and has just been one big ball of whining negativity since I got engaged. I don’t want her there while we are setting up. I don’t want her involved in the decorating, because everything will be wrong according to her, and she is angry and jealous that I'm making my own decisions about things instead of just letting her plan it. She is such a horrible unhappy person and honestly, from the bottom of my heart, I hate her. I really do. And the more awful she is to me, the more I realize that she has no power over me. I don’t depend on her financially. I care less and less about her feelings every day. Her guilt trips don’t work anymore because I just don’t care what happens to her. I just need her to start one more argument and then that’s going to be it. She’s always been miserable and she’s always going to be miserable and I'm just over it. I’m getting MARRIED and she can’t be happy for me because she isn’t the center of attention in this situation. 

Oh my godddd I hate my mom...die already, am I right?