At the Edge (Ragitha x reader)
Breath in, breath out. That's what you repeated in your mind over and over again as you tried to calm yourself down. In, then out, you repeated it several times, hoping you would feel at least a little calmer. But, nothing happened, you couldn't calm your breathing, and the panic in your chest refused to settle. Was this it for you? Were you going to abstract like the others? You had tried so hard to keep your cool, but you weren't sure how much longer your sanity would last.
"(Y/N), are you ok?" Ragitha'a voice called out from the other side of the door, accompanied by her knocking gently. The sound snapped you out of your thoughts. You looked toward the door, taking a deep breath as you spoke.
"I'm fine" you spoke, trying to keep your voice steady. Though you could tell that there was a tremble in your voice. You were hoping Ragitha wouldn't notice, but you knew all to well that she was more perceptive than that. She didn't respond, all that you were greeted with was silence. For a moment, you thought she had walked away, but you were proven wrong when your door slowly creaked open. The light from the halways poured into the dimly lit room, making you wince as your eyes adjusted. Ragitha stood in the doorway, her shadow blocking some of the light as she slowly stepped inside. It was hard to tell at first, but once you got a good look at her, you could see that there was a frown on your face. She still didn't say anything, she simply sat down beside you. You could feel her eyes on you, and as your eyes darted to where she was, you could tell she was worried about you.
Ragitha gently placed a hand on your shoulder, a gentle smile forming on her face. Seeing it made you feel just a bit better.
"Look" she started to say, her words a bit awkward at first. She took a deep breath in, as if trying to find the words.
"I know you're going through a lot. And you don't have to talk about it, but i'm here for you. You don't have to go through it alone" she spoke in a reassuring voice. You looked at her properly this time, feeling relieved to have someone there with you. What she said made you feel like just a bit of the weight you had been carrying was being taken from you. Things in the circus were never easy, but Ragitha had always been there for you, and you appreciated it.
"Thanks" was all you said in response. And though it wasn't much, Ragitha knew that you were grateful. She paused for a moment before wrapping her arms around you in a hug. And after a moment, you wrapped your arms around hers in response. You rested your head on her shoulder, taking comfort in her presence, perhaps things weren't that bad after all?
