#ragghhhhhhh

Exhibit A: Helena Eagan

I will say I started out and remained a hater for a while, but at some point I became fixated. Like. I can’t even get into the depths of the insanity about her without seriously embarrassing myself and not even in a pervert way. I wish it was in a pervert way! But like whilst being the character I rooted against the most I also could not stop thinking about her day and fucking night. Atp I like her and think she’s probably in the most interesting, unique position of any of the characters and Ive always been really enthusiastic about her presence in the show, villainous, anti-heroic, or otherwise. But like. Woof that was a journey for me I did not truly “get it” until the finale, and she was already on the upswing, but that is when it clicked. But honestly I still find her hard to watch because ummm personal baggage with people like that which is not a textual argument but it is true for me. Ah well.

Exhibit B: Markgemma

I claim to not care about this ship really, like as a dynamic I don’t find it particularly interesting especially lined up next to its competition (if we’re calling it that) and I do think it being “endgame” whatever that means, would be boring. But. When I actually think about Scoutie and Gemma being doomed lovers and never being able to truly reunite while both are technically alive and in the same realm…… like no. No other couple ever is doing true Greek classical fucking tragedy like them. Greek tragedies aren’t doing greek tragedy like them. They’re going to rip my heart out and I know it and even if I think I don’t care about them, I do. It’s not up to me!!!!

Exhibit C: Gemma Scout/Ms Casey

When I first saw chikhai bardo I was like damn good ep! Every day since that I have found a new and exciting way I relate to Gemma Scout/Ms Casey that devastates me to my core. I feel like I see a lot of people rooting for Gemma or feeling bad for her, I don’t see a lot of Gemma kinnies. It’s not fun out here. Like, some things Mauer said to her could be literal quotes from my actual life. Not fun! But it gets worse every day. I feel like I understand what normal white queers saw in like, idk spn or Sherlock like I understand kinning now. I’m doing it. It turns out I never related to a character before now, every other instance was just a passing resemblance. wtf. I’m so fucked.

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