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Its 3:13 am, tomorrow i am hoping will be a good day. I will be staying 2 days and a night with him.. hopefully without interruptions. But who knows. I soo want to bring up specific subjects but am so terrified of the possible negative effects they will have on where he and i stand. Should i just let it all go and not say a thing and let it all just blow over? Should i ask him what he thinks? -sigh- you know if i knew life would be this difficult I wouldn't have swam so damn fast for the egg....... lol. I have come to a realization however, that i can accept the fact that I can't have him. in life there will be things and people you want but shant ever have. I still will never trust a hope nor will i let one grow. Those are still too dangerous. No, i shall just go on. The sun shall continue rising and setting, as the boisterous Rachel Lynd once said ( Anne of Green Gables reference ) well then tata dears. Pleasant dreams. :-)