#quitingjob

Tegnapelőtt felmondtam azon a munkahelyemen, ami elég jelentősen közrejátszott abban, hogy immár több mint két éve eltűntem a tumbliról.

Nehéz szülés volt, hónapokig érleltem magamban, de mikor végre meghoztam a döntést (bár remegő kézzel, és hevesen verő szívvel vittem be a felmondólevelet az oroszlán barlangjába), hatalmas felszabadulás és boldogság szállt meg. Aztán két órával később jött is az e-mail Prágából egy állásajánlat miatt. :) Ma telefonos interjú, de ez persze még nem jelent semmit.

Szóval ez most egy fajta visszatérési kísérlet. Bocsánat, hogy eltűntem - ezt főleg magamnak mondom, mert így visszatekintve eléggé szerettem itt shitpostolni Nektek a nagy világba. :D

Azóta amúgy elég sok minden történt: 2 évvel öregebb lettem, férjhez mentem, lakást vettünk, átestem egy szívműtéten, két foghúzáson, vörös lett a hajam... Folytassam?... Ehhh... Majd inkább apránként. 

You always here about it...“I quit my job”.

I’ve always heard about other doing it; Quiting their job. Yesterday, I experienced it for myself. And fuck it was bone chilling scary.

And no, I don’t have anything lined up.

I’ve worked in the same organization for approximately eight years. These eight years have been everything you could have asked for from a job. The ups and downs have existed, like anything in life, but the ups have far exceeded the downs. This organization provided me with great pay, flexible hours, amazing bosses, professional development opportunities and colleagues to die for -literally everything.

But there’s a lot of the world to see and I don’t want to stay with the same organization forever.

When you’ve been at the same place forever, it becomes a habit (a habit means very hard to break - especially with no rationally better prospects ). It was so mentally tough to write my resignation letter. I had talked about for months with no action - As many people. But it’s time.

Soon after I hit the submit button on my email. The anxiety set in... Like really bad - I don’t like anxiety nor do I know many people that do. But I didn’t try to run from it. I let it sink in. I embraced that moment of my life. 

I don’t really know what the outlook of the future holds for me but I know that if I held on to that job, I would stay in safe zone which I could no longer endure. 

This piece is not really to convince you quit your job too. I don’t think anyone can provide you with advice. This post is more so to describe what I have felt.

Spend time with friends after making big decisions. It helps to prevent you from spending an extended amount of time in your own brain. 

The anxiety doesn’t last. 24 hrs displaced from the decision I feel ok. I normalized out and I am refocused with the idea of how I can best contribute to our world.

Even though it’s been done a million times by a million people, that doesn’t help to minimize the sentiment.