#quiting

I started posting on this blog 2 years, 4 months, and 21 days ago. I'm writing this. I started this blog when I was fourteen in middle school. As of right now, I'm fifteen going on sixteen and will be in my sophomore year the following month. In just two years I changed a lot.

I got diagnosed with ADHD, which, to be honest, was a long time coming. I went through many depressive episodes, but through some therapy and coping mechanisms, I'm still here!

I’ve grown into myself a lot more creatively, emotionally, and even socially (which is wild to think about).

This blog was with me at my lowest and also at my most inspired. There were days I posted just to let something out, and others where I was bursting with new ideas, OCs, headcanons, fanfics, or just silly little rambles.

However, there was always shame with having this blog, considering that I mostly only posted gacha, and I felt like I couldn't fully express myself with this blog, as this is separate from my personal Tumblr account where I like and reblog all types of content from fanfics to art and stuff, but for some reason I couldn't bring myself to add gacha among those things.

Maybe it had to do with the stigma around Gacha Life/Gacha Club/GL2. Maybe it was the fact I was being bullied and felt alienated when I was outed as queer. No matter what, I always felt different than most people and that people wouldn't like me because of that. It's why I was very hesitant to reveal my interests and hobbies to new people in fear of being rejected.

So I took some time away from this blog and the Internet in general.

I won't bother you too much with what I did offline, but it turns out humans really DO need connections, and I am so grateful to everyone I met or reconnected with.

After a lot of self-reflection, I come to the conclusion that I don't like gacha anymore, at least not making it. Frankly, I was always happy to just watch others and see what they created with it (and I still am!). But there was a selfish part of me that craved attention, so I gave it a shot anyhow.

Truthfully I don't know whether I'll continue posting on this blog and rebrand or if I'll just start a new blog altogether, but I can't stress this enough.

Thank each and every one of you. For all the likes, the comments, the reblogs, And ESPECIALLY my mutuals.

You all mean so much to me, and you helped a very insecure girl find herself; for that, this blog will mean the world to me.

Until next time (if there is one),

Dory out!

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@lonely-abstraction

@idonotknow1000

If you are reading this, and you might have been or still are a fan of my art then I’m sorry but I have decided to go silent, radio silent.

Why? Because I’m tired, I’ve tried on and on again, I reach 900 followers on TikTok but lost them before I could get 1000. And even when I post on tumblr it feels like I’m being pushed to the side.

I’ve done the same to my TikTok account, changed my pfp and stopped posting. My pat will still be up, both on TikTok and on here but I will post no more.

But who knows? Maybe I will come back and start posting again. But that’s an answer for future Auxillium.

So I guess this means @twitter might go out with a whimper. Thanks @elonmusk for slowly killing off my favorite social network! 😡😡😡

Twitter had roughly 2,900 remaining employees before the deadline Thursday, thanks to Musk unceremoniously laying off about half of the 7,500-person workforce when he took over and the resignations that followed. Remaining and departing Twitter employees told The Verge that, given the scale of the resignations this week, they expect the platform to start breaking soon. One said that they’ve watched “legendary engineers” and others they look up to leave one by one.

“It feels like all the people who made this place incredible are leaving,” the Twitter staffer said. “It will be extremely hard for Twitter to recover from here, no matter how hardcore the people who remain try to be.”

Multiple “critical” engineering teams inside Twitter have now either completely or near-completely resigned, said another employee who requested anonymity to speak without Musk’s permission. For example, the team that maintains Twitter’s core system libraries that every engineer at the company uses is gone after Thursday. “You cannot run Twitter without this team,” the employee said.