Thought Iâd do a list of headcanons for my Ryder: list from Ryder appreciation week (late) - and this got surprisingly long!Â
Scott never had a good relationship with Alec. His father was always distant and absent from his life. He knew that Alec wasnât a bad person, just that he was always too occupied with something or someone else. He yearns for Alecâs approval, and never really got one until the end.Â
Scott loves Sara - and Sara loves Scott. Theyâre very close with each other, but not the kind that keeps the communications up. For months or years they might go on without seeing one another & wonât even send a single message, but when they meet up itâs like theyâve seen each other just yesterday.Â
Sara is always the better girl, and Scott is the one whoâs always looking for trouble. He simply thinks that thereâs no need for both of them to be so perfect - Saraâs got that covered. He just wants to have some fun, skip some classes, dive into the Presidium pools.
Scott never had many human friends while growing up. He was taught by Asaris to hone his biotic skills, and his best friends at the Citadel used to be a Krogan & Turian pair. With others he never had to hide his powers or be ashamed of them - but often around his own kind he felt ostracised.Â
Scott loves Earth. Itâs good to be in a place where everything is just right for humans to thrive and exist - until a girl cries when she sees Scott moving some heavy books in the library with his biotics.Â
Scott absolutely hates to fight.Â
He learns that in order for him to protect the people (or the things) that he loves, he needs to fight. He learns to be a soldier.Â
Scott is terrible at driving the Nomad. Which is unfortunate, because he is also the one that gets motion sickness easiest. Cora and Vetra tried to volunteer to drive the Nomad instead to see if it got any better - Scott stopped the car and threw up in 10 minutes flat. Despite his mad driving skills, apparently it helps when he knows he has control with all the bumpiness. The crew suffers.Â
Scott considers SAM like a younger brother, with some jealousy. He teases SAM saying that both Sara and himself came from Ellen, but SAM is the only one that was born from Alec. And that makes Alec SAMâs mother. SAM gives a 8 minute lecture about how that conjecture is illogical. Scott falls asleep next to his pyjak.
When Scott was young, Ellen made him a small hanar plush. He took the hanar everywhere - until the toy lost all its tentacles. He still carries the cushion-like plush (his original name was jelly, but later he re-named it blasto) everywhere. Sara has a elcor plush that Scott made for her, named Bubin.Â
Scott manages to get Saraâs personal items out, and keeps it in the Pathfinderâs quarters. He visits Sara more than often, and gives Bubin to her on one of those trips. Itâs been with her ever since.Â
Scott also manages to move dadâs good luck rock into the Tempest, and keeps it with the helmet.Â
Scott is a huge fan of Shepard.Â
Scott is a huge fan of Shepard. Itâs so important, it had to be written twice. He used to keep all the news clips about her, would read up about her past (how she started as an orphan from Earth - wow.) and drool over the Normandyâs models.Â
When he became pathfinder, he secretly thought of hacking SAM into calling him âCommander Ryderâ instead of âPathfinder Ryderâ.Â
Of course, you canât really âsecretly thinkâ without SAM knowing (SAM says: your ideas were just too loud.) and SAM calls Scott âCommander Ryderâ in front of the whole crew for a day. Scottâs avoids everyone for the next three days.Â
Scottâs favourite place in Andromeda is Voeld. After heâs scrubbed the atmosphere through a gruelling four-month worth of hard work, he comes out from the Vault to see the beautiful northern lights dancing in the sky. He cries when he sees it, and the other crew pretend that they didnât hear his muffled voice as he heads to the potential outpost site. He doesnât come back often, but when he does - he simply takes a seat at one of the observatory windows, hugs his blasto plush, and stares in to the sky for hours.Â
Every time Scott walks into a new memory shard, he is both excited and horrified at the same time. When he visits SAM to replay Alecâs memories, he never takes it well. He cries when he hears Ellen again, and more than often doesnât know what to do with all the emotions coming at him. It takes a lot of courage for him to start talking to Lexi - even then, he doesnât say much. He misses Sara terribly.Â
Scott flirts with Cora, then Gil, moves on to Vetra for a while, and seems like heâs settling with Reyes. But things donât work out between them - and heâs left alone most of the time. Heâs comfortable with himself, but fears the lonely hours that come more than often.Â
Scott always carries himself with a casual demeanor - constantly joking, and never serious. Itâs just that heâs never trusted himself with people, and thatâs how he keeps his distance with everyone. Now that heâs the pathfinder Lexi advised him to start opening himself up to others - but Scott doesnât know how.Â