#quietplains

What an awful realization you should never have had to come to, especially in a fannish space you were finally feeling good about again. I’m sending you all of my love. You’re a lioness for being able to share this.

Thank you Gina <333 at least I've figured another thing out about myself, that's something? Helps a bit to know I'm not just overreacting but actually having an anxiety attack, at least that I know how to fight. x___x You're the best <3

flowerharrystyles replied to your post: some pretty personal stuff that’s bee...

Oh my god. That’s horrible and it makes me so damn sad that people would do that to you (or anyone!). Totally agree that women should stick together. It’s brave of you to share this with us. Sending you love!!! <3

Thank you angel! I will take that love for sure. The more I learn about feminism the clearer it becomes how insidious so much stuff is and the more determined I feel to point that out even if people resist. Women should absolutely stick together, there's too much shit out there for us to not have each other's backs, you know? <3 

thedeathofhyacinth replied to your post: some pretty personal stuff that’s bee...

this gutted me. ): the internet is a shitty place a lot of the time and bad people tend to be the loudest. you’re talented and so sweet and you didn’t deserve any of that bullshit! and you’re very brave for posting this. (: 

That's incredibly kind of you to say, thank you darling <3 the worst of it was awhile ago now but man, I get back in that mindset and it just crushes me all over again. x___x Thank you for being so nice :-*

quietplains replied to your post: some pretty personal stuff that’s bee...

love you pumpkin <3

love youuuu <3

cyclotomic replied to your post: some pretty personal stuff that’s bee...

aw my bunny <3 <3 <3 pls protect yourself i love you

I'm doing my best ;____; I love you too muffin <3 <3

allrightfine replied to your post: some pretty personal stuff that’s bee...

xxxxxxx <3333333333

1.) How soon into a kiss do you like to get tongue involved? Pretty soon, though it depends on the vibe/situation! If it's not happening as quickly as I like then usually I just get a hand in his/her hair and tug a bit so they'll open up for me.

2.) Describe a typical outfit, including where you probably purchased the pieces of it from. Don’t forget shoes! If I'm going out on a date or like out running around for the day, I'm usually in a dress, probably vintage from an antique shop or secondhand clothing store, and either my ancient black knee high boots from the GAP or my rose-stitched Docs, heels if it's a date. But lately since it's winter I'm more boring, so jeans - I bought a really expensive pair that I was dying over like three years ago, and I was like I can never buy jeans again after this and so I actually haven't - that I've had for ages, and a sweater, probably secondhand because I hate spending money on sweaters because fuck cold weather. Then my trusty hunter green New Balance 574s. (If it's summer, then I'm probably in a crop top and shorts.)  

3.) Do you want kids, why or why not? Hmm no not really! Just not my scene I guess. I could be convinced but the other person would have to be super rich so our kid would never want for anything. Not here for cursing the next generation with student loans tbh. 

4.) What’s a thing/inside joke specific to your family? I feel like there are a ton of things but I can't think of any of them right now?? I guess whenever we need a passcode for something (i.e. only numbers) we all use the same one that I came up with for our first automatic garage door opener, and it's stuck because it's easy to remember. 

5.) If you could force one of your favorite authors to write your dream piece of fanfic, what would it be about? I would make Mikaella write a massively long Nick/Harry story. Like a 60k epic canon-compliant thing tracking their entire relationship. *_____* 

6.) How many times do you typically watch something you enjoy? (Like the Journey’s End kiss, etc.) When Willow and Xander first kissed in the season three Buffy episode Homecoming, I rewatched that kiss so many times that the tape got corrupted and my mom took it in to get it fixed for me. But these days I don't tend to get that crazy invested in canon couples so there isn't much that gets rewatches like that. Though the Dan/Blair arc on Gossip Girl got some starry-eyed replays. Actually I was totally lying before, I was bonkers invested in that pairing. FU GG. :(

7.) What’s your internet bookmarking style? Currently it's wretched, I've got my bookmarks bar with the essentials, a folder for porn sites and favorite videos, and then just Other Bookmarks. Haha worst archivist.

8.) You have to go back in time to give the you of five years ago one very specific piece of advice, what is it? Don't say anything negative publicly!!!!! Talk to your friends or keep it to yourself. Just because you're miserable doesn't mean you have to infect the fandom with your bad vibes, nobody needs that shit. 

9.) A celebrity that you like that you know is definitely married tries to make out with you, what do you do? Make out with them tbh, I don't know the full story about their life circumstances and how they conduct their marriage and I like kissin'. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

10.) How did you find your way into fanfiction reading? I was looking up Buffy fansites and eventually stumbled on one that featured fic and it totally fucking blew my mind that you could take these characters and write stories about them, like WHAT, OMG GAMECHANGER. Then I read a whoooooole lot of Buffy porn, mostly any het Willow pairing. Haven't looked back since. 

11.) Say something nice about the person whose post is first on your dash right now. That would be Karen otfivedirection, she's super chill and I really dig that about her! She's one of the people I've been following for ages who I suspect actually hates Nick Grimshaw yet she still follows me, so mad respect for that, homie. /high-five

Questions for you guys! Do this anyway even if I didn't tag you. I mean if you want. Pls. *nosy* :D

1. What other fandoms have you been in?

2. Do you write fanfiction?

3. What's something you really love about your main fandom?

4. What are you looking forward to in 2013?

5. What's your ideal birthday celebration?

6. What were you doing five years ago, and do you think you've changed a lot since then?

7. What's your favorite alcoholic beverage, or favorite food if you don't drink?

8. What's your favorite type of story to read (AU, longfic, angsty things, etc.)?

9. Are you in or interested in a romantic relationship right now, why or why not?

10. What's your favorite book?