#actuallyschizoid

My trauma is a zoo animal, safely held inside a private and isolated cage, waiting for whenever I'll come around to visit. I rarely do though. After so many years, there's nothing interesting about it anymore, I've studied all there is to know. It's become stale and old but no less feral.

Occasionally, there are days when I can hear the trauma roar and rage inside its prison, and I'll have to check for damages to the enclosure and patch up a few holes as best as I can. Sometimes I look at the trauma, too. Sometimes I let myself pity its pathetic existence. But mostly, it disgusts me. It's a wretched creature, desperate and wounded yet unable to die.

genuinely, when i look at posts made by schizoids on the internet, it really does seem like the most commonly accepted and felt emotion by a schizoid is anger. even if its supressed.

if you are a questioning schizoid, please do not use the dsm or tumblr as a diagnostic criteria.

if you are genuinely interested in learning about schizoid personality, look up psychologists who specialize in szpd and read their books, research papers, therapy manuals, etc.