IG: @queuethewellbeing
I’m officially out the 80kg range.
Here you’ll see a very vulnerable picture of me. My weight had exceeded 2 digits, and I was standing at 103kg and I’m only 5’7. In fact it was probably more as I remember this photo vividly. I was in the US, shopping for clothes. I couldn’t find much that fit in the store (I believe it was Primark). I then tried on a size 48 and they were tight and could hardly zip up. I was shattered. Devastated that I barely made it into a 48 when I considered myself to be no more than a 46 ever.
Yet there I was. My face says a lot. My confidence was wrecked. This was mid-trip, so I believe I was a couple kgs heavier than 103kg but couldn’t weight myself until I returned back home. On that trip all 3 meals of the day were: Unhealthy, massive portions, eaten in cafes/restaurants, excessive snacking and all around the “Good ole American way”. Add all of that to next to no exercise because I was sat mostly on transport or relaxing, and you get an incredible unhealthy and miserable 20-year-something old girl.
Don’t get my wrong. It was incredible to experience what America has to offer and I will be back again one day - but this time around I’m gonna be smarter, happier, healthier.
I truly believe now that if hunger is not the problem - then eating is not the solution.
I cannot out-eat uncomfortable feelings, worries or failures. I only fuel the issue. Just like any other unhealthy habit be it drinking, smoking, gambling you only really feel good for a moment. THE moment. And then you plummet back to the bottom, now worse than before and the circle of misery begins. But we are blessed with two powerful tools: Dedication and choice. Use them wisely and you can either dreams into goals or continue the cycle of imbalance. #queuethewellbeing
