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< 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚞𝚗 > the sun card presents an feeling of optimism and fulfillment. this card represents the dawn which follows the darkest of nights; because of your own personal fulfillment, you provide others with inspiration and joy as well. people are drawn to you because they are capable of seeing the warm and beautiful energy which you bring into their lives. you are also in a position in which you are capable of sharing your qualities as well as achievements with other people.

Yanfei's not really into most nicknames/ pet names/ terms of endearment? It’s not a huge deal if someone wants to call her xyz, but it doesn't do anything for her. Below is a vague list of what she'll let slide:

Everyone: Yanfei, Miss Yanfei Friends: Yan, Fei Closer Friends: Fei-Fei (maybe… more of a childhood name used by her parents) Partners: Love, (something they common up with – she's a little more lenient here)

Kissing Steven always makes Jake feel a certain way - warm and fuzzy around the beating thing behind his rib cage, solely his now that they're separated, living within their own bodies. And sometimes he misses that fuzzy sensation, craves it...

---Just like he did right now, upon watching the other rummaging inside drawers and shelves, probably trying to sort through some of his stuff; Had promised Marc to take a look at what he actually owns, just to possibly get rid of the really unnecessary stuff, now that all three of them occupy the living space rather than just one of them.

... There's just something so utterly domestic about... this - about watching Steven mumble to himself, putting books from one side to the other, contemplating whether he wants to get rid of that very old looking spoon he's just found; That's why Jake has appeared from where he'd been sitting on the couch, decided to kiss this man - because he can, after all. Can kiss him any time, whenever he wants, nothing stopping him from doing such.

Ilya had felt nervous about it himself - to bring it back up, the cologne-thing, weeks after the initial fight had happened to begin with. It could, in theory, cause old wounds to break back open, after all; Both Shane and Ilya have been doing well however, have grown significantly and learned from what that awful experience had taught them in the first place - Ilya's more outspoken now, at least he tries, instead of swallowing shit down and pretending that everything is going fine. Shane is doing the same, allows for his thoughts to run more freely whenever they bother him, and... it's good, actually. It feels as if their whole relationship has turned into even more of a safe space than it had already been before.

Perhaps it also works out well for Ilya that he's taking more therapy sessions again. Speaks to his Russian therapist at least once a week, has made entire fucking plans and shit, keeps a notebook by his side whenever they're having a zoom call to lay out further plans and work more effectively on his issues. One day they'll talk about his past, his childhood, they're currently preparing for it... even though it scares the shit out of him...

---Anyways, he'd still wanted to bring up the whole cologne-issue simply because, back then, when stuff had happened, he wasn't able to explain where that smell had come from in the first place. It had bothered him ever since, and finally, finally, he's got an answer to what had eaten away at him - and he needs Shane to know. He needs for this part of the fight to be resolved too, just to make them both feel better about it.

Because he assumes that Shane has been thinking about it too. His husband is always thinking about such things, after all, with how sensitive he is.

And when said Shane is basically melting against the counter there, Ilya knows he's been very fucking right with his assumptions regarding the love of his life. It makes him smile, softly so, because it's so cute when Shane lets it all out in this way - but at the same time it makes his heart ache a bit, tells him that yeah, the cologne-thing has indeed be a massive part of the whole... erm, hiccup.

"Yes, I'm dead serious. We can go to garage after lunch and I let you sniff my car - it's fucking horrible, Shane. I had to endure it for two fucking hours!" Chuckling lightly, trying to keep the mood somewhere further up instead of allowing for it to go into dangerous territory, he huffs and then sits up with a sigh, reaching for his can of coke that sits on the small coffee table, takes a sip. "I immediately took a shower when I came home - while you were out doing stuff with your mom. Didn't want you to smell that shit on me again - not after..."

A shrug, smile fading a little, but blue-green eyes remain soft nevertheless.

"...Well. You know."

It's not that he's embarrassed or denying his name but for all intends and purposes, he is playing a character, one he must wear as himself first and foremost. Which is why I personally don't think he'd be that comfortable sharing his real name, not only does he have a new image to upkeep, his name has far too much weight, be it emotional or symbolic, for him to share it freely. He should only return to his real name once the Aventurine persona expires but until then i think it'd take quite an amount of trust (that he doesn't easily put) to share his real name.