#qnotqueue

COMMIT baby, I have like severe ADHD, I'm the queen of: starting projects and loose ends. DO not be daunted by the logistics of pursing what gives you JOY. remember that as a child, you didnt care about the skinned knee as you chased the butterfly's beauty!!

achievements will happen with you, but take care of you first! im proud of you for getting a job even though it may not be what you want; start at the bottom of the stairs and then take a few stairs up. your next destination is identifying the job you want, and then finding someone who has it, looking up their LinkedIn, and seeing what they did to get to where they are. concurrently, work with medicines both eastern and western to help your body.

what would it add to your day to know what my face looks like?

my issue with a face reveal is that:

if people find me attractive, they'll listen to what I say bc they think im hot, not bc im right. and they'll try to blow smoke up your ass about things I might be wrong about instead of educating me and making me a better person.

wait omg, cat tax!!!

There is no wrong way to manifest, to me.

But my version of it, since I was in 3rd grade, was a mixture of hard will and later on this:

The Ana Mjalti Method

I imagine a dart board like below. I have an unlimited amount of darts and an unlimited amount of time. In the center of the board is a crystal clear vision* of what I want. I get what I want when I'm able to hit the center. Each dart is an attempt to get closer to the middle of the dart. I will eventually hit the center, because I have an unlimited amount of time and an unlimited amount of darts. Each dart can also be a mediation, a prayer (! 'Thank you for granting this for me if it works in my favor"), an attempt to become the person that can house this vision (this might be creating boundaries, taking a class, going to a therapy session "what would the person who gets this thing be doing in my situation?"). The key is to be calm; what you want is already yours. The center of the board wants you to hit it, you have unlimited attempts. Keep the center vision clear. And it is yours, because the universe through the gifts God has bestowed on it, through God itself, will make it happen for you.

*the vision has to be in extreme detail. For example, say you want a cat. you don't want the image of a cat. you want to envision the yellow eyes of your cat. you want to see each individual whisker, you want to feel the soft coat of her fur. you want to envision the color of her fur in the sunlight, you want to imagine her chasing the light etc. even more than that [language is limiting]. You want an extreme level of detail.

I know you fucking LYING right now bitch.

rule 1: fuck it, WE BALL

listen, those people aren't people you have to impress they're just NPCs put forth by the universe to see how much you want what you want.

the point of this world is experiences. you're at your THESIS girl, the time to quit was 10 years ago and even then I wouldnt recommend it.