#putrid lullabies

mold me, twist me, break my spine

pick at my wings when you're angry

every little feather is a sin i won't cry

cherry stains cover the mattress

mold blossoms on the underside

my hair is rotting on the floor

all my dreams have turned to dust

christ gazes at me upside down from the wall

and mary cries tears of cum

a piss and copper perfumed heaven

made of putrid lullabies

please, lord, i beg you

tighten the rosary past my head

i wanna hang there just like you

i starve myself cause home's not safe i've been walking in circles a long, long way i don't wanna come back i'm not safe

i've been feeding the demons the parts of your soul you gave to my heart i am making you rot like a brain parasyte

i'm always looking for a new place to go leaving dark and empty each one i step on

don't let me in

i've always loved playing boy stuff with the boys

so i am the only cake

and they all prey on me

and i feel special

they're hungry for me

they haven't eaten in years

i can feel their jaws drooling on my neck and my thighs

and they will rip me apart

until there's nothing left but blood

but i feel loved

and if i shave all of my hair

will you love me still

even if i look as ugly as i truly am

cause i am ugly

i know you know that

i am not cute like the girls you used to date

i'm a soft-boiled egg with a babyface

and i am both hard and soft at the same time

i'm gonna get all spoiled

in the sun while i see you go

the summer heat always makes me feel dirty and rotten