#purplestarlight

that being said I will always hold Isak's boys' reaction dear to my heart. Hell, my whole blog is named after Isak coming out to Jonas scene <3

ΠΟΣΟ ΘΕΟΥΛΗΣ Ο ΚΟΥΠΕΡ;

I think you're right. It's true that my feelings are still coming from a place of bitterness :D

I want her to fight for herself and maybe temporarily drop the girls. Because those girls need to change their attitude a bit. That's the important thing here. I want them to recognise their shitty behaviour and change for the better so they could be friends again. However, with the new information about Sara betraying Sana we will see how the girls react. Maybe this will be something that sort of kickstart their own realisation of their own prejudice (that would be the better alternative) or they will condemn sara, stick with Sana but ultimately not learn about their own behaviour. In the end, I still love the girls (I've been with them for the past 3 seasons after all) and I want them to grow and become better people. Yes it's true that Vilde is testing me right now but I still love her and think she can grow.

Right now at this very moment? Yes, I do. I don't think Sana pretending nothing is happening is good. She needs to do... something. I don't know if the boy squad would be better. Probably not. I think Even and Isak would be better friends. I mean if we look at s4 so far they are better friends to her than the girls even though they have limited screen time (they actually take her feelings into account and stop making out in front of her because it might make her uncomfortable unlike Vilde and Magnus, they invite her stuff and joke around with her and generally talk about other things other than sex and alcohol). Of course, the girls are not these villainous bitches that some of the fandom is claiming them to be (though jury is still out on Sara). However, I don't think they are being good friends to Sana. I think she needs to speak up, raise her concerns and then maybe hang out with her mum or other muslims little more. I think the girls need to look long and hard on how they've been treating her. I think they need to show interest in her and her religion. Yes Sana is a very private person and she can sometimes appear to be attacking you if you ask stupid questions but I do think that the girls should know by now that sana has a big soft heart and that if they actually cared and asked her questions politely she would be more than happy to talk about islam. but from what we've seen they never did that. Instead, they were assuming. Everyone keeps assuming what sana must be feeling, what her faith is like to her, what she can and cannot do. Everyone and especially her friends should stop assuming and actually ask her how she feels. I think the girls this season has been shown like very self-centered human beings. And of course, they're all going through things. Noora's head is probably still full of William, Vilde is probably in a deep turmoil about her own sexuality, Chris and Eva's minds are full of idk partying I guess? But you could see this season and even in the previous seasons that no matter what was happening in sana's head she was always there for her friends. I just wish someone somewhere (someone other than her family) would do the same for her. Sorry this got long. I just want my girl to be happy.

I know you're not darling I'm more saying like in general...I just...there is still so much we don't know about Even. And from what we do know I am so fucking sad about that. The brightest sun. Trying to hurt... I can't even... I cannot imagine what an internal turmoil he must have gone through. Being with Sonja while developing feelings for his friend. And then to be said it is wrong and trying to find...I just...I'm a mess. Just thinking about it. On another note I agree with you I also think they don't know about the suicide. And yes the parallels really are strong ones which is why is Isak's season so amazing. 

haha no worries I understood you just fine. And I'm actually quite happy with my doctor so far. she's pretty chill which I like but gets to the point which I also like.

aww Mary thanks for these kind words I love you <3 Yeah no like I understand that this is how therapy works and that is a long term thing and you might not see the results right away and all that. I just was like never really sure if I needed one (if my problems were serious enough - silly I know) but after today I guess I am convinced that there is definitely something there that needs to be figured out.