#pupamp

So this month, thanks to @lilinas I’ve discovered the amazing YouTube channel ‘Watts the Safeword’ with @pupamp and Bolt. With everything from tutorials to vlogs to Q&A, it’s amazingly sex-positive, kink-positive, and educational. 

Their videos, especially the ones with Amp and @mrkristopherweston , have been so helpful for me. For some/a couple of my followers you might be familiar with my anxiety - well unfortunately it contributes to a pretty significant block regarding sex/sexuality/kink/porn etc. Watching these videos has been a part of an recent effort on my part to kind of reclaim what I’ve been rejecting, if subconsciously. I’ve been really enjoying exploring the channel, and I’m very grateful to them for putting that content out there.

Also on a less succinct note. Fuck. Subbing still fucking calls to me. Today I watched Amp’s vlog at a leather/kink convention (I think), and despite the fact that this particular one seemed like all men (?) I was so fascinated. Even snapshots of people in that headspace was tempting, seeming comfortable and open with each other. And even more so, a vlog where Kristopher hogtied Amp in the middle of a park took my breath away. The beautiful trust they have, how comfortable Amp looked in the rope...it’s like something under my skin wants it.