my demon form has fully taken over. i am sweating. i am bitchy. i am so pissed off i fear i might explode into a thousand cursed spirits. the line workers said they’ll be back on monday. MONDAY. it’s saturday. i am tweaking like a victorian orphan seeing their first iPad.
every day i hike to my cousin’s house like some pathetic medieval creature of shame to charge my phone. his grandma is a powerhouse—cooking, cleaning, doing tasks like she’s got six arms—and i’m just there. sitting in one spot. a parasite. a shameful gremlin. consuming wattage. contributing NOTHING but body heat and awkward smiles while leeching off their electricity 😐 I AM SO HUMILIATED.
i cannot keep doing this. i miss my electricity. i miss my dignity. and most of all, i miss being insufferable in the comfort of my own home.
